WhatAWondefulWorld

The universe is calling me

Honestly I just say fuck it, I'm doing what heart is saying

I see, but the only thing I'm passionate about is understanding reality. Is that not good. What else is there to do. All else is illusion and delusion. All I want is total understanding.

I'm passionate about these ideas too

@Adam M i do like indulging in a nice bowl sometimes. And the thing is I don't have to meditate and become enlightened.but I do want to. It's the only thing I want in life. Don't even care about money or happiness. Although they would be quite nice. I have felt lost my whole life and finally now I have a direction that I like and its enlightenment

My parents are going to kick me out of my house if I don't pass this year. Also I'm even younger than that?

I say I'm going all in. I feel like I have already gone past the point of no return anyways.

Right? This is the only thing I'm passionate about and nothing else strikes my fancy.

@Leo Gura Leo, I love you and respect everything you say, but life has not been the best to me especially through childhood. I have been so broken down and hurt that life lost all purpose, there was nothing that mattered. I was on the brink of suicide when I came across your channel on youtube and it saved me. I have come a long way already and I don't think there is anything else meaningful to do in my life than to pursue understanding. I understand that I need to get a job and shit to feed myself and be able to have a home but I don't know how to fix myself

@Meta-Man Hell yea?sounds like an awesome time.

@Nahm ?thank you, deep down I know this is true.

@Aaron p Yes! Exactly! I deeply emphasize with you because I have been through literal fucking hell. Even if it was different experience of hell it was still hell, so I really do empathize with you. The only thing that has been successful in changing me so far has been my consciousness work and psychedelics. All else has failed. And actually it has just come to my attention just how much I have already grown through doing this work. It Is the only thing that really changes me.

@Meta-Man how exactly do I do that? Do I just go out into the forest and find a cave, feed of wild plants and such. What about when winter rolls around and I freeze to death?

I'm sure your exactly right. I better get myself to realizing my full chance and potential.

@Leo Gura play the game best you can

@Cykaaaa I don't think I can fix my life. I really want to understand reality but meditation out in some mountains out in india is not the way I want to aproach it.

@Pookie I honestly dont think I have the mental capacity to go to college. I know that's just a thought and it's an illusion but I really don't think I can do it.

I desire truth and understanding. That's it I don't even care about being happy really I just want the truth about reality. I have contemplated what I want in life many many times. And basically my whole child hold and teenage years were trying to figure out what the point to life is. I have come to the conclusion that pursuing truth and understanding of reality is the most important thing I can do and it truly is the only thing i want.

@fridjonk It is not to escape my current situation. It is the only thing I am passionate about. Nothing else is as satisfying as reaching a new level of understanding of reality.

@fridjonk the only thing I want to do with my life is understand reality, that is my life purpose.

@Osaid those are still just concepts though. I dont want to feed more concepts into my mind I just want the actual thing.

@fridjonk thank you but right now I don't want to get to lost in the illusion, I just want to understand reality.

?Ok thank you I dont really want to do 5 meo this early on my journey anyways, but I want to know what all this "love" really is. I don't really understand what it is right now.

@Meta-Man thanks. That's the attitude I have right now "fuck everything", so are you telling me to just surrender to the present moment and watch my ego trying to distract me and feed negativity into my mind

@Pookie Wow. Your very helpful. I guess I am really lucky and ahead of the game in this life thing. I am still in high school and I am starting to understand the nature of reality. My whole life has been me trying to find a purpose here In this world. Which I still have yet to find. Pretty much the only thing I care about is understanding reality and conciousness on the deepest levels possible.