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@kieranperez Yeah, I really like his dogma-free style. I feel like you can't really find that level of 'pure', dogma-free principled teachings anywhere. But then again, I have barely looked . I am 20 years old and deliver food by bike for work, so taking time off work is not a problem. I will probably get the money by being a guinea pig for a few months for some medical research company.. I'll have to look into that some more though. I assume you've been to a retreat of his. Have you been to other spiritual centres? How do they compare?

Could you please attempt to synthesize these seemingly valid but also contradicting intuitions?

Yes, I know. I want @Thestarguitarist14 to realize racism is unconscious and you can't just wish it away by demonizing it.

I am unconsciously racist to an extent because of unconscious indoctrination, could you help me not be racist? I hope you see that my question is sincere.

I haven't rewatched the whole video but wasn't the point of the exercise not to let words have an emotional effect on us? You can still recognize the problems with the word in a social context and act appropriately. When it elicits so many emotional reactions for so many people isn't it appropriate to say it for the sake of consciousness and introspection? It seems to me that what contributes to the perpetuation of racism is all the gut-level, reactions and defensive argumentations people have, that seems to lead to unconscious denial and repression because all of us are racist to a degree and are forced to take sides and defend ourselves into a position of not being a racist. We as a society can't move in accordance with the Tao if we can't honestly introspect our contradicting beliefs/feelings in this way. So my basic claim is: there are contexts in which it is okay to say the n word. Curious about your thoughts.

I'm thinking of doing an apprenticeship (8 months) at the centre. any thoughts?

I do. It seems important. Kechari Mudra is also said to be important by JC Stevens and I'm sure other Guru's would agree.

Thanks for the replies everyone. I'll focus more on having new experiences, relaxation, reading books, and feeling deeply into my suffering @BipolarGrowth. I also appreciated the questions you suggested I contemplate @Flyboy. I was actually already thinking of doing travelling and going to a masseuse @Nahm. Figuring myself (relative) out will get more of my attention. Also @Flyboy, could you be more specific on your experiences with Kriya,Kundalini and the "losing of sleep from unwanted energy stuff"? Thanks again!

Hi, Last monday evening I felt really dead inside. Like I couldn't be bothered to respond to anything, to feel anything. Just empty emotionally, the opposite of what people mean when they say someone is "full of life" or "exuberant". I'm of course speaking in relative terms here, not referring to capital D Death or E Emptiness. So, normally when I feel like I am suffering or experiencing dissatisfaction of any kind more than usual, I just sort of investigate the raw, direct sensate experience that convinces me there is a separate self that experiences this suffering. This makes the suffering dissolve a lot normally. But last monday I couldn't find anything, but was still suffering. This probably messed with some perverted spiritual ego kind of control-fantasy of being able to reduce suffering at will when I feel like it. And it also just felt really strange. I remembered this book called "Reichian therapy" which had an exercise where you look in the mirror as if you are looking at a stranger, so I did that, and that helped a lot. It gave me some feedback on how I felt, I guess. It made me feel more alive. I have done Reichian therapy every day now since tuesday, which helps. I should mention I am 19 years old and have been meditating for the last two years, the 16 months of which I meditated and did Kriya yoga more than 3 hours a day on average, roughly. I put in so much energy into meditation and need to relax more, so I'm focussing more on relaxing and concentration types of meditation instead of insight meditation. Insight meditation creates more "fleeting" and unfamiliar and strange perceptions which can be a little ungrounding. So it is good to express myself into some form like writing or exercise, as to consume form instead of letting form consume me, so to speak. Since tuesday morning I feel more calm and clear and as if my Real Self is shining through more clearly, but I still feel like I'm "picking up the pieces" and I'm still in the chaos of dissidentified thoughts, both of which monday evening was a more extreme version of, but this sort of chaos is not new. I have been reading the book "Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha", which has a lot of maps and stages which I haven't familiarized myself with. I should probably just do that. Anyway, I know this post is a little unclear and paints a rather incomplete picture. I'm just looking for some advice or anything that can help me navigate this. Grounding is important, but at the same time I want to progress spiritually. These two definetly are not totally at odds with each other but I'm still confused about it. Can someone shed some light on that as well, please?

It is not that complicated. The techniques are detailled ans specific but not complicated. The biggest thing is surrender and devotion in my opinion. I recommend you don't learn it from this thread or youtube, but rather from a book, video series or ideally a guru. I do think, like you say, it has the potential to be way stronger than meditation.

I have only read half of "No Boundary" so far and skimmed through integral psychology and a brief history of everything. It seems to me that there is a lot of repetition in his books and between his books. Is a brief history of everything useful if you have read sex, ecology and spirituality? Is Integral spirituality useful if you have read The Religion of Tomorrow? So what books are unnecessary if you have read certain books and is there a certain order in which you should read them? sorry if this topic doesn't belong on this subforum.

"Overdramatic" to a certain degree, but how can you say they're "essentially fake"? There are deep similarities between animals' survival mechanisms and humans'.

Good. Have you experienced this as well? And could you give me an idea about what you mean when you say "these experiences"? I feel like it is really important to have a flexible body (and especially back) when doing kriya. Otherwise you'll mess up some way of using your body properly. How right am I?

To add to what m0shen said: be sure that your inhale and exhale are of the same length.

So I meditate 1.5 hours per day and do kriya yoga 1.5 hours per day. Whenever I don't do either of these things for 4 hours or so, I get a bit agitated and my mind just feels so filthy (not in a moralistic or sexual way). How do I not get consumed by my egoic emotions during the day and especially when I have to read academic philosophy. I know it is a very common question but how do I maintain clarity during the day? I mentally chant mantras whenever I am free but this annoys me after a while. This post feels a bit silly. I guess I just need to let go or something. "I just feel like I shouldn't have to feel so much resistance." Haha! Any thoughts on this?

So I have been practicing kriya for 4 months and will do the third part of KP today for the first time. My results so far are pretty good. Sometimes when I do a kriya breath (Maha mudra, KP 1, KP 2, yoni mudra) the energy goes into my right shoulder and specifically into a muscle that is a bit tight. It doesn't hurt but it isn't pleasant either. This tension makes me "hold back" and not breathe (and thereby raising the prana) as intensely as I could. Does someone have any experience with this and if so what do you recommend I do? It says in the book that you need to make sure that you raise the energy via the sushumna and not via Ida and or pingala whilst practicing KP 3. I feel it going through the sushumna but also a bit into my shoulder. Any thoughts on this?

Lesson 4 procedure It says that I should imagine looking forward from the medulla to the Bhrumadhya. Can anyone give me some tips on how to imagine this? I have done this procedure about 20 times and haven’t really stayed in this “concentration pose” for longer than 10 seconds. Even though it says that it should only take a few seconds to assume the concentration pose.

Alright thanks! Have you tried snorting it having used vinegar for the conversion?

Does anyone know how to convert free base into a salt for snorting purposes? The methods discussed in this thread seem to be for plugging.

For what to happen? Awakening!? Mmm.. Do you agree with Leo and Martin Ball that 5 meo accelerates awakening by a lot? I haven't had a breakthrough so I'm still a bit sceptical.

I do have them but they're really mild. I have been meditating/Self-Inquiring/doing yoga four hours a day on average the last four months. And I meditated 10 hours a day four days in a row. I did 5 MeO-DMT seven times. My consciousness is definitely raised, but not that much I think. I find it hard to compare different levels of consciousness since I am always just experiencing one. Any thoughts?

I have a job, but live with my parents. Why all these questions? Btw: how do you delete previous posts you wanted to quote (as seen below)?

Yes, thanks for the love!

Yup! I'm on the lookout!

Great question! Sex! And lots of it! No, I don't know! Do you mean a life purpose? I don't have one. For now I just want to raise my consciousness know the Truth, keep learning other stuff and play music. I was wondering when I'll think I'm done raising my consciousness. It's a weird question because when your happy and at peace in the moment there's no need to 'raise' your consciousness. Sometimes I feel this way. Wanting to raise ones consciousness is more of a lifestyle of doing the work, I guess. Learning stuff, playing music, playing sports etc are just hobbies, I don't consider them part of ... Mmm.. I guess I just want a relatively plain life, with the exception of Enlightenment. Maybe do some spiritual teaching, maybe research on psychedelics, meditation, neuroscience. I don't know. Is this the kind of answer you were trying to manifest in me?