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I also experience high pitched sound when I practice yoga, do breathing exercises or I'm in a deep meditative state. I like it because it's a sign I'm doing things right.

I don't know if I'm good at attracting and I don't do pickup. I think it's enough if you are able to notice if a girl give you signs of interest. If you are not blind (like I used to be) you will often notice that within seconds of meeting. In me experience its unlikely that you can build attraction over time - you can enhance attraction if it is moderate but it's pointless in my opinion.

I prefer plugged LSD. Normally I would eat a lunch, than after bathroom time I would plug it. Eating helps with bowel movements that's why I'm not tripping in a fasted state.

The younger you are the more likely you will feel bad after vaccination. There is opposite situation in case of getting covid. I can't be sure what would happen if I didn't get vaccinated. Still being sick twice rather than once was a bad deal. Covid wasn't even nowhere near as bad as a vaccine.

I got vaccinated and now got covid. I would be annoyed if government forced me to take another hit that would be totally pointless. Plus in my experience covid was much more pleasant experience than vaccination

Clickbait Not really full moon, it was day after - I have no idea if it really has any impact.. I have never experienced this kind of intensity while being sober (except for my dreams), it was beyond anything I have experienced on LSD. BE CAREFUL if you want to try my method!! Because of intensity it happened to me to pass out a couple of times. I hit my head on the floor twice and once I hit it against the wardrobe. Holding on wardrobe might not be enough if you have no sense of what is up and what is down and your whole reality is shaking. This day I took half of Armodafinil quite late, if I remember well it was at 1 pm. Experience I'm describing happened at 2 am. Before that I masturbated in a way that has risen intensity of my energy - I noticed that it has significant impact on states I can reach with energy practices like Kriya or breathworks. I attached an image of my diy kriya. There is nothing complicated about that. I take a full breath in and I'm slowly bending back almost into the bridge. I try to stretch as much as possible - this is my main goal. Than I go back to a straight position with my hands up - I stand like an arrow. Than I forcefully push the air into my stomach. When I'm done I slooowly breath out the air into my feet. Proper posture and breathing direction are very significant. You can play with intensity using your lungs and contracting muscles. I hope you appreciate my MS Paint skills Coming back to 'trip report'. This time wasn't first time but now I experienced levels of intensity almost on a par with 5 MeO DMT. I had some mild fractal visuals. It could be described as mini 5 MeO. It hits quickly and hard and takes into nothingness/everythingness where no human ever existed. Sometimes to the point when I'm scared I'm going to stay there forever. For some reason last night I experience was much more intense than before (like x4 factor). As long as I was holding my breath I was able to feel energy traveling through my legs. This time each experience lasted ranging from 10 to 30 seconds. Peak lasts maybe few seconds - hard to estimate if time doesn't exist This practice works as long as there is energy left to dissipate. It might be especially effective if your body is tense.

I have never tried MDMA Do you have tricks to enhance experience? Armodafinil sometimes feels weak - if you don't do anything to enhance it's effects. Sometimes it can get really intense if you do proper things. ======================================================================================================================== I just had a coronavirus (it was mild) and was unable to perform my energy practices at the same level. Especially stiff muscles made it challenging. But I did some experimentation with binaural beats plus multiple Shaktipat transmission at once. I used binaural beats before. However if I combine it with transmissions it almost makes me lose perception of my body! Yesterday when I started my usual back bending practice my lower back felt quite stiff. I managed to release the tension by doing multiple vigorous but shallow bends. My body started feeling soft and that it felt almost like air. Usually when I do back bending I release a lot of energy and experience everything as fractal. This time I was unable to release it but had prolonged experience of not feeling my body. Great for cleansing! I recommend using binaural beats. Probably my favourite one: One of Shaktipat transmissions I used:

You can have 'same dream' twice.. In reality everything is NOW, so there is nowhere to go back

Genetics. I was always very skinny, especially as a child. Plus I have long legs and arms so it makes me look even more skinny. It doesn't mean I was weak as most would assume. Fat makes muscles seem bigger but in reality I was almost strongest among my classmates. Now I have more muscle mass so I don't look sick anymore I have muscles and visible abs but you can't see it if I have my shirt on. You will assume that I'm just skinny. Especially now when I'm doing keto my weight is the same but I have less volume. I doubt that eating more would let me gain weight significantly.

Oh GOD! I just had my most powerful 'sober' (I took Armodafinil today) experience. First I just played it and did my stuff. I noticed that my vision became wider. My body also became softer. Than I sat crosslegged and looked at my colosed eyelids. I had those famous blue visuals but they were much more distinct than usually. Than I started my favorite back bending practice. I felt distinct energy flow as always. It wasn't particularly intense, main difference was FLUFFINESS. Usually energy hits me like vaped 5 MeO. This time I was warm and soft - similar to plugged ALD52 - you can barely feel it coming up. It is much easier to keep energy folowing and bask in fluffiness. I was able to release tension from by muscles better than ever before (I mean without psychedelics). In the end I blacked out and realized that I'm laying on the floor

I just made my transmission "compilation" as suggested to test things out I used 4 transmissions + powerful binaural beats. If anyone has ideas for improvement please share or DM me. I can then upgrade my project and than upload, so you will be able to download and test it yourself.

Interesting post. Thank you for sharing! I think that spherical perception is related to peripheral vision. Under stress vision is becoming very narrow. The more relaxed fit are the wider field of vision becomes. If you you all attachments your brain treats everything as equally important. I had this experiences when I was talking with someone and everything was melting together into one thing (not physically) and I was inside of my bubble of perception.

If you go deep enough there is only one pair of distinction without any meaning that want to merge into one. One can't exist without another. Reality is made of infinite number of meaningless distinctions. Because something exist you have a reference point. You can name things: black, salty, loud, long, ugly, brittle etc. Difference between distance and smell is imaginary.

☺️ I had a cool realization about formlessness. Totally unrelated Lets imagine your whole field of view is a painting. Painting is made of paint strokes. If you look at the every single paint stroke (by increasing your consciousness) there is no form, only infinite number of meaningless distinctions. If you look too close there is no meaning, if you are far away you see white canvas (assuming that each color of paint was used equally and uniformly). I'm sleepy, good night everyone

There is no distinction between anything but we still perceive it. What I'm saying that I prefer to use word God to describe formless and shapeshifting qualities, not existence as a form. It could be used other way around - God as a totality of form - depending on preference. I feel like we are getting lost in ungrounded concepts and going circles now Enlightenment is artificial concept. You are either aware or not aware that you are aware

Yes. Everything is God, but if you lick a toilet seat in a public bathroom it will have a different flavour than vanilla ice cream God realization is a "higher energy" experience. You can be "enlightened" and never experience peak God realization. I heard a story of a enlightened women who had no idea what is going on. She thought she went crazy until someone explained what happened to her. Also children up to two or three years old are in a witness state but do not have an understanding that they are God. You can be God realized but it doesn't dissolve your problems. You had an experience but than you are left with conceptual understanding. You may have a great framework but you will still have issues with anxiety, anger and compulsiveness. It's a great starting point. Enlightenment is rather about raising your baseline consciousness level to a certain point when you no longer identify with your ego.

Being the only observer and being God are different experiences in my terminology. In the first case there is sudden realization "Oh crap! I'm the only one stuck in this eternal existence" - nothing changes externally, it's only me losing boundaries between external world. Experience of God is something deeper. It contains existence without particular form, you forget about ever being a human - it seems like a joke. Being the observer = ego death, God realization = breakthrough. Enlightened state is living as the observer. Your consciousness has to be fast/focused enough to follow emerging creation. If you ego is to heavy, you can't follow.

Guys do not commit because they are not sure that this girl is right for them. If they do they compromise. It is different thing to have fun with someone, but staying with them (potentially) for the rest of life is a whole different story. Most relationships are formed only because people couldn't find a better partner. Why would you want to be with a guy who isn't into you?

That was a joke. Sort of. First you have to ask yourself what being awake means. This is a good quote "There are, strictly speaking, no enlightened people, there is only enlightened activity." You are not becoming enlightened, you rather realize it. You can be aware of it and lose it. It's not a permanent thing which means you can't posses it. You can be only awake at the moment. Everyone is awake from time to time, it's only a matter how often. Being awake = being the observer. Maybe better question is: how often you are aware that you are the only thing that exists? How close are you to this direct experience? Can you reach it any time at will? In my case I can almost daily reach this realization with yoga. It is definitely not permanent thing for me. Two days ago I sat with my phone and I was scrolling something (it wasn't very conscious of me) and I started melting into oneness. Lets say I am enlightened 1 minute a day but it takes an effort.

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Glycemic index isn't all that matter. It isn't that bad if you raise insulin and than you let it drop. Low glycemic index foods may be even worse because they have extended release. It is hard not to snack when you eat high glycemic foods. But if you have only 5 potatoes per day, there is nothing to snack between meals ;D

I think his advices are good if you are an average person (I mean obese :D) - no carbs ever again and stay in a ketosis till you die (I'm exaggerating). I like Thomas DeLauer and Siim Land because they tell how to optimize body, not to heal after years of horrible habits.

Thank you for sharing. Currently I'm reading all your topics What was that video? Now it's unavailable so it became even more interesting

@JoshuaBell No, you think you want to die. First of all you can't, which is really unfortunate You can't stop existing because there is only existence. Even after death you will still exist. I think that you want to die, but death = unconditional love. You want love not death. You are not the first one to experience this thing In fact you should be really grateful! Just act as if you were already dead and drop all expectations. Just give yourself some time (I'm talking about months) and those feelings will naturally dissipate. You ego is dying so it has to be painful but it's not going to last forever. I recommend "Awareness" book by Anthony De Mello.

Large buoyant LDL is a fuel carrier and isn't a problem. The issue is that if you measure total LDL it is mostly large buoyant and it doesn't give much information about more dangerous forms of LDL which are smaller. In some cases people might have higher cholesterol and be healthy, and some people with normal cholesterol levels might have too much small dense LDL. Another paradox is that if you test LDL in a fasted state (this is how it is usually made), person who is fat adapted will get higher levels of cholesterol. LDL itself isn't a direct cause of CDV. I agree that if you have high LDL it is worth to check other makers to be safe. Another interesting fact: "Cholesterol absorption efficiency was lower and cholesterol synthesis was higher in obese subjects with diabetes than in those without diabetes, suggesting that diabetes modulates cholesterol metabolism more than obesity alone." https://care.diabetesjournals.org/content/25/9/1511 The problem is that you lump together opposite groups of diabetes and low carb because of one shared marker - LDL. I do not hold strong opinion about this subject but it seems to me that issue of LDL is overblown and in many cases dangerous because it impacts dietary choices.