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Hmmm...well, yes, neediness is something best to overcome...From my personal experience, you may have a few options.... #1. Do the work (self-love, etc) to surpass the neediness... #2. Distract yourself by diverting focus to other passionate personal projects, and foster the detachment you desire within yourself ... #3. Develop acceptance....she has said she doesn't want a relationship....there is no point in dwelling on an impossibility... #4. realize that you don't need anyone....but if you want someone...there are 7 billion people in the world...you can find others that want to be with you too

@Shakazulu Just came across it randomly, sorry I don't know...perhaps non-duality & non-attachment work could also be helpful? wishing you the best!

@Zane are you back in school soon, or done? Perhaps... either finding a smaller niche, or opening up your potential options to a broader spectrum or related work might help? @TJ Reeves gave you an awesome roadmap! From my antiquated experience, my persistence and uniqueness are usually the only ways I succeed when there is competition for work/ housing/ etc.....for example, is there a way you can stand out (not in a scary way, but a remarkable way)? .... Sending best wishes for your success!

@Moreira I'm going to guess both yes and no....perhaps quitting music that induces negative thought spirals, perpetuates depression, or is opposing your current/ desired resonance would be a good thing....that said, if I didn't occasionally indulge in darker music (black metal etc), I would potentially need to find a more destructive outlet for my negative emotions....and I have friends that get over break-ups faster by being with their sadness and listening to sappy tear jerking tunes....so, perhaps the choice could be based on emotional needs as well as intellectual needs?...perhaps dark, angry, or sad music can have healing qualities?....I don't know....here's a hilarious song to illustrate the idea:

maybe helpful? https://www.scienceandnonduality.com/reflection-on-passion-desire-and-the-life-of-the-spirit-karen-johnson/

to photoshop, or not to photoshop....it's a choice....as a filmmaker you'd have the rare and glorious opportunity to share whichever version of a given reality that you choose to project....and it would be viewed differently by each set of lenses that each viewer wears....in an industry where anything is possible, imposing perceived limitations is likely futile

@Visitor I guess I'd shift into that alternate dimension then...it sounds so peaceful, safe & calming.....almost magical.....

Authenticity!

I totally have not watched the above video yet....not even one second....sorry...so maybe I shouldn't comment...but I will anyway ....because it's fun to be brazen... re: making an impact....it seems... perhaps... that it may be more important to serve the universe than concern ones-self with the result (or impact)....even if your intention is to impact humanity, or impact restoration of nature, etc...it is the process, effort, passion, etc that you put forth to create positive change that could be the central focus...maybe, impact is a potential bonus outcome...I don't know....

@PetarKa Your thread tittle may as well be my nickname...lol...but I'm not really feeling very philosophical today....I'm in survival mode...so you just get the basic no flowers attached version of my response...of course, present moment = savour + explore+ presence...but life is rather empty without dreams for the future....we all know the expressions about not dwelling in thevpast or future....but, if one can dwell in the present and dream of potential delights to come as well, that seems ideal....we all have to brush our teeth...perhaps sometimes the sensation of the bristle massage, the rythmic sound, and boldly envigorating minty-ness fully captivate you (paste advert, lol...)....perhaps other times, it's a subconscious task that can be performed without conscious thought offering you some time to dream of amazing futures....maybe someday you will master both in unison...does it matter?

I remember my early days....when I was first on this forum (it's the only one for me still), anyway, I was still in my elementary school mindset that debating was "fun and cool"....the more PD you do, the more petty and ridiculous it seems...that said, exchanging different opinions opening minds, etc are all great...I guess it's about shifting your intentions and expectations...but mostly realizing, you won't die if you are not "right"....lol....

@see_on_see THANK YOU! Love you, such great answers, appreciate you so much!

I feel like everyone I know, or meet, regardless of age, is having a mid-life crisis right now....life direction related...especially me...perhaps I should have posted this in emotional problems......lol.......but also seriously (maybe move this?)...anyway, I have some life-purpose questions: Re mastery: if you have been away from your skill set for an extended time, and fallen quite behind...is it best to re-direct with something similar...or suffer through the dysfunction of the loss....? (for me, this, combined with my strong critic, has been killing the vibrancy of any drive, and stomping on the sparks of any passion)....yes, I've watched the perfectionist video more than once....ideas? Re motivation during tribulation: I understand that people have evoked and executed their purposes through great strife...even other creative people...such as those that captured battle with paint after witnessing the horror, etc....That said....there is an element of atmosphere...even vague security that is often needed to create...basic survival mode is effecting my ability to transcend....ideas? Re location: when I ask others actualizing their purposes if location is a component for them, the answer is often yes...but not always....how would I discover what is best for me, and my service to the multi-verse, in this respect? Re reconsilling intense desire to create and share...with insane inner critic, unstable circumstances, and lack of focused direction: how the fuck can I do this when I have developed a perpetual cycle reminiscent of deflating balloons that never reach the sky.... Thiat sounds pretty shitty...sorry....for those without mid-life bullshit....those that are living your purpose...I adore and respect your divinity....and humbly request your assistance.....

@Revolutionary Think This is totally hypocritical ...but I often have little tollerance for intollerance, and I just want you to know I respect you regardless of your choice in this realm...I hope you did not feel bullied for sharing such an intimate quality...anyway.... I also think that some people have made some exquisite comments with the intention to inspire your openmindedness.....and openmindedness is usually something beneficial to consider...on one hand you've shown this uniqueness and diversity that people often keep hidden with a fiery boldness, and on the other hand you've opened a pandoras box of curiosity for some, and judgement for others....as the curious sort myself...i'm wondering if i can ask you a question? If yes, is this an actual value for you at this point?

It might be even worse than sheep....lemmings that follow each other off cliffs and shit.....

@see_on_see Thanks so much for your super thoughtful & insightful answer....i loved both your words, and the quote....all of it is so very, very, true! .....time management, finishing things, etc have always been struggles for me...mastering either of those things would be a dream come true for me someday! Fantastic perspectives, thanks! ....anyway, a number of "but______" excuses came to mind at times when I read your words...fortunately, I surpassed most of them ...except one ....it lingers....I have already been working for 2 years on most of the things you mentioned, and I have almost unlimited concentration for life purpose stuff....the issue is that my critic is stronger than ever (possibly even growing).... if I feel the work is important, then the work must be of a certain standard which I feel incapable of achieving at this point...I would rather burn shitty efforts than allow them to exist, regardless of the beauty of my intentions....I have the big picture....so many incredible, vibrant, epic, mural like big pictures....but I am unable to execute anything in a remotely acceptable manner at this point....this is like a brutal, smashing steel, style sword battle....it's my intense desire to actually create and serve the universe literally at war with my critic constantly....and of course the critic has been victorious in a maliciously ominipitant overlord type way...SO....of all of the techniques, rescearch, etc you mentioned, which is the most powerful, effective, and fastest blade against this critic? Life is short, the world is crazy and could end any day....I understand I have a lot of personal work to do, I will continue to do it....but I' d really like to work on my purpose at the same time ....if I can find a way...ideas?

I am a couple of weeks behind in videos..but many of Leo's other videos offer awesome insight into raising kids despite the fact that he has none...I'm curious now...but it's likely an interpretation @ThirdEyeSees ....that said...children usually have neurotic fucked up parents...and end up fucked up/ neuroti, and in need of healing/ reprogramming....our culture is also fucked up, and it fucks up both kids and parents...it's all pretty fucked...on the rare occasions, when conscious parents raise Devine kids, with magic bubbles of cultural deflection encompassing them, it's quite incredible....and the world would be pretty boring without kids...we need their innocence and curiosity....their spirit of wonder....their laughter....and their pure bliss!!!

@Heart of Space I am enjoying considering your perspective...even if that's kinda disturbing...like a morbid fascination or something...anyway...if what you say is true...is the opposite true in the initial phases of use?....if so, at which point is an individuals intelligence increasing as a result of the mind opening experiences, and at which point does that turn to harm?...is it dose dependant, age dependant, long-term use dependant etc???... I still can't say I believe you, or agree with definitive harm from normal doses... for example, I first met one of the original merry-pranksters when I was only 12 years old (you can imagine the extent of his psychedelic experience), and, I can tell you that he is still so much sharper... and so much more vibrant than most others his age...with the added benefits of: mind-blowing creativity, beautiful child-like wonder to adore each moment, an astounding capacity for freedom and fun, true compassion and generosity, etc.... I may be to young to have known him "before" but damaged would never be a word I'd use to describe him...if anything, I'd pick "enhanced"....that said, I totally agree with you that there are dangers, serious ones too.....and I believe even a merry-prankster would caution that 30 grams is far too much!!!

@pluto @Wyatt I have only rave reviews for Reishi....Ginkgo & Gotu Kola are amazing, yes....and I don't want to fall into the trap of being one of those "herbs are dangerous" types...because for the most part, medicinals bless us with more benefits than harm...even the ones people fear....that said....I have one warning with combining the 2... (Ginkgo & Gotu Kola)... I believe there is a possibility they may bring on schizophrenia in those that are pre-disposed.... like cannabis can....at least this is something I've witnessed with someone that took this as tea daily.....I have no proof that it's directly connected for certain.... that said, if you may be at risk...maybe consider drinking a different potion....

I thought you were talking about actual dirt, because I'm ridiculously literal....lol....I remember this kid in elementary school ate an actual mud pie, and when I caught him (and possibly teased, I wasn't a bully, it was just hard not to say something....) he told me in the cutest sing-song voice "God made dirt, so dirt don't hurt"...lol....anyway it's true!!!....when I pick a carrot out of the garden, I don't scrub them to infinity, or peel away the goodness....dirt has minerals, enzymes, etc...a little dirt "don't hurt"....lol...and I do occasionally eat junk food, and sugar....I just limit....

@everybody I'm sorry for my initial emotional reaction...I still feel 30 grams is dangerous/ ridiculous....I suggest anyone interested in this consult the research team at the John Hopkins institute (psilocybin department) and ask questions such as: maximum dose ever used for therapy, and the results...plus their opinion of 30 grams for enlightenment, etc...of course medical professionals will likely use caution, that said, this is an institution that truly sees the benefits for personal growth and has incredible expertise with harm reduction as well.... @Heart of Space I honestly haven't looked into the science, I don't know for certain if it's a permanent high, or a brain fry...that said, from my personal experience - witnessing this phenomenon in a number of people, they seem to be just as intelligent (possibly with increased analytical capacity and imagination) and really do seem to be experiencing the "high" permanently....I also knew a woman that did her Masters Degree studying the effects of LSD on physiology/ neurology, and regardless of the dose, the brain was never harmed, only changed/ chromosomes re-arranged in new ways, for good. In cases of perma-high, it seems like a switch is flipped...and the person simply never returns to "our version of reality"...unfortunately, this is usually too frightening for the individual, or their unique experiences make them unable to maintain "life necessities" (such as caring for themselves, transportation, etc....)

I'm not saying don't expand your consciousness in this way...at all, I agree with Leo that this can equate to years of meditation for some...fair enough...but this is too much!...I don't give a shit, that's fucking dangerous guys! It seems like you are daring each other like a bunch of macho chimps holding moonshine kegs like they are fucking cans of beer, wtf? I know people in mental institutions ***for life *** because of shit like that...from my personal experience, in observing others, it is possible to take so much that you never come down. I can think of a number of examples that I know personally, but I guess the best is my friends parents. When he was a young teen, his parents foolishly split a 100-lot of LSD in their beer at a party. I have visited them, with him, in the mental institution....it's like they were perpetually high, and not always in a "good" way... they saw a lot of conspiracy and danger around etc....I know of another person where this happened with way too many mushrooms....please, dose responsibly!

@Himanshu I think free, unique, expression in all forms is amazing...and clothing is art....but I find "fashion" to generally be a tool for conformity as @jwkspeck said...such as magazines that project what we "should wear", "this season"......that said, it can also be like an art show of fabric in a living moving performance art/ art show too...i'm feeling pretty open-minded on the subject today I guess...but I could just as easily slip into disdain for the overproduction/ sweat-shops, and darker side of the fashion realm...oh, i'm already slipping into it...lol....and the disposable low quality crap - just to "fit in"....i'm slipping further...stopping now...lol...

My first instinct was to answer "ALWAYS"....but...then the ego sneaks in....and so I'll say "almost always" for now....when the truth is "dangerous" such as: you would be badly/ physically harmed if people knew your sexual orientation/ spiritual beliefs etc in a given situation...or, if in telling the truth, harm would come to another, even emotional harm (if it's significant)....perhaps those are the exceptions...or at least seem like they should be exceptions at my level of consciousness....

@kieranperez I would have said something similar to @pluto ....Bruce Lipton has the keys to the subconscious castle.... also there are other ways.... and different things work for different people... if you have negative subconscious programming - creating limiting beliefs, etc...I would not be afraid to work on that....and since the internal is the external... it's likely best to start there...