NaturaZen

Thank you so much Ayla for taking the time to read. I guess Simplicity can be the only line of conduct for me.

I'm actually living that same question and have been somehow "forced" to have mine well defined. I believe we're not static and what seemed a life purpose 5 years ago, may not make sense now. For now just try to observe what makes YOU happy, what gives you the chills when you talk about it, what people say you're really good at but you never took that for real and maybe give some attention to those dreams that scare you to death when you think of put them into action! There is no life purpose with taking action! Start investigating your life, trying things with a conscious mind. When it feels right, you just know it and when that happens find yourself a good plan to put your purpose into action.

I've started my journey into self-awareness, deeper knowledge and healthier life style 5 years ago. After several years of living with depression and eating disorders, I decided I wanted to transform myself. Wonderful things happened for me: became a Reiki Master and acupunturist and kind "devoted" my life to my teacher that later became my husband, a quite well knowned figure. A year and half ago he decide he wanted to divorced and I put all my strenghts in pulling myself together. A couple of months ago while watching Leo's video: "How you lie", the feeling of realizing "this is what I do to myself!" just stroke me immediately!It did not leave my mind for weeks and against all my fears I finally did what I had to do: quited the job that made me miserable and got this huge opportunity of working in the fashion industry for a well kn owed company, that same week. Since then the feeling of anger never left me! It took me one year to assume that I had a manipulative/ violent partner and that I had allowed myself to be treated like crap to keep a perfect picture to everyone else. At this moment I feel a "lie", have no motivation what so ever to continue my healing activity as a therapist and although I don't follow any religion belief, I feel spiritually "alone". Everyone compliments me for my smile and motivation but I feel a lie. As anyone ever felt like "Is this all there is? Shouldn´t I been doing something greater with my life and actually know my life purpose?". Thank you for your insights on this also!