Tristan12

Life is just one giant love story...

"I once had a thousand desires, but in my one desire to know you, all else melted away." - Rumi "Love is from the infinite, and will remain until eternity. The seeker of love escapes the chains of birth and death. Tomorrow, when resurrection comes, the heart that is not in love will fail the test." - Rumi

@flume Thanks!

"The agony of lovers burns with the fire of passion. Lovers leave traces of where they've been. The wailing of broken hearts is the doorway to God." - Rumi

After already enduring years of extreme suffering, I hit a low so low that I thought I was surely done for. My heart felt so empty and barren of love, and there was nothing but endless pain and suffering. The suffering was so deep and I was so completely empty of love that my heart felt as though it was twisting and distorting from the pain, like when you suck all the air out of a water bottle and it starts to crumple up. I realized that without love, I am completely helpless, completely powerless, and there is nothing I can do, I am just alone and in pain forever. In this moment I thought I was surely done for, there was no way I could survive this, but then, right at the last second, I was hit with the most beautiful, compassionate, understanding love I have ever seen, and I just balled my eyes out. I have felt the beauty of love before, but nothing like this. From being in this place of extreme suffering, where I felt like I was right about to be done for, to being pulled out of it by the most beautiful love I have ever seen, I just couldn't believe it. I remember the way I felt the second that love hit. I have never seen something so beautiful and so pure. I remember the sheer gratitude I had, knowing that there was nothing I could have offered that love, being in the helpless and powerless state I was in. It didn't owe me anything, and there was no reason why it shouldn't have just left me there in my suffering. But even though it had absolutely no reason to, it came for me, it rescued me, it held me in its loving embrace... just because of love. It was at that moment that I really understood love. Its like how you don't really understand the importance of water until you are on the brink of death from dehydration. I realized that love isn't just a good feeling. Love is SO much more than that. Love is home. Love is just the right thing to do. Love is how things should be. Nothing should be left behind without love. Not only was I rescued and relieved from my suffering in that moment, but it was done in the most beautiful and elegant way. Love is beautiful not because it is flashy or because its trying to show off, but just because of what it is. Love itself is infinitely beautiful and perfect, because its love!!! From that day on, my heart understood. I can feel my connection to Love deep within me, and my heart now speaks the language of Love. My heart is forever tied to Love, forever longing for reunification with God. I realize in the core of my being that nothing could ever be more important than Love, and I seek to give myself to it completely.

"Some day our souls will be one and our union will be forever. I know that everything I give you comes back to me, so I give you my life, hoping that you will come back to me." - Rumi

Anger doesn't respond to rationality. It just wants to be seen and felt. Exactly

I would focus more on emotional work for dealing with anger issues. If you try to use spirituality as a solution (depending on specifically what you use) you will most likely just end up bypassing your anger or cutting yourself off from it and not actually healing or resolving anything. Let yourself feel everything you're feeling, and know that its completely okay. Don't try to make yourself change. Once you become fully allowing of these emotions and minimize your resistance to them, they will become much easier to deal with.

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That’s literally nothing like what I said. You don’t have to be God realized or a mystic to be able to access love

I’m just saying its way more common for people who are INxx to be into this stuff. You’re probably not going to find any ESFP mystics

@Yali @integral said that, not me

INxx is the ideal personality type for inner work and spirituality so it makes sense that most people on this forum would be that way

Emotions are just messengers - they are information, but they work much differently than the thinking type of information. You understand things at a much deeper level through feeling. Emotions are just a result of your perceptions/thoughts. Whatever you perceive to be going on in your present experience is what your emotions will react to. If there is something that is affecting your survival but you're not taking it seriously, such as unhealthy eating, that probably just comes from how you're perceiving it and your beliefs about that thing, which can come from a whole bunch of different reasons. Try not to think of an emotion as needing to be fixed - I know you just mean for the emotion to go away or change state, but there is nothing wrong with the emotion, and every emotion good or bad has its purpose, so there is nothing that needs to be fixed, and you should try not to think of it that way. Because emotions are messengers, if you allow yourself to fully feel and surrender to the emotion without needing it to change, that is how you receive its feeling-based message, and once that message is received, the emotion will naturally resolve or change state as it is no longer needed. You don't need to change something externally to get the emotion to change, although that can work, the more direct way is to listen to the emotion directly and receive its message and it will naturally go away on its own. Can you elaborate some more on this? Dissociative trauma happens when an emotion from a traumatic experience gets so strong that your mind can't handle it and your consciousness fragments itself and basically breaks that emotion off of itself by making it unconscious with the hopes that it can be revisited at a later date and processed and integrated. This is necessary for your survival in the moment of trauma to allow you to cope if the emotion gets intense enough. This severity of trauma rarely happens in adulthood, but it is very common in childhood and all of us go through it to some extent, because children can't process their negative emotions on their own, so if they don't have a loving caregiver there to help them through it, they will fragment and break off that part of themselves as they have no other way of dealing with it. When an emotion gets fragmented through trauma, it basically gets stuck in the moment of trauma, in that heightened emotional state, and then it continues to live inside you in that state until it is revisited and a later date and released (which barely anyone in society knows how to do today, even therapists, not at the depth that's necessary). This is the core cause of all mental health issues and emotional dysfunctions. Parts of yourself are stuck in a traumatized state, and so of course they react in extreme ways to things that seem to not be a big deal. This is why you have emotions that seem unnecessarily strong and overbearing. The reality is, every emotion you feel is completely valid, but you don't always see why or where its coming from. A perfect example of this is self-worth issues. Shame is an emotion that can only be brought up in childhood. if you feel it as an adult, you are holding on to blocked shame from the past. A part of you is stuck in shame from a time where you felt shame in your childhood, and it lives inside you, and that is what creates self-worth issues. To heal self-worth issues at the core, all you need to do is process and released your blocked shame.

Emotions are crucial pieces of information for your overall functioning and survival so they need to be strong and handicapping for them to be able to convey their message properly. If you could just easily brush off fear when getting chased by a bear in the woods for example, you would be dead. Of course it can feel like they are overpowering in unnecessary situations, and like they are a lot more painful than they need to be, but that just comes from blocked emotions deep within you created from trauma that need to be released. In a fully balanced psyche where all the emotions are integrated and functioning in a healthy way, emotions will only ever be as overpowering as they need to be and they end up being a huge asset to your survival and overall wellbeing.

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Okay. I remember hearing in your what is God episode you said both strong concentration abilities and radical open-mindedness were crucial for reaching God. I know there's a lot of spiritual purification work to do as well. I think that along with general work to raise my consciousness could be helpful and then once i'm ready to pursue awakening i'm hoping it would be much smoother and faster. Was just wondering if you had anything else to add.

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@Leo Gura not sure if you missed my question but I’d really appreciate if you could answer