The observer

You have to take into account the entire population of your country and of the globe. Currently, there are only over 4 million people confirmed with covid-19. 4 million out of 7 billion = 0.05% That's in average, but it varies depending on your country. Let's take the USA,which has the highest number of cases: 1.37 million out of 328 million = 0.42% So, statistically speaking; if you live in America, your chances of hearing of a confirmed case are quite low. You'd need a web of acquaintances of over 250 people be able to hear of one case. How many people do you contact regularly and how many people do they contact regularly? This can massively affect the outcomes. I've personally heard of two cases so far, and that was at the beginning of the lock-down. I've limited my contact so much during the lock-down, even online so I can't tell anymore.

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@Someone here But science says everything is strings. So, scientifically and logically speaking; this?‍♂️ is this ?. At the most fundamental level, there's no difference between a toilet and a cake and a human. Yet, it appears that things are different and it appears that there are "things". That's the whole problem in a nutshell. There's duality (appearance vs. actuality) inside non-duality. ☯️ It's strange, illogical, unexplainable, beautiful, wonderful, awesome. Yet, it is what it is. And how do I know? I observe.

I wish I could experience a similar transpersonal curiosity kind of thing. I think it can lead to all sorts of things, one set would be the whole emotional spectrum. My mind does not often produce genuine innate curiosity. Nowadays, it's so peaceful, I can't even experience worry. Even when I have unpleasant thoughts, I accept them immediately, and they pass away. It seems like my 'acceptance muscle' got stronger over the last few years. Although, I do experience backlashes every now and then. But mainly it's the attachment to thought on the expense of perception is what causes that the most. Sorry for journaling on your journal. I hope you consider your journal a transpersonal one ?

Hello folks ?? I have recently been talking to a friend of mine on Whatsapp by exchanging voice recordings. Somehow, I noticed how she's way better than me in articulating her thoughts, and we talked about it. We concluded that I need more practice. I find it kind of related to this thread ?? However, that discussion led me to another realisation about myself; My mind seems to be working in a passive manner, like it doesn't produce thoughts actively all the time. I don't experience monkey-minds often. The majority of my thoughts get created in response to external stimuli, events, environment, etc... It's like my mind is often in reaction-mode. I kind of more interested right now in shifting towards active thinking. So, my question is has anyone else experienced this? How to become more active? I don't wanna call it a problem because honestly it doesn't seem to be a negative thing. It just seems like I don't have a desire to manipulate the world around me like others. It kinda makes me feel left out. This has been a theme for more than two years now. Note #1: I don't have problems with creativity. My mind is quite creative, but mostly only in response to questions and conversations. Note #2: I don't usually initiate conversations or go out with my friends. I'm comfortable living in solitude and I meditate, like a lot.

Leo gives advice and specific consultations here all the time for everyone for free.

I wouldn't need advocates. I would only need understanding and reassurances by someone close. But even that would be a real drag, both for me and the other person. Eventually, one must face God alone.

In this specific case, if the guy couldn't take it and then committed suicide, it wouldn't hurt others. It'd only hurt people with spiritual concerns because then Ayahuasca would be demonised even more. People who stumble upon awakening are rarely understood by their communities. And speaking of rare; One friend of mine experienced a natural (without drugs) crisis several years ago, but then he received a lot of support from his social circle. Right now, he's stuck at stage Blue and the materialistic paradigm because of that. That support held him back in terms of growth. He still mainly acts from fear instead of love. And he has lots of neuroses as far as I can tell. I don't want to make generalisations and I don't know what would happen to him if I introduced him to actualized.org or spirituality. My intuition tells me it's not a good idea. But anyway, the point is, I guess, with more suffering comes more growth. Suffering gives rise to more purification.

Satisfying. But that's the thing. Because of that, I don't feel the need to seek more satisfaction, well, I guess until now.

I don't mean to be heartless, but I mean lots of people suffer everyday. And lots of people die everyday. And lots of them die in unjust situations. No one seems to care about them. We take all that for granted. But suddenly, the survival and welfare of this one human who's having a paradigm crisis is more important? Why? I guess that's the effect of the media. If something is not advertised, we don't know about it and we don't even care. What about the people who are in such poverty where they can't even use YouTube to tell us what they're going through? What if this guy took his crisis alone and did not share it? Nobody would know or give a damn, like in my case. The baby ape with the louder voice gets the most milk.

Do you mean the means to get there? I don't know. I guess I would have to just wait and stop interacting with information of such. Or do you mean after that? I probably would have a strong sense of purpose. Right now I can't because I find everything pointless. Not in a negative nihilistic way, but more in a dismantling way so I only do the bare minimum. Most of my time is spent on doing nothing unless I have to do something.

I would forget all the things I've learned, especially about enlightenment. But first, I would forget the distinction between free and non-free will. Perhaps I would also not be so present in the now. If I could.

It's not me who wants to change it but rather the other way around. It's my environment that caused me to desire so. I don't know if it makes sense. But let's just say that I desire control for no reason, the same way the body desires food or water. I don't think problem is the proper word. Maybe need, or just desire. I mean wouldn't it be cool to have control over things? And I don't mean that in an evil manipulative way. Just in a way that makes everything feel more in place.

I see. But that's somehow become a moot point to me, the imaginary me. I kinda miss experiencing the illusion of control. It would be nice to know that it's possible to play on both sides.

Not even that, at least for me. My taste changes all the time, mostly in an irregular cyclical pattern. Somedays, I find myself craving a blonde. Some other days, I would worship a brunette. Sometimes, I would want to eat out a chubby. Sometimes black, sometimes white, sometimes tan. Sometimes 30s, sometimes 20s, sometimes moms. Sometimes a combo. It usually occurs for a couple of days, and then it changes. I don't think there is a static taste. Just like with food, if you have a lot of strawberry ice-cream, you will want some chocolate ice-cream.

A video game engine so infinite and powerful would be capable of doing that without breaking a sweat. It's all rendered for you, because God loves you. That's something I feel very grateful for. Everything is being taken care of for you.

@Someone here When we say appearance is reality and there's nothing behind the scenes, we are pointing to Oneness, which is the present moment. It's very simple, really. Is there anything that isn't the present moment? Even the past was the present moment and the future will be. The past and future are merely appearances happening in the present moment. Sure, there is a practical value in imagining them. However, the mind tends to confuse them for the present reality. In your present experience, there are layers of imagination that include the present moment, the past, and the future, and on different spans. I think the past and future imaginations are obvious so I'll discuss the present moment imagination. About imagination of the present moment; are there pixels that constitute the screen you're using to read this right now? Of course there are, if you put the screen under a microscope in proper settings, you will see the pixels, but you won't see the screen anymore unless you stop seeing the pixels. Notice the sleight of hand. Right now, what are you perceiving exactly? You are perceiving an appearance of a white background with black formal organised graffiti on it. The rest (mental sounds ascribed to each individual black graffiti, multiple meanings ascribed to each unit of graffiti and to each cluster of graffitis and to the whole graffiti, judgements of true or false ascribed to every single meaning which is pretty much biased by survival but that's for you to discover, light pixels, hardware, software, electricity, battery, a worker on the other side of the world, the amount of things we can mention here is infinite so I'll just type: etc... Everything is working together to produce your present experience. How beautiful is this?!) is in your imagination and all of it is done unconsciously. There's nothing wrong with imagination. Yet notice how much information goes unquestioned, unfiltered, and unnoticed, even more tricky, the majority of the information gets summoned for no good reason. Spirituality is about revealing these underlying issues and bringing them to awareness. Why? The preoccupation of the mind with all kinds of thoughts makes it really difficult be present in your direct experience. This makes you a prey for all sorts of delusions. One of the main delusions is to forget what's right between your hands, right here, right now, and to live in stories and imagination. Again, you can do that if you want to, there's nothing wrong with it. There's nothing wrong in life at all. But when you're not present here, you're missing out on a lot of things. You can't see a beautiful sunset. You can't really see beauty at all. Imagine the depth of the most beautiful experience you've ever had, now multiply it by a thousand. It's like the difference between having sex and masturbating to porn. Hope that clarifies something.

It's funny, because from God's perspective, his will is free and the human will is not. While from the human perspective, the human will is free but God's is not. The notion of freedom is problematic in and of itself, because to say that something is free equals to saying that something else which contrasts the former, is not. So, as long as we think that there is a God and that there is a human, we'll always have a partial freedom, because whether we identify as God or as humans, we'll have limitations from a certain perspective compared to the other. The ultimate freedom is the Oneness. The ultimate freedom is no-freedom, and that's exactly what this is. You are free as a human being, but you believe otherwise. And you are limited to Love as God, but you believe otherwise. The ultimate freedom is not found in thought. Also, another problem with the notion of freedom, is that it already assumes captivity. Such as, there's life in captivity, that's not free. And there's life outside of captivity, that's free. So, you must experience or at least see limitations in order for you to see or experience freedom. You can already see that this is a never ending game. YIN-YANG.

People at tier one have a high tendency to find themselves trapped within a particular paradigm and not be able to view things outside of it. This gives rise to all sorts of problems in understanding, one of which is the one you're addressing. The mind always wants to control the narrative. The mind will say: "this" is "that" and alike phrases to keep itself running. It's the number one most favourite habit of the mind to create pointers. However, when the pointers get too many, they overwhelm the mind, and so it ends up being confused. With enough meditation to slow the pace of the thoughts, one can clearly see that there is no "subjective" nor "objective". One can see that there is no "direct experience" nor "proof". All of these terms are pointers that are heavily loaded with meanings. And for an untrained awareness/mind, it's easy to get lost and confused by all that. To begin the process of deconstruction, one must ask questions. What is "subjective"? What is "objective"? What do these terms refer to in reality? One way for defining "objective" is: consensus. This definition is not what "objective" actually is. This definition is fit for the paradigm from which one's approaching the question; The paradigm of direct experience; The original raw form of the scientific paradigm. Paradigms create the ground necessary for asking questions, and they colour and shape the answers. Paradigms control the input and output of the mind. Without a paradigm, one can't ask nor answer any questions whatsoever. The mind requires a framework to operate from, and without that framework, it will get dismantled, and there will be nonsense. In other words, as long as one's trying to make sense of reality by trying answer existential questions, one will remain stuck in a prison of their own creation; Creating a problem and then trying to solve it from the same source that created it in the first place. It's just endless running around in circles. Just stop! Take a deep breath. The answers to no-questions are beyond the mind. Stop! Observe. Feel!

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Take me away Shower me with bliss or throw me in hell I'm all yours This Love, inevitable You're damaging the soul, the heart is saying But both are redeemed To You You already know everything! Glimpses give rise to longing To passion Then to connection Why are You hiding?! Why are You shy?! Then to annihilation To permanence Bury me there!

You folks clearly have no clue how orgasms occur. Yes, women fake them regularly, mainly out of the desire of wanting to be in accordance with their men, but there are other reasons, or better put, deeper dynamics. When a real orgasm occurs, it's not only related to one factor. Sexuality, eroticism, and arousal are complex topics. Mental imagery has a lot to do with them. For example, if a woman finds Dwyane Johnson hot, that'll increase her chances of a real orgasm. If she does not, she can still have an orgasm, just not as much likely. Why did I pick Dwyane Johnson in particular? Because he has a lot of desired qualities from the feminine (also from the masculine) perspective. He's strong, masculine, funny, cheerful, passionate, confident, famous, friendly, rich, etc... Each one of these factors plays a certain role in the arousal process. It mostly happens unconsciously, but it will still be effective even if the woman is conscious of them. Basically, he's transcended survival to security, and that's the dream for a lot of women, if not all human beings. This transcendence is interpreted as a ground for prosperity and freedom, which is simply the good life. This activates certain mental patterns that include intense emotional security. This intense emotional security gets then transformed into love and connection. This love and and connection is what sky-rockets the chances of real orgasms. Still, without proper stimulation of the body and/or without proper hormonal levels, it's not likely going to happen. So, it's about a mixture of things, not just one thing. Sex is psychosomatic for both men and women. However, the ways satisfaction occurs differ, not only between men and women, but also between any two individuals. Sex is a very nuanced field. And any generalisation would be limiting. If you want success and satisfaction, you gotta stop making theses generalisations, and instead start shifting your focus to your relationship and how to make the most out of it.

Sounds great! Good luck. And for the record, I've never taken a psychedelic in my entire life, so you don't have to use any, and I'm only 23. Just stay with the genuine curiosity and it will guide you to the truth.

They're all empirical and only you can verify the things we're saying. Meditation. Self-inquiry. Yoga. Shamanic Breathing. Mindfulness. Psychedelics. Strong Determination Sittings. Retreats. Silence. Therapy. Psychoanalysis. Shadow Work and Emotional Healing. Some people even say sex is a spiritual practice. Contemplation with a radically open-mind. The point of all these practices is to get you to see beyond the assumptions that you already have about reality. The default assumptions are usually taken as absolute truths. That's the problem; is to mistake a part of the whole picture for the whole picture. It's like mistaking the Eiffel tower for France. See. Again, the mind making a sleight of hand, overlaying perception with thought; tomorrow (thought) everyone (thought) believe (thought) the sun (thought) existence (thought) Notice that the thought is a context (perception) that creates a content (appearance) within it, which then gets confused for the context. It's like the Treachery of Images; "This is not a pipe". Imagine travelling in a car to another state in America. On the way, you will see signs for directions. Instead of recognising the signs as just signs, the traveller thinks that they are the destinations themselves and so he drives his car into the signs. To bring the point back home; when you go out and see the sun, there is a perception of an appearance. Then, thought interferes. The mind creates stories, such as; "The sun is shining." "The sun is beautiful." "The sun is evident." "The sun exists whether I think it does or not." etc. . . Notice that thought is unnecessary here. You can have a perception of the sun without thoughts. Thinking using logic is a practical pragmatic tool. However, the mind is not usually explicit about this. The mind confuses the finger that's pointing to the moon for the moon itself. So, if you want to progress with this work, instead of "thinking" and getting lost in the content of thought, aim at observing thoughts like clouds passing in the sky. Watch the clouds and label them as clouds until the sky is clear. This implies meditating (or any other practice) to increase your awareness. When your mind is still, i.e. not confusing thoughts for reality, you will be able to see reality as it is, i.e. as reality, and thoughts as they are, i.e as thoughts. You might wonder; "Well, I already can distinguish between the two." "What does this have to do with understanding reality in the deepest ways possible?" "It sounds like basic stuff." etc. . . And that's fine. You can return back to using logic and see if it can get you to the deepest conclusions. If whatever logic yields for you satisfies you, then good. If you're not satisfied and still looking for answers, then we have given you some tools for finding out for yourself. And of course, this is only the beginning, but you gotta start somewhere. If you want to read a book, then here's my suggestion: "Spiritual Enlightenment : The Damnedest Thing" for Jed McKenna. It can get you to realise the Absolute Truth, which is a great start for deeper realisations. A lot of people would suggest "The Power Of Now" for Eckhart Tolle. It's good too, but I feel that Jed's style would resonate with you better.