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Definately I am i my healing journey about it. Toxic mother. Thanks for the book recommendation, coffee is also a problem for me.. Will read and re-read and re- read.. It'd be of help for me too Thanks

Many thanks for this material! Will wait to download till watch and check out as many Leo's videos and content as possible but this will help for sure

@Dumuzzi Again..i still struggling to put words to what happened to me but yes..same applies to me regarding dating and socializing.

Many thanks for sharing your experience and opening this thread. Would love to hear about your kundalini awakening in 2012 and how it affected those areas in your life that u mentioned. Feo 2015 to 2020 I'd say I also experienced "something" which made me lost almost all material things and relationships after intense pain and nowadays everything it's SO different when I meet or establish relationships. I meet no one of my interest during those year..it was all about me and me survival and then about my spirituality..(currently undergoing that but also there's something about my female energy that makes me meet or spread my power if that's make any sense at all). I realized most women do not. Only a few of us who underwent something can relate. It's so weird.

@Arcangelo True Nonetheless I feel that because of us being no normies we should be capable of socializing with them..but sometimes it's no point in that. No fulfillment. Happens in dating or in matching with someone. I wish I were more "simple" in terms of no questioning or feeling attracted to all this stuff and be a random woman...but still i feel I on the right path

@Byun Sean Top Tip. Be yourself and the right one will come. D0 not force. Do not show neediness. Been like that for me during my best times in the past. So focused on my career and goals that I could not see further that that. Now that that's over I kind of feel a neediness to fulfill that part of my ego but it's just that..ego calling. On my way into all this..

perhaps it's an ego trap there me not wanting to feel "easy" or something

@Farnaby why is it so rare?

@The Don Yes, they get shocked when politely approached by a woman sometimes..

Approaching but also WHERE to approach (gym, libraries, seminars..use to be my top places) In my case as a female I struggle to meet males who I'd be interested in. I myself as a female have no problem with cold approaching. I also appreciate being cold approached by males. Use to shock some people as a female. Any tips?

It is not about quantifying I guess, but acting according to your values and vision.

Even to interact with..seems so difficult and meaningless nowadays for me in this town. Empty conversations. Fakeness. Lies...and so on. Seems so difficult, specially in social networks when it's all about showing. I assume you got high standards due to be in here. Got the same issue. Know you worth. I'd introduce him some self actualized topics you are keen on. Real test to know of he's for you!

@Leo Gura Definately, the responsible thing to do is not to date until this is over But I understand your point@Lyubov As i mentioned before I am in the same situation regarding males. Got some work to do on so many areas of my life but also during this COVID thing I work as a first line responder and even I got immersed in all the chaos and have been exposed to covid i feel that more than ever i need some kind of support from the other areas in my life (friends, hobbies,self actualization ....even dating). It's like some kind of "hurry" i got into to put my life in order because i feel having wasted my time and now lose it because of my exposure to the virus.

@Lyubov i got the same question regarding males but also tinder is not an option for me atm

Hi there Well, I'd appreciate ur views on this 31yr old female. Single. Lost all my friendships during a really hard time in my life. Quit my job. I went from a high regarded job and status to having nothing at all (including family, friends and home) After all this nightmare I am still on my way to recovery..not fully satisfied with my job but I feel I've already "lost" also many years of my youth on this issue and i need to focus not only on my career but on my personal life aswell. I've always been a high achiever before I went through all this. Always into self improvement. During all this nightmare when i lost all i've been keeping fit. I am quite OK i think..but i feel that due to my intense sadness i have not realized it till know. All my current female friends are either married or in LTR. I even struggle to get plans with friends so no way of meeting new posible mates or dates. Do not know what's wrong with me. Perhaps i got not enough social network so i can go out more frequently..i dunno. I am an introvert but love to meet new people. I love intelectual stuff, fitness, self development, gigs, huge range go interests. Also, this pandemia is of no help at all on this. Any ideas on how to meet people in these times? Any tips on how could I get more chances to meet interesting males or expand my social network?

@Alfonsoo I feel you. Moving for your studies is quite a nice option but consider u need to keep emotional distance from her. @Elton Nice one..

@K Ghoul @wwhy @Gili Trawangan Many thanks for your messages! @Gili Trawangan Exactly! then I quit my supposed to be "dream job" i felt the need that i no longer belong to this town now that i lost my status. Also, in all those years i got nothing but just that WORK and friends an colleagues were into marriages or long term relationships. I considered moving from here, but i never dared to do it. I kinda introvert because I need lots of alone time but i am also a person who enjoys company, sharing experiences and relating other persons...so I guess I would have no problem with that. Here I tried to socialize a bit more but I feel uneasy because many ppl know me and it shocks them a lot me still being single and SO alone sometimes that I only work, train, buy groceries or visit the forest with my readings. Ladies are the worst honestly. I got rejected by many of them to their girly plans because some of them are pure gold diggers or are just frustrated with their lives. Ok I need some boost or balance or something but I am SO COMMITED PERSON and humble. I try to help others not envy them for their achieves made by hard effort! (applies to all..career, physique, spirituality) Regarding the spiritual path. That's what I am in here. It is SO APPEALING to me and as I mentioned, sometime in the past I felt that calling. Due to a toxic family member I almost lost my head when I realized she is a bad person and that she has been subcounciously harming me and also some other family members. It was a shock. I move for my place in several occasions because she searched for me (this can be related by family members and friends swell). I think I AWAKENED that time. Got a shock and almost could not speak, my thinking was slow, i also got lost in my town. Some family members took care of me that time. I recovered (I think) with no help, but struggling with all this reality in my day to day life. I've keep on with my shitty job to pay my bills and that stuff but still ALL THESE TEACHINGS I have been given..come on...after all this all and what I've been I think I am not %20 of the person I am to be! *Btw. This person is my mother, the person I spend all my life next to and taking care of (she got a cancer that is fully recovered nowadays)...she hates, and wishes me and all persons near her death. Again, she is free of any disease. She's been like this for years. Everyone knows of her strange character..and she loves no one. I wonder is the mentioned "awakening" is a real awakening or not. Do not want t use the work wrongly. I feel it was kind of a emotional shock..but still...my reality nowadays is so different and i link it with the extreme suffering 1. diseases. 2. emotional abuse 3. reality Thanks for reading!

Hello to all, First of all, apologies for my english (not my first language) But, to the point.. After having read ur posts and checked out some of the materials in here I finally decided to post.New on this path and on the forum aswell. Can't really tell when of how is it that whatever is happening to me started. As a background. I am a 31yr old single female. Feeling stuck in all of the above to be honest.. Always thought that my life purpose was to improve constantly (career focused specially). I reached the top in my career and was SO unhappy. Family issues and too much stress made me quit my job. I regret having done this and I AM STUCK. I work as a first line responder in this pandemia. I was a career high achiever and nowadays after quitting my last job I am getting only "shitty" jobs. The thing is that having been EXTREMELY career focused I missed all my youth, hardly got any friends and parents have been on and off sick for years (i focused on my career to forget about their issues). I love fitness, hit the gym and also try to cultivate any other areas of my life that i consider a priority (reading, self-actualization, music). My female "friends" are so obsessed with money, marriages, children..they talked to me in the past because of my position but now that i "failed" the do not reach contact. I feel lost. Feel that i send my life to trash. No career, no family, no "normal" life for a woman. Dating related...i see no pick up material here in my small town. I work many hours a day and the only free time i get to the gym or to the wood. I appreciate that my partner has to be balanced in all of those (physical, mental, into self-actualization..). Apps? not for me in a small town....i tried, with no pics, only with quotes and searching for someone who would be interesting in chatting with a "girl with some brain". Failed. They ask for pics. When they see u got a quite ok physique the situation changes...tired of that! Any input is welcome. Honestly, I do not recognize myself for all these years..I am not who I used to be (the high achiever). I keep going. I keep working on all those areas and I see myself more mature, more aware of it all but still....where am I going in this path? Thanks for reading!