What do u do against death axienty? It fucks me up in my daily life, sometimes i just randomly have that feeling of dying at any moment or being involved in a mass murder /shooting/dying in car crash / bus/ plane crash and it reduces my quality of life hugley. Its new to me I don't understand..
for example, I want to fly to russia soon with my bf, this is a huge step for me because i've never been in a plane before.
The time I booked the flight, bad dreams kept coming up related to this flight, no crash but no general positive aspects.
I keep getting bad visions and always "joke" about it with my friends like "haha, if I come back from russia..;)" so I can at least share my fear and get it kinda off my chest.
I am aware of the fact, that it all lies in god hands what will happen to me, and I can't controll how and when etc.
To my persona: i am very empathic /emotional and somewhat shy and extroverted at the same time. I love to give and want to explore. My problem is that i was strongly addicted to pot for years.I reduced it strongly and im quitting.I had pleasing experiences with mushrooms and micro dosing helped me for while but don't want to depend on that. Im currently reading the gita it helps me somewhat. . I have low self esteem due my past but trying to work on it.. Now i get those short burst of panic and if fucks me up. Any advice might me helpful. Thank u. be nice 2urself.. <3
