seriousman24

My personal anecdotal experience from my entire life is that fear is just another form of pain; a really slippery and enduring one and I want to add that pain itself is what might have to go; personally I used to just make something intentionally more painful to try to find it and drive it away; this resulted in a totally hellish existence for most of my life from which I'm still damaged. Only pleasure/pain or whatever higher(love)/lower(fear) form you call it has ever felt real or navigable for me(after escaping this disease) so I just follow what makes me feel the most pleasure and deny the pain no matter what I'm thinking/feeling or whatever system I was embedded in my own head 20 seconds ago, on the other hand I'll immediately bounce back to any old system if it makes me feel more pleasure/less pain; I apply this at all levels(meta/material) I do my outmost to function like the most mindless/lowest form of consciousness and it seems to be working for me at the moment probably because it's quite effective at balancing your lower chakras if you want to call it that. Might only be possible because I have the background going full on into something that's psychologically/emotionally painful but I just choose to simultaneously act out within that pain in the most hedonistic/greedy/selfserving/non selfless/hateful/selfspiteful/egoful way I can muster within myself; all these "weak pains" I self inflict help me triangulate other pains that need to be cleared since they do seem to have been largely affected by insanely unstable "higher" thought patterns running at full speed for a very long time(namely through extraordinary effort trying to understand the entirity of reality mostly through the mental dimension). Anyway I completely lost track of where I was going with all of this so please forgive and feel free to skip ahead I'm still posting for my own selfish reason of letting it out around one of the only places in the entire realm of human consciousness that I can actually connect to. I love you guys and sorry lol.

@RoerAmit It will help you to be aware of this diet if you aren't yet.Exercise is just 20 % of the equation according to him.

I'm planning on becoming achieving the ultimate while indulging in video games or something thank you Leo my master I will focus on my anime games; love you.The path of beauty(and paradoxical self trolling).

You are all very beautiful to me; I like to call this creative solipsism arbitrary input(when you commit actions in a video game that seem meaningless but result in effects outside the bounds of your current perceptible reality) when you try and make something that seems to be intentional and conscious out of it.

Honestly everyone that I interact with in the spiritual community online and the information given from the old recorded generalized teachings(aka anti spiritual probably) has reinforced the ultimate duality in language using ego/disconnection/separation into something that's really easy to fear and unhealthily separate from not all people's spiritual journey actually needs such an obsessive focus over ego/oneness duality we should just try to fully enjoy our separation/ego/denial; denial is a form of play when (you)/(I) as both players in a game agree to fight with all that it is involved since both players are accepting their own and the other's denial(which I know in and of itself is a self conceptualized form to have 2 players and not all one and blah blah blah) but just relax and all basic elements have "ego" which really just means rules/boundaries/physics I assume most people's real confusion with the ego stuff is because their conceptualization of separation starts from a social construct and gets built/redefined from there as opposition to a more autistic starting point of neutrality where even numbers/rocks have personalities/color/auras and then actually built into the social reality

alright bro please send me some of that energy I mean sync it up or something like put it up there or dunno man yeah reverse retrofire it by reading the inherent energy signature or lack thereof this patt(reon)ern leo please don't ban this is just my first post you can psych scan me though I am full of ego aaaaah I love myself brb sorry I was just culminating in my realization for abit sorry just acclimatizing to the experience( feel like a bit like a devilish psychic vampire here tehe lol xd) anyway uuuh sorry this was just my introductory post sorry for not following the normal procedure of being super catious and my grammer since I feel correcting grammar too much at this point in time is a bit innocuous since I'm celebrating another being coming into a more connected level of play anyway congrats you are enlightened!!!now just have fun