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"do the necessary to not get fired" ~ Its called Game Theory, I recall from source however long ago along the lines that "Aim to be the top 30%, thats high enough to not get fired and be on the good side while not try-harding". But yeah, you're attitude sucks. Here is a challenge (speaking as a self-learning Software Engineer): A beauty about software is that the limits are nearly fucking limitless, you say "most projects are nonsensical"....well ok......do you have a better idea? If you do, then you can literally get to work IMMEDIATELY from ANYWHERE as long as you don't have a computer. If you don't have a better idea....well then you found what you should be doing rather than venting a forum. Good luck bud ;D

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Here is a perspective/experiment: You're creating a imaginary scenario where that may happen. If it does, and people see it, so what? I like to think that Shame stems from a rejection of Truth.

I think, Truth is Truth (lol). "If you are serious", then that is the ONLY thing that matters, else is just a distraction or unnecessary deviation. Here is a simple analogy: Do you think Michael Jordan/Kobe Bryant would a SINGLE fuck if you "harshly" (but truthfully) criticized their game??? REALLY think about that. Some more context that I would like to add that may be enlightening, (using MBTI/16 personalities as a model) - Leo is a self-claimed INTP (aka The Thinker/The Philosopher), INTP's strongest quality is their "Introverted Thinking" with their weakest/repressed quality being "Extroverted Feeling" (the exact feature you're complaining about). You must understand something for what it is, and for what its worth, Leo may be one of the most actualized INTP's I have EVER come across and its fitting because thats exactly what you get. The. Fucking. Truth. INTP's don't prioritize "delivering in a emotionally-tolerable way" or "cushioning the message" (that something an ENFJ or so would do).

Sup peoples, I personally like to spend time everyday in what I call "grace" by broadening my worldview to incorporate a bigger picture for some context. I live in the USA (as I imagine many of you may as well) and try to communicate as much as possible how fucking "easy" life is here; it is so easy (for the most part), that the difficult part is NOT getting too comfortable. Appreciate what you have and strive to improve the quality of life (of others) as much as possible. - A WHOLE FAMILY has been WORKING (not sitting down in air-conditioned office job that they drove to, but creating bricks in a desert) for 23 YEARS, giving up half their pay in order to "pay a hospital bill debt" (which happens to have no record). Can you imagine that? No customer support line. No brand to threaten against. No legal system to protect you. No wealth or power to fight back with. No one is coming to save them. etc. Damn.

Hm, a comparison: You can eat as many calories as you'd like, IF....you know how to burn off the calories. Money is psychological. IT does NOT think (anything of you). Also, I think money advice highly correlates with your intended lifestyle. If you want: To create wealth quickly, (10 years or less) then "saving and investing" into the stock market initially is terrible as investing into a business or your personal skillset/knowledge would probably be a much higher ROI, make sense?

1. How is your physical health? You in good shape? 2. How do you FEEL when you look at yourself in the mirror? 3. Hows your sexual psychology? Think you may be watching too much Porn? 4. Since you evidently "already have" opportunities to get some play, you're clearly doing something right and think you should compound that. Leo has some videos in regards to sexual-advice topics that I think could be helpful to you and my last 2 cents would be: Sex is a dynamic and as a male, you are the LEADER and CREATOR; it IS what YOU make it to be. This is a big pointer to why the "best sex" is not mechanical and can't be instructed because its like Creative/Fluid/Dynamic, you give to her based on how she is FEELING about it. Not to be too ideological or whatever but I'm speaking from EXPERIENCE: "Being within this Masculine way" should give you a "certain energy" (Full of *** and "at full mast"); Almost like...."When the student is ready, the Master appears".