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I don't get why would anyone try to fight coffee (caffeine) addiction. You can mix ordinary coffee with decaf and gradually lower your caffeine intake.

Vaped, it has perfect duration

I stumbled onto TF concept when I had chest pain (not physical pain) and had my obsessive thinking period (it was almost impossible not to think about her for five seconds). I googled to find out what the heck is going on and found posts on reddit about Twin Flames. It's probably not what you think it is. It might seem to be a perfect match but than it feels like nothing. At first I noticed that there is something weird about her. When I was is in close proximity I felt like my visual field is waving and felt and felt mixture of nervousness and calmness. Then I managed to contact her via social media. She liked me immediately. She felt identical to me but opposite at the same time - same at the core but opposite at every other way. She could understand me completely but was unable to get my way of thinking at all There was a possibility of complete understanding, but it was painfully hard to talk. I was only able to have a conversation with her when I wasn't acting from my mind. Also whenever I try to interact with her initially I feel uncomfortable intense energy, then it tends to dissipate. Now time has passed I'm less obsessed with her. It's a real mind*uck. I crave her but I than realize that I'm her. I can't get her in any way because I'm her and already have her! It feels exactly like aftereffects of 5 MeO DMT, when you sit in your room and you are aware that this room is you. It's a mixture of your ultimate desire and utter indifference. Twin Flame =/= Soulmate. Soulmate makes you experience emotions, Twin Flame makes you feel 'numb' in a pleasant way. I highly recommend this channel, he is super annoying, his teachings aren't advanced, he repeats himself a lot, but it's best you can get https://www.youtube.com/c/NewWorldAllstar I also recommend Ken Wilber's book Grace and Grit. In my opinion his wife was definitely his TF.

I'm getting annoyed easily if my body is tense (trapped energy). It's better to be easily annoyed than being apathetic, in comparison this is higher consciousness state If your case is similar to mine, there are two ways you can solve. First is to investigate why certain things are annoying. Another way is releasing and making your energy circulate smoothly (stretching, breathworks, meditation, walking). If you can control your mind it becomes unimportant what kind of thoughts are arising because it is easy to let them go.

I can't get proper water filter because there isn't enough free space in the kitchen. I bought few 5 liter bottles (with water) and I cycle to refill them with underground water. It doesn't take much time and it's enjoyable. Now my water is high quality, but what about microplastics?

It was really annoying to listen to blog videos on my phone. Now I also see that I missed some interesting stuff..

So many girls got triggered.. Currently I'm not living in English speaking country so it's 1 to 1 translation. Female/woman is more formal, girl is informal. If I like a girl she's a girl. In work related situations using word girl would be less appropriate. It makes her seem younger and less qualified/experienced. If a female is super old.. like 25 years old it's very unlikely that I will call her 'girl'. In most cases females/girls mentioned on this forum are dating material, not co-workers. That's why they are being called girls.

If rectal administration is the best method 5 Meo DMT it should also work well with LSD. I have already tried once 50 ug of 1P-LSD. The strength seems to be comparable to a 100 ug of ALD-52 (still not enough for ego death) or maybe a little bit less intense. Normally 1P is harsh, faster acting and a little bit stronger (100 ug of 1P is enough). Rectal 1P is very similar to oral ALD-52. Other observations: - trip is smooth and pleasent. 1P taken orally makes me a little bit anxious - I have to mix it with small dose of ALD-52 - 1P taken orally cause CRAZY pupils dilitation. I have to keep my eyes nearly closed. I don't have that effect with rectal administration - trip duration seems to be shorter - rather six hours instead of twelve. Peak was quite intense for just 50 ug. I guess 75 could be enough to reach ego death. I hope I will be able to give it another try with a larger dose.

I also experience high pitched sound when I practice yoga, do breathing exercises or I'm in a deep meditative state. I like it because it's a sign I'm doing things right.

I don't know if I'm good at attracting and I don't do pickup. I think it's enough if you are able to notice if a girl give you signs of interest. If you are not blind (like I used to be) you will often notice that within seconds of meeting. In me experience its unlikely that you can build attraction over time - you can enhance attraction if it is moderate but it's pointless in my opinion.

I prefer plugged LSD. Normally I would eat a lunch, than after bathroom time I would plug it. Eating helps with bowel movements that's why I'm not tripping in a fasted state.

The younger you are the more likely you will feel bad after vaccination. There is opposite situation in case of getting covid. I can't be sure what would happen if I didn't get vaccinated. Still being sick twice rather than once was a bad deal. Covid wasn't even nowhere near as bad as a vaccine.

I got vaccinated and now got covid. I would be annoyed if government forced me to take another hit that would be totally pointless. Plus in my experience covid was much more pleasant experience than vaccination

Clickbait Not really full moon, it was day after - I have no idea if it really has any impact.. I have never experienced this kind of intensity while being sober (except for my dreams), it was beyond anything I have experienced on LSD. BE CAREFUL if you want to try my method!! Because of intensity it happened to me to pass out a couple of times. I hit my head on the floor twice and once I hit it against the wardrobe. Holding on wardrobe might not be enough if you have no sense of what is up and what is down and your whole reality is shaking. This day I took half of Armodafinil quite late, if I remember well it was at 1 pm. Experience I'm describing happened at 2 am. Before that I masturbated in a way that has risen intensity of my energy - I noticed that it has significant impact on states I can reach with energy practices like Kriya or breathworks. I attached an image of my diy kriya. There is nothing complicated about that. I take a full breath in and I'm slowly bending back almost into the bridge. I try to stretch as much as possible - this is my main goal. Than I go back to a straight position with my hands up - I stand like an arrow. Than I forcefully push the air into my stomach. When I'm done I slooowly breath out the air into my feet. Proper posture and breathing direction are very significant. You can play with intensity using your lungs and contracting muscles. I hope you appreciate my MS Paint skills Coming back to 'trip report'. This time wasn't first time but now I experienced levels of intensity almost on a par with 5 MeO DMT. I had some mild fractal visuals. It could be described as mini 5 MeO. It hits quickly and hard and takes into nothingness/everythingness where no human ever existed. Sometimes to the point when I'm scared I'm going to stay there forever. For some reason last night I experience was much more intense than before (like x4 factor). As long as I was holding my breath I was able to feel energy traveling through my legs. This time each experience lasted ranging from 10 to 30 seconds. Peak lasts maybe few seconds - hard to estimate if time doesn't exist This practice works as long as there is energy left to dissipate. It might be especially effective if your body is tense.

I have never tried MDMA Do you have tricks to enhance experience? Armodafinil sometimes feels weak - if you don't do anything to enhance it's effects. Sometimes it can get really intense if you do proper things. ======================================================================================================================== I just had a coronavirus (it was mild) and was unable to perform my energy practices at the same level. Especially stiff muscles made it challenging. But I did some experimentation with binaural beats plus multiple Shaktipat transmission at once. I used binaural beats before. However if I combine it with transmissions it almost makes me lose perception of my body! Yesterday when I started my usual back bending practice my lower back felt quite stiff. I managed to release the tension by doing multiple vigorous but shallow bends. My body started feeling soft and that it felt almost like air. Usually when I do back bending I release a lot of energy and experience everything as fractal. This time I was unable to release it but had prolonged experience of not feeling my body. Great for cleansing! I recommend using binaural beats. Probably my favourite one: One of Shaktipat transmissions I used:

You can have 'same dream' twice.. In reality everything is NOW, so there is nowhere to go back

Genetics. I was always very skinny, especially as a child. Plus I have long legs and arms so it makes me look even more skinny. It doesn't mean I was weak as most would assume. Fat makes muscles seem bigger but in reality I was almost strongest among my classmates. Now I have more muscle mass so I don't look sick anymore I have muscles and visible abs but you can't see it if I have my shirt on. You will assume that I'm just skinny. Especially now when I'm doing keto my weight is the same but I have less volume. I doubt that eating more would let me gain weight significantly.

Oh GOD! I just had my most powerful 'sober' (I took Armodafinil today) experience. First I just played it and did my stuff. I noticed that my vision became wider. My body also became softer. Than I sat crosslegged and looked at my colosed eyelids. I had those famous blue visuals but they were much more distinct than usually. Than I started my favorite back bending practice. I felt distinct energy flow as always. It wasn't particularly intense, main difference was FLUFFINESS. Usually energy hits me like vaped 5 MeO. This time I was warm and soft - similar to plugged ALD52 - you can barely feel it coming up. It is much easier to keep energy folowing and bask in fluffiness. I was able to release tension from by muscles better than ever before (I mean without psychedelics). In the end I blacked out and realized that I'm laying on the floor

I just made my transmission "compilation" as suggested to test things out I used 4 transmissions + powerful binaural beats. If anyone has ideas for improvement please share or DM me. I can then upgrade my project and than upload, so you will be able to download and test it yourself.

Interesting post. Thank you for sharing! I think that spherical perception is related to peripheral vision. Under stress vision is becoming very narrow. The more relaxed fit are the wider field of vision becomes. If you you all attachments your brain treats everything as equally important. I had this experiences when I was talking with someone and everything was melting together into one thing (not physically) and I was inside of my bubble of perception.

If you go deep enough there is only one pair of distinction without any meaning that want to merge into one. One can't exist without another. Reality is made of infinite number of meaningless distinctions. Because something exist you have a reference point. You can name things: black, salty, loud, long, ugly, brittle etc. Difference between distance and smell is imaginary.

☺️ I had a cool realization about formlessness. Totally unrelated Lets imagine your whole field of view is a painting. Painting is made of paint strokes. If you look at the every single paint stroke (by increasing your consciousness) there is no form, only infinite number of meaningless distinctions. If you look too close there is no meaning, if you are far away you see white canvas (assuming that each color of paint was used equally and uniformly). I'm sleepy, good night everyone

There is no distinction between anything but we still perceive it. What I'm saying that I prefer to use word God to describe formless and shapeshifting qualities, not existence as a form. It could be used other way around - God as a totality of form - depending on preference. I feel like we are getting lost in ungrounded concepts and going circles now Enlightenment is artificial concept. You are either aware or not aware that you are aware

Yes. Everything is God, but if you lick a toilet seat in a public bathroom it will have a different flavour than vanilla ice cream God realization is a "higher energy" experience. You can be "enlightened" and never experience peak God realization. I heard a story of a enlightened women who had no idea what is going on. She thought she went crazy until someone explained what happened to her. Also children up to two or three years old are in a witness state but do not have an understanding that they are God. You can be God realized but it doesn't dissolve your problems. You had an experience but than you are left with conceptual understanding. You may have a great framework but you will still have issues with anxiety, anger and compulsiveness. It's a great starting point. Enlightenment is rather about raising your baseline consciousness level to a certain point when you no longer identify with your ego.

Being the only observer and being God are different experiences in my terminology. In the first case there is sudden realization "Oh crap! I'm the only one stuck in this eternal existence" - nothing changes externally, it's only me losing boundaries between external world. Experience of God is something deeper. It contains existence without particular form, you forget about ever being a human - it seems like a joke. Being the observer = ego death, God realization = breakthrough. Enlightened state is living as the observer. Your consciousness has to be fast/focused enough to follow emerging creation. If you ego is to heavy, you can't follow.