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I'm super addicted to Nutella My mind says no, but my body says yes everyday. And then I go researching about subtle health issues like HM toxicity from accumulation over time. How laughable!

This thread is inspiring, thanks for making it!

YUCK!! Cool haha, reminds me of an art idea I had to create the silhouette of an obese person out of McDonald's & KFC wrappers, cartons straws and stuff A crazy robotic 3D projection performance from 2013:

Somewhere in God's mind..

Please 👀

Cool man 👍

Beautiful Yes it can often come with an ugly feeling of insanity and deep doubt about what's happened. Thanks for reminding me of the seriousness of tripping. Will be checking in for those new trip reports!

Pretty much x) It's a cool perspective to gamify it, although I still think psychedelics can help along the way if there is space for them. To each their own though, I can also see treating your life as chapters with focused periods where other interests are put on the back-burner.

I'm in the same boat @LoneWonderer. Growing in the sober state, e.g. overcoming fears and phobias, is very much manual labor. Going off into into deep crazy psychedelic trips or even just philosophising about life on wood walks is somewhat of a guilty pleasure when I still have my whole life to build. It can be an avoidance of work that is subtly justified as prep work or consciousness work. I still struggle to execute consistently, to not be addicted to food, to actually pursue my inspirations and do new things.. Psychedelics are great pattern disruptors but only temporarily so. That being said, similarly to what @ExploringReality described, medium dose trips have unlocked higher levels of emotional awareness and enabled me to start grieving ugly pre-teen middle school bullying without even having the intention for it. It's quite magical what these substances can do, so I'm not downplaying it, but yeah it has to be followed up with proactive work on the deep patterns while in the not so elegant sober states, because we're not practically gonna be psychedelically enhanced 24/7. As for your dosage, idk the concentration of your psilocybin bar but the intuitive thing is for you to up your dosage at a pace you're comfortable with, even though that's always gonna be a bit scary, but that's the thrill of it isn't it? I tend to be a maximalist (an addict), so take that with a grain of sand. In the end it's gonna come down to your own experience with it. You have to do science on it. Be careful @ExploringReality Thank you for your feedback It's true, as fragile humans we have to delicately balance transcendence with health, work, exploration, socialization, and all the other activities we do to remain sane and grounded so that we may survive. Life is so massive right, and it's all one! It's crazy the delta between everyday life consciousness and the 0.1% of the time were we do a psychedelic and everything stops. I long for that sense of completeness a lot but again, as a late bloomer, I feel like I have a lot to do to pay my "personal development debt", to get my life on strong footing to a level that I'm happy with, with time and a safe space to engage in truth seeking. I'm definitely due for another trip soon though

Only once on 4, 5 or 7.5g of mushrooms (don't remember, wish I'd kept track) did I go through all of that to God realization. It was 1.5 year ago. I think I did scream or grunt on my way to the complete OBE (sorry neighbours ), infinite hallucination emanating from a single all encompassing point. It's all too faint now but I do remember on the come up being floored on my rug thinking "oh no, ohno, oh no", blind-sighted by imminent death, reality getting asymptotically more real than ever before. My life leading up to this point flashing before my eyes. Then the infinitely unfolding fractal of nothingness that felt timeless and spaceless, a state that fostered incredible insights I'm sure, but didn't allow for any symbolic understanding. Simply too foreign for me to recall even the very next day. Descending from that non-human black hole portion of the trip, I remember moaning in agony as I reconstituted myself, slowly emerging back into my body, feeling metabolically drained perhaps from having been turned into a soup . But as time progressed more and more, the "death" feeling sublimated into an existential orgasm imbued with the understanding that life is just god's playground, with a felt sense of self design, of immanence. This was nirvana, bliss, all of it! When the moment passed I sat up cross-legged in front of the full body mirror, marvelled at myself and started contemplating memories of my family, of childhood and so on. This is where it turned into God realization, where for the first time in my life, after years of listening to Leo harp on about infinite imagination with deaf ears, I really considered the possibility that despite the convincing lore, all of it is imaginary, and in this elevated state, grasped it. This current moment is eternal, anything outside of it isn't real. It's ACTUALLY TOTAL, and unitary, making thoughts of family members or past events just this: thoughts, faint images in the mind. Now I didn't verbalise it like this at the time, I just started saying "oh my god, oh my GOD, OH MY GOD". I lost my historical reality, I was left with pure now, and nothing else. It felt like the correct order of things was reestablished, with that weird sense of familiarity too. All of reality was radically recontextualized (shoutout) into something that is causing itself right now, from within. A miracle, from which emanates a human life with memories and notions of progression, good and bad and so on. It was so awesome to finally understand life! It took some 8 to 10 trips before breaking through like this. Ofc I'm not conscious of any of this on the daily. As a human I'm dysfunctional af.

Issue is resolved, tysm!

What happened is: I bought the book list through Paypal (payment was made), but after not being redirected to the next page for a while, I made the mistake of switching from my home box wifi to to my phone's, believing the delay might be because of a weak connection. Next thing I know: all actualized pages fail to load for a while, and now, inputing my email ([removed]) into "Forgot Password" (I lapsed in the process) doesn't actually send an email. And my forum profile acts wonky: trouble logging in, and I get logged out if I go into the Personal Development -- [Main] section. @Leo Gura Help! I'm locked out of my customer account!

Ah indeed!

@fabger There's your dose of synchronicity for the day.

Serious trauma is heavy man, it destroys parts of you. It weighs on you, perhaps mostly unconsciously but my experience is that there is a lot of self denial and repressed emotions, Like a suffering child that wasn't given the light of day by anyone. That emotional charge that was swallowed up at the time because it wasn't safe to express, perhaps is still seeking full expression to this day. It's just a guess. Don't mind it if it doesn't resonate, but have you done work on your trauma like therapy or psychedelics? I've hid my trauma for a good 12 years and only recently started opening up to people so I can relate with the impulse, it feels like the implicit distance and alienation can finally disolve when I disclose my wounds. Although it takes an especially safe-feeling person for me to do that. I don't see it as bad, I think it's only natural for such an influential experience to be part of the story of you that you tell people you connect with. I've read in Mark Manson's book "Models" that traumas are relational. They inevitably come up and are either resolved or break appart the first intimate relationships one has in a somewhat messy process, which is why he advocates for seing a therapist for those who need it.

This cut right through my binge of distraction. Thank you 🙏

That sensationalist YouTuber tone 🤮

Beyond particular details about the pyramids, the message of the Law of One seems quite genuinly spiritual. The phenomenon is interesting to say the least.

I've been watching the Ra Contact since yesterday and going "damn" every so often. The Great Pyramid of Giza was thought into existence by disembodied infinite alien intelligence guys!

Yeah that's not good right but it's like: I'm still gonna enjoy some pasta or rice in my dish, and it's more of a light sprinkle over a big vegetable stew along with a protein. I feel that doing that and purging the need to eat a sweet everytime thereafter is balanced.

That's amazing, thanks a lot for sharing what worked for you! I'm shedding my sugar habit as well and It's (obviously) gotten me more sharp, although I still often find myself unable to conjure up the words fast enough to even remember what I'm talking about in conversations, which would be the nastiest manifestation of poor memory in my life. Not planning to avoid carbs entirely but I wonder what that did for you. Also any updates on your supplementation?

I think I allready had tinnitus at this point but I went and got ear-raped by a RHCP concert at the Stade de France 2 years ago. I really regret that.

Hi everyone, After a good amount of reading I'm ready to go down this avenue and find out with numbers if I'm toxic or not. Inciting incident was failing out of tradeschool for pastry due to memory problems, being slow, having poor ability to hold tasks in memory and organize them. other problems include having a hard time staying connected to a conversation, dark circles under the eyes, rashes on hands wont go away.. Before transitioning to something else I'm taking the time to investigate heavy metals possibily being a cause for my cognitive issues. There's clearly a divide between hair test people and urine test people. I'm curious about your opinions I was confused at first because I learned about the urine test first with Leo, but then find out Andrew cutler, who made this subject his life purpose, advocated for hair tests. ultimately I agree with the opinion that no amount of heavy metals is ok to have in the body, so a provoked test is not to be disregarded. If someone here vouches for hair tests, can you tell me why? Do you know of pre/post provocation test packages? (sending two samples) Should I test on or off round if I only get one? (I'm streching myself thin financially) Which test do you specifically recommend? Any affordable ones in Canada? Test results may differ from DMSA to DMPS, right? I've even seen fecal matter tests, No data on that?

That's right. I appreciate your taking the time to have Dr.Gpt analyse my results because it taught me about the counting rules. Unfortunatly you or Chatgpt's image to text got copper and zinc values wrong, but the overal picture still feels right: Almost every essential mineral is low. To your point @Michael569, it's certainly not the only cause for my low fonctionning and will not be my only focus, it's just what I'm waking up to lately. Granted I know next to nothing about holistic health and there's room to doubt my orientation towards chelation, but reading mercury cognitive symptoms had me go "Yes, yes, yes..". there's realistically a good chance I'm moderatly HM toxic, just because the sources of it in everyday consuption are so numerous it's scary. So if there's a chance chelation makes a difference in my ability to think, focus, decide, recall, free associate, emphatize, emote etc, then I'm willing to give it a solid, responsible try. That difference is potentially life transforming, it gives me hope. And so now that I'm spending money and time towards my health with chelation, I'm less tempted to ruin it with a poor lifestyle. Might also finally seek out therapy for teenage traumas, effort towards having a social life, becoming a full human... So I think it's part of a positive trend for me. Yes thank you for your contributions! The main takeaway for me is that you have to allow a level of uncertainty, and proceed slowly. Provoked tests are more precise, more reliable but even there, the choice of chelator obviously influences the results.

Bruh x_x That "live forever" guy is slowly gonna turn into Voldemort