WonderSeeker

It's important to learn from celebrieties in the sense that whatever you admire in them is something you can amplify in your own life. I think having role models is healthy especially at younger ages like 20s and 30s. You should be proud of what you've done in your time away. It's like you completed a growth cycle that came to a close with you 360ing back to your native geography. Maybe. How would you define it? Here's to new chapters to come 🥂

The main goal of life can be summed up as follows. First, some context. Lately I've been seriously wondering: What is the specific reason that I exist in this particular way, as this particular self, in this particular realm? In other words, Why Am I? And, if I can possibly know, What is my ultimate calling based on my genetics, experiences, and upbringing in this short existence as a human? I took 60ug of LSD. I didn't think that would be a particularly powerful trip. Usually I top out at 200ug. But, the usual come-up took effect and before I knew it the insights came rushing in. I was shocked that this museum dose was getting me somewhere! At around the 2 hour mark, deep escastic feelings from my root to my heart arose. Waves of energy took my being over. They flooded me so deeply I surrendered. I layed there on my bed as my imagination started converging directly with reality. Then, the big insight. What is the meaning of life really? It is: Make yourself into the best apparatus for awakening you possibly can. Wherever that insight came from, I thank it for being so deliberate in it's wording. By apparatus, it meant to treat your body and mind in such ways that make awakening easier and more probable to happen at any time or place. It's basically another way of saying 'self-actualize,' but for the sole purpose of awakening deeper and deeper to Truth, Beauty, and Consciousness. Physically, it means maintaining baseline fitness and health standards (nutritionally, socially, physiologically, etc). Mentally, it means cleaning up your epistemic diet ever so steadily over time (screen-time, content quality, introspection and targeted ideological skepticism, etc). Spirituality, it's about seeking with the right principles in mind, and using better methodologies and tools as you discover them (meditation, yoga, psychedelics, etc). Really all of this is no different than what I already knew. BUT, what was different was the resolve, recognition, and understanding I was left with. As a little cherry on top, I had a second insight that was almost equally as big. I had a DEEEP direct experience of construct-awareness, where I saw my whole narrative past before me — from birth to now — and how, the whole thing was like a video game that me as God created for myself to run. I could see how EVERY little thing that 'I did' or that 'happened to me' was intentionally and ingeniously 'put there' or 'made to happen' by my higher Self or God. Then, ON TOP OF THAT, I then saw how I was playing this game with myself where I was imagining myself as a higher Self mapping out my life, and that my ability or inability to evolve my consciousness was due to the fact that my higher Self was protecting me or pushing me to evolve at a rate that best suited me. (Note: This does not mean if you are having trouble evolving that you can be lazy, or if you are grinding and it hurts, you cannot take a break. This is tricky stuff.) What I didn't get, however, and what I suspect will come later, is the 'why' of awakening. Not the why of Life. But the why of Awakening. (Two very different things.) I wanted to know what my personal consciousness was about and how it fits into the life I'm living and building. But, that's for another day. AMA, or if something does not jibe with how you've experienced awakening, let me know what that is. I'm open and curious to other experiences and perspectives. Awakening: Make yourself into the best apparatus for more awakening.

This is so true it's not funny. Some of the best sex I ever had I didn't penetrate. Not once. We just kissed and wrestled naked, and I kept whispering all sorts of things into her ear that even the best comedian on earth couldn't come up with. It has to come from pure inspiration for life, and genuine interest in who's sitting across from you. I think seduction has a 360 spiral to it, where: 1) the simpiest level is telling her how attracted you are and that you'd do anything for her 2) in this level you're more sublte and cooler, more nuder the radar, but still egoically looking out for number one 3) here, you go back to worshipping her, but from a refined place of joy and celebration for her and life, side-by-side I've only had 1 such affair, It lasted 2 weeks, It was better than any multi-year relation I've ever had.

So untrue. I did door-to-door sales. People in said business are persuasive. Now you tell me, the next time a pest control salesman knocks on your grandma's door, is he telling her the truth?

Indeed, giving oneself problems. But also subtle shifts that lead to order-of-magnitude changes. Lucky shifts that, if they didn't happen, I wouldn't even be sitting here with the knowledge that I caused them from a higher perspective. It's so utterly trippy... - if I didn't shatter my hand through a glass door - if I didn't talk to the young professor and contact his old professor who helped me study in Asia - if I didn't break up with my first gf (good Lord...) - if I wasn't lightly (sometimes not-so lightly) traumatized by my family growing up - if I didn't fail at all the businesses I tried to start in America in my mid-20s I would have never gotten into awakening work. I would have been too comfortable to get into awakening work; instead, I would have coasted through life, only lightly depressed. I would have never known what was missing and would have been too cozy to bother looking.

I mean yeah, nobody will ever understand you in your full uniqueness. Then you added the Awakening cherry on the You-sundae for good measure. It sounds like you're at the stage where you're at least becoming more comfortable with this fact, which is key.

Awesome.

@Lyubov That place is blazing hot, take care. Apparently Peter Ralston visited China this year too. Take a look: https://mcusercontent.com/8a146e2bfe98efdd8c326d97a/files/50489f08-c5d5-475d-9399-a52a4a87283a/CHNL_Fall_2026.pdf?mc_cid=de92e4dd5c&mc_eid=a080dd7600

@Lyubov Any update on your trip? I just secured my visa and flight set for Chengdu

I'm becoming more aware of construct-awareness. Insight #1: Being construct-aware means realizing you're forever deceived It's like being in an infinite holographic movie. As you become more conscious, you become more aware of how there are so many layers and versions of movies to become aware of. By movie, I just mean illusion, or content without understanding. It's like hearing Chinese for the first time, versus starting to learn the language, versus mastering it. With each step you break through illusion. Your mind is projecting what you think the thing is as you go, but through lived experience and tooling around you come to know more about what it REALLY is. Even weirder is YOU are actually the one who is creating the experience of the langauge in the first place. So you are literally creating the illusion you live. You imagine the illusion. Then hallucinate your evolution of awareness within the illusion. It's so mind-fucky. Insight #2: Normies hate truth and love construct/illusion without even realizing it This is actually why men suck with women. Because ladies love emotions, feelings, and fantasies. Whereas men just want to get to the bottom of and express what is literally true. (Well actually, this is what dumb men without game do. But let's take this extreme). Back to the normies. People in general would rather you lie to them and give them endless fantasies to ring their egoic slot-machine bells than share deep truths or rawness. People care only so deeply about themselves and sucking value out of others that they damn the costs of doing so in untruthful ways. "It really doesn't matter how I come to feel good; if it feels good, it must be true," goes the logic. Insight #3: Breaking down illusion makes you dispassionate; you have to work hard to generate meaning for yourself This an advanced problem I'm starting to face. I am realizing that there really is no correct goal in life. If I am God, or the Universe itself, why does it matter if I become enlightened, help children grow, or heal people? Those aren't things anyone is forcing me to do. I choose to do it myself. But the more aware you become, the more imagination (ironically!) you have to use to consciously create little quests for yourself to go on. You choose your movie character. The realm you're running around in. And what quests you set out on. Then you play the game! ~ ~ ~ What is construct awareness for you?

Bump. This is a solid thread y'all, give it some life

Dear self-actualizers, I'm curious what self-actualization tools you've found the most useful to achieving your life goals. Of all the... self-help subfields philosophies techniques & methods ...you've tried out, which ones have made the greatest, longest-lasting impact on your life so far for you personally? ──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── What to post: 1) State your age and how long you've been self-actualizing. 2) Name your top 1-3 techniques and how/why they impacted you. ──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── I'm 28 and I've been self-actualizing for 6+ years. Below are the two things helped me the most. 1) Psychedelics / Meditation / Reading Spiritual Books LSD changed my life forever. It helped me (along with Leo's videos) deconstruct and break free from academic/industry science over a 5-year period. It helped me to see my life as a divine adventure I am co-creating alongside the rest of the Universe/God. It helped me confirm that I am creating my own Reality, from the physical to the soul - All of it. Meditation changed my life forever too. It made me realize that all I gotta do to be happy is sit on my bed or a couch and do nothing. In 2020-2021, I meditated every day without missing a day for 428 days straight. That spiritual campaign jumpstarted a lifelong quest of mysticism and I do not regret it in the slightest. It made me face demons so scary I don't really have a lot left to fear in life. It provided a soothing counter-balance to the inner-hustler within me that wants to just take the world by storm; it provided the ying to my yang. And so much more; the benefits are innumerable. (P.S. Binural beats like Holosync are PHENOMENAL if your life is currently busy like mine. And yet, even with the best technology nothing beats sitting there and doing nothing, distraction-free.) Reading spiritual books in conjunction with psychedelics and meditation was like — paradigmatically-speaking — replacing a beater-car with a Lamborghini. Spirituality is this crazy battle where you use your own mind to put itself in this place so something more refined takes over: soul/Spirit/God. Well, reading spiritual text got me closer to that elevated place by giving me licks of the God lolipop which only was enhanced with psychedelics and meditation. They all blended together, over and over, until my reality became a living-breathing expression of the universe instead of egoic human will fighting the world over attention and resources. It replaced my a to b understanding of the world with something closer to ∞ so that I was no longer as stuck inside the box. My favorites are books by Ken Wilber and Peter Ralston. Daniel Ingram's Core Teachings Of The Buddha book was phenomenal as well. 2) Trauma Psychology / Letting-go Guided Meditations / Somatic Healing I almost put this one at #1. Because honestly, I had a traumatic childhood that screwed me up for years. My mind was so messed up for a while that there were periods when I thought I'd die (2008, 2017, 2024), and I was shocked that I didn't. I'm a highly sensitive person by my nature (HSP), so growing up there were a lot of things that got to me and made me feel like I didn't belong to my family, to my society, to humanity. Over the past 5 years (and ESPECIALLY the past year), I've made unbelievable progress on my sense of esteem, belonging, and identity. I no longer root my worth in things or processes, but instead on Being. Spiritual work didn't actually get me there, it gave me the theoretical foundation. Shaking trauma out of my tissue using somatic guided meditations and the David Hawkin's Letting Go roadmap (via Julien Blanc's mentoring) is what made all the difference. I began the program 1 year ago and still use the lifetime access lessons to this day almost daily. It's unlockled so many layers of authenticity I didn't know I had in me. Because this has had such a tremendous benefit on me, I eventually want to work with the likes of Jordan Thornton or Teal Swan to clear the remaining residue. They hit things from different angles, and without sufficient trauma healing, I believe myself and most of us included won't be able to go far with spirituality / psychdelics alone. Trauma distorts spiritual insight more than I thought; if it did for me, then it will for you too. ──────────────────────────────────────────────────────────── I'm curious to see what you share. Make it juicy!

Yeah, Thailand seems too crowded and touristy. Good on you.

Could be worse. Typhoon Bovi is set to hit landfall in China by Saturday night!

Grats! I'm about to wrap up my first year doing TEFL. Top 5 best decisions I ever made in my life. May I ask why Cambodia? I'm curious what upsides you saw there. And how do you plan to live your life on time off?

When you come to Korea, take a train to Daegu. I'll grab ya a meal and we can check out the local scenery. Heard it's a nice place. Lot of Silk Road history

Circumcision Some parents can't even tell you why they did it if you asked them ¯\(ツ)/¯

What skills are you building over time? For me, it's practicing Mandarin / Pinyin. I do 2 hours a day minimum. 3-6 hours a day on weekends. Watching Chinese movies, TV, handriting, etc. Planning to take it deep (HSK 4 and beyond) as long as I'm living in China. P.S. If you are a world traveller, then learn to love learning languages! Language study felt like such a chore in high school. But as an adult having been exposed to French, Mongolian, and Korean (and soon Chinese) in countries that speak these as native languages, I've found they open up to you so many opportunities when you learn thier languages. You become an object of total fascination which in my experience has been great for career and dating.

Good shit

I did content creation for a year. Hated it the crap out of it. Even when I figured out how to go viral and made posts that my friends saw (without me needing to tell them), it still wasn't worth it. Soul draining work. Made negative profit and burned-out massively. Working off a computer for more than 2 hours a day makes me wanna commit unspeakable crimes. I lose my mind. However I am happy that it taught me some basic business skills and how to write for appeal, which are skills I will have for life (there's something in every endeavor). Cannot argue with that. But ever since changing my career to teaching I've never been happier and more fulfilled. My life is being lived at a more adventurous scale than most, even with a f*cked money situation. But that's about to change too. Life is a maze as some say~

Getting surprised by life. Imagining 10 different ways a scenario can play out and having it always go different than you expected. I enjoy this aspect of reality so much. The counter-intuitive nature of life. Even better is when something goes unexpectedly in a "bad" way. Every time this happens I act like it's a good thing in practice. Next I breathe into the anxious emotions to let go of how I actually feel about it. Then again I act like "perfect, everything is going according to plan." Then LITERALLY every time without there EVER being an exception, the universe folds like origami to turn that initial negative into a gigantic positive. It's so cool.....

You won't believe me but I went through something VERY similar 3 years ago. Psychopath that I lived with for 2 months (don't have time to explain why, just unfortunate circumstances). The longer we live together, the more tea spills. She has an arrest warrant in Minnesota. She has slept with several 100s of guys. She got her fillopian tubes tied because she wants guys to bust loads in her. She's autistic so in her mind sex is just oxytocin (pure survival thinking) and if she doesn't get enough she gets super depressed. She's clinically diagnosed with a dozen mental disorders. She has a sandwich bag that looks like lucky charms (actually meds) and eats like 20 different shaped pills and chases it with bottle after bottle of wine. Can't get a job. Stays home all day and gets money from her dead granny's estate to survive. All kinds of crazy stuff. Again, too much to write out. Eventually I get the police to take her as she says "I wanna die" on a couple of occasions. She gets put (back) into the psych ward and acts like we're cool one moment, then goes nuts the next accusing me of all these things and threatening court. I eventually block her and change my apartment locks. For a while I didn't date a whole lot. Brother, you will date again. You just need time to focus on yourself and take care of your psyche. Give it time. I'd read LOA, get your mind into positive thoughts. If you really think this gave you trauma or triggered earlier C-PTSD from childhood, read Pete Walker's "Complex PTSD." He has a great 13-step 'how to diffuse the panic response' protocol to calm your nerves in the moment. Plus how to take steps toward healing long term. Maybe your life needed a shakeup and this is bringing your awareness to who you are attracting. You can change this brother. You'll find someone good. You just need time,self-love, and a new strategy. Peace

Strangest thing I've read on this forum in a minute.

Depends on what you want to know. "What do I want to know?" "What's something that bothers me and how can I get to the bottom of it?" "What do I want out of life?" People are gonna flood this thread with what they think is best. But I'd start with you. What do you want to know personally?

Cool man, thanks for sharing. Being content with who you are but still actively striving is such a delicious paradox once you embrace it. In recent years I've learned to be content more. People say "You're too young to relax, hustle harder!" But nah, I'm happier this way and actually making way more money than before. My consciousness is stabalizing better and I'm learning how to cycle my emotions when uphevals occur. But sometime soon there will be a kick to go hard for more consciousness, health, love, etc See, I always thought it was a misconception too. I still think kids are at an advantage for learning 2 languages from say age three, but to start in your 20s/30s isn't necessarily a bad thing. Some people have said put in 10 hours a day and bam you are at intermediate Chinese within a year. Mathematically, 3 hours a day for 3-4 years to achieve the same result. Not bad