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  1. I've decided to work on my business, and I'm a bit unsure how to make the next steps. Thanks to my hard work in the last couple of years, I've earned and saved some money so I could maintain my current quality of life for years without any further income. But for some reason, I wouldn't let myself go without a salary for that long, and I'd still keep some 9-5 or contract job around for a steady but probably lower amount of income, so I could work on my own project besides that. The reason is why I feel like this is because I haven't tested my idea. At the moment, I'd definitely give it a try to start my own business with full throttle, but I'm a bit scared about its financial consequences: what if it goes wrong, my idea turns out be a failure and I'll just burn all my money? I'd need time to learn and gain experience about how business works (I haven't had clients before), do some research and experimentation while a safety net is installed that can catch me. But having a "backup" job around might decrease the amount of energy and time I can spend on my project at the same time. What would be the ideal curve here? Is this an acceptable compromise?
  2. I think what really matters for software engineers to most is to learn about the same from different perspectives. In this context, it's called programming paradigms. What languages you've mentioned in this topic are imperative, object-oriented ones, or somewhere in between. But it can be enlightening to learn about others, such as the declarative programming. This one is especially interesting because it lets you focus on the mathematical / computer science side of a problem, which is actually closer to the way how humans generally think. For example, besides pointers (aka. indirection) another important skill to master is understanding recursion, but these days, I'd also add purity or dealing with concurrency.
  3. @Average Investor no, it's a startup that can rely on income from customers in the industry, no investors, no grants, no debts, etc. Actually, it's a nice place in overall, but as you've also noticed, I don't work well with others, especially, with the management. And this matters me the most, more than money and even stability. Curiously, since I started this topic, I'm getting more and more motivated to focus on my own projects. Perhaps what I needed here is just some kind words and a pinch of sympathy?
  4. @Average Investor yeah, I'm mostly happy with what I do these days, because I'm always trying to change my working environment in ways that helps me to optimise my performance, and I'm usually successful in that. But at the same time, I feel myself constrained and not understood by my peers. I often feel like an alien: I can't make my visions and actions accepted, or at least understood despite the fact I'm told to be an excellent communicator. Maybe all I need is a new environment, a new set of coworkers, or start having my own clients?
  5. @universe I don't have my own business at the moment. I work for a startup company. My problem comes from the fact that I've put a lot of effort into that company, but those aren't valued. Actually, I'm getting actively pushed back by the management. I'm inclined to think that somebody with such a performance might be scary for them. That was one of the reasons for me to depart from academia as well: I remember when I raised that I may want to resign from the university position and explained that I don't find that place challenging enough, the head of department replied that I didn't have any impact anyway. Recently, the same happened to me at the company, when I was having a chat with my managers about my performance: they told me that I don't add that much of a company value, I'm not senior enough to move higher on the ladder, etc. I had to realise that I might have been surrounded by people of lower consciousness, and I don't have much more time to waste on proving them anything. But why I am still not motivated enough to leave? Something along the lines of @Elton.
  6. Thanks for all the advices @Average Investor. I've listened to Earl Nightingale's talk, and I agree with all the contents from my whole heart. The problem is that I know this all well. But I don't only know those, but I've been applying them. I've been watching Leo's episodes from 5 years now, purchased the Life Purpose Course. One might actually consider me quite successful in life: I came from a small town as a child of workers, and by the age of 30, I've earned a PhD, travelled around the world as a volunteer, conference speaker, and organiser of conferences, taught at the university level, visited some of the top universities, gave classes to hundreds of students on the topics I love the most, mentored many talents. Since then I mastered my emotions and psychology, I was able to buy an apartment for myself without taking out a loan, I met and married my wife. None of those would have been possible with taking these advices. I am on the path of the self-actualisation for a while now. For what it's worth, I haven't done 30 days with these advices in mind but the last 100 days at minimum. What's curious for me here instead, why I'm finding more joy in helping others than chasing my own ideas? Perhaps my life purpose is to help others in reaching their goals in life? Sometimes this reminds me to the case when one wants to find her glasses but she can't because she's already put that on.
  7. Hi there, Recently I had to realise that I cannot yet start acting on truly actualising myself because I am externally motivated rather than internally. In my current job, I was promoted a couple of months ago, and I took the fresh role and considered it my passion, did my best and excelled at almost everything I could, surpassing the wildest dreams of my employer. I was able to do that because I have a lot of previous experience in that role, but I haven't been given the chance to use that before. I wanted to show my skills and start walking on the path of living my life purpose. Instead of enjoying growth in trust and freedom, I was told to set back without any specific reason. I only got vague references that I couldn't even understand. This made me think that I must have been probably putting my investments to the wrong place. Maybe I should start my own enterprise. However, I don't feel myself be that motivated to work out my own stuff than working on others. For example, in the past months, it wasn't a problem for me to sleep 6 hours (or less) and wake up early in the morning. But when I decided to focus on my own projects, I often get sleepy after a similar amount of rest. I'm starting to feel that the internal motivation isn't that strong as the external one I had at day job. Why is this happening to me? What should I be working on in order to treat my own projects with the same (or even higher) importance than that of others?