JayT79

I have a serious issue with being in my head a lot and self negative talk that keeps my anxiety at medium high. I want to be at a stage when I can be calm majority of my life and enjoy life like everyone else is doing (or seems to be doing). The calmness I'm referring to is similar to a mdma high when the mind quiets down and everything is peaceful while being in the present moment. I also feel like my body needs to release trauma that's been in my body since the trauma effected my body when the trauma (abused by my narcissistic father) happened as a young child ( at Age 6). When I say release trauma, I mean a physically sensation that I could feel and release and no longer have the trauma there. Is this something I can do on my own or would I need a specialist to help me achieve this? Thanks in advanced for suggestion and advice.

@studentofthegame What resources are you using? I'm thinking of buying a book called Letting Go by David R Hawkins and see if it can help me out. Lots of good reviews 86% 5 star rating.

@WaveInTheOcean So if someone who is traumatized by their childhood and well into their adulthood. What psychedelics would you recommend to start this repair/growth transition.

I'm a newbie, first post. I can definitely relate. I was on mdma a few weekends ago and I noticed the same thing that you felt with your trip. The inner thoughts went completely quiet as you can hear the quietness in your head and then the emotions begin to radiate and put forth loving positivity towards someone. I think that's what infinite source consciousness itself is all about, quiet mindfulness and complete radiate of love at all times.