Human Mint

Same here, a week ago i had a similar ugly schizophrenic experience with wet mushrooms. It was a disturbed paranoid mind. I am trying to go trough the experience, live life and surrender more. i have hope for my life. I do not permit myself to get stuck into that negative train of thoughts, not healthy. My mind sabotages too, but that's to be expected so I let it happen But honestly I thought I was going to stay like this forever and I even thought I had to kill myself because i wouldn't have choice... Strength and please take care of yourself, if it is necessary go to therapy or psychiatrist. everything is going to be fine pro tip: when my mind starts to build the horrifying negativity, i get angry. And it usually helps lol. Expressing emotions help me not to get caught in the doubt/overthinking

when i was meditating on not doing and succeded i felt totally free while interacting with people which i wouldn't feel comfortable normally. but i think it was a process of letting go of ideas rather of what you say (focusing on sensations till reach mental silence).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzgUkhViIFw microtonal music

In my own experience it is better to focus your energy on the activities you love (don't fear to do that, is the best you can do) and you will meet people in the way. They will go if you stop hanging with them. Maybe it is your ego telling you that if you continue hanging with them you will waste time and energy. If you follow your path they will have an example to do so themselves