Amandine

I feel the powerlessness is a big part of the trauma. Your sister's younger than you, isn't she? What age was she when she was going to call the cops? The NLP sounds really interesting. ? I'm wondering whether to do it now, reading your journal. Do you just do it alone, from a book?

You're doing really great! ? What's denationalization disorder though? It sounds very exotic, did you make it up? I couldn't even find it on google, haha. You'd be a great coach, you even invent new terminology, awesome buddy.

Day 17: Today's weight: ? kgs (didn't weigh-in today) Weight loss so far after 14 days: 1.5kg (3.3 lbs) ? on target Weight loss to go: 5.7kgs (12.5 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2 kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April Today I'm gonna integrate another 16:8 Intermittant fast (6.30am to 2.30pm). Also wanna continue cracking on spring cleaning my house (and de-cluttering) as much as possible. * 6.30am Pre work-out coffee 87c Capuccino 87 * Indoor bike (39 mins) burned 300 cals * 9.30am Breakfast (muesli) 321c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 130g organic soy milk (53) 68 * 12.30pm Lunch (croque monsieur salad) 649c 100 g lettuce (17) 17 + 50g tomato (18) 9 + 25g bell pepper (20) 5 + 25g cucumber (14) 3 + 25g onion (40) 10 + 1g olive oil (900) 9 + 10g avocado (160) 16 + 75g organic gluten-free bread (260) 195 + 15g organic cheese (374) 56 + 10g mustard (245) 24 + 10g mayo (661) 66 + 5g fried onions (590) 29 + 388g organic orange juice (54) 210 Total cals so far today: 87c+321+649=1,057c 543c left for the rest of the day * 1.30pm tea-time Snack 537c Latte macchiato 80 + [1/8 coconut iced chickpea cake 294 + 1/32 coconut iced chickpea cake 73 = 367c] + lemon sugar/gluten-free biscuits 90 That last meal will be followed by 16 hours of fasting. Total cals so far today: 87c+321+649+537c=1,594c ? Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals ? Accomplished today: ? * 8 hours sleep * 20' do-nothing meditation * daily self-love affirmations * no aperitifs, no alcohol * 16:8 Intermittant fast * mindful eating * respected calorie goal * chapter 2 of "As a Man Thinketh" * part 3 "Love is letting go of Fear" * working through chapter 4 of "Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie * a lot of spring-cleaning and de-cluttering

@Patrick Lynam stick "myers briggs" in the search motor of this site and you'll find at least 4 pages of discussions on it. I have done the free test on the Personality Hacker website twice now (varying my answers slightly sometimes due to not being sure of the answer !) and both times I get the same result : ISFJ

Bloody beautiful, bless ya boyo

Day 16: Today's weight: ? kgs (didn't weigh-in today) Weight loss so far after 14 days: 1.5kg (3.3 lbs) ? on target Weight loss to go: 5.7kgs (12.5 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2 kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April Today I'm gonna integrate another 16:8 Intermittant fast (8am to 4pm). Also wanna get cracking on spring cleaning my house (and de-cluttering) as much as possible. * 8.30am Pre work-out coffee 87c Capuccino 87 * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 10.30am Breakfast (muesli) 345c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 200g organic soy milk (46) 92 * 1pm Lunch (croque monsieur salad) 713c 100 g lettuce (17) 17 + 50g tomato (18) 9 + 25g bell pepper (20) 5 + 17g cucumber (14) 2 + 17g onion (40) 6 + 1g olive oil (900) 9 + 7g avocado (160) 11 + 80g organic gluten-free bread (260) 208 + 18g organic blue cheese (361) 64 + 10g mustard (245) 24 + 10g mayo (661) 66 + 14g fried onions (590) 82 + 388g organic orange juice (54) 210 Total cals so far today: 87c+345+625=1,145c 455c left for the rest of the day * 4pm Snack (latte and chickpea cake) 447c Latte macchiato 80 + [1/8 coconut iced chickpea cake 294 + 1/32 coconut iced chickpea cake 73 = 367c] That last meal will be followed by 16 hours of fasting. Total cals so far today: 87c+345+713+455c=1,592c ? Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals ? Accomplished today: ? * at least 8 hours sleep * 20' do-nothing meditation * daily self-love affirmations * no aperitifs, no alcohol * 16:8 Intermittant fast (8am to 4pm) * mindful eating * respected calorie goal * chapter 1 of "As a Man Thinketh" * part 2 "Love is letting go of Fear" * working through chapter 3 of "Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie * a lot of spring-cleaning and de-cluttering

I feel ya

I wouldn't even think of visiting India, let alone live there. I'll boycott the place till they do something about their animal sacrifices, all in the name of frigging religion. ?? Tons of thousands of animals sacrificed during the Gadhimai festival and not even used for food at least. All that just to please the goddess Gadhimai, thinking it will end evil and bring prosperity, wtf?! “The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated” Mohandas Gandhi

Day 15: Today's weight: ? kgs (didn't weigh-in today) Weight loss so far after 14 days: 1.5kg (3.3 lbs) ? on target Weight loss to go: 5.7kgs (12.5 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2 kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April Today I'm gonna integrate another 16:8 Intermittant fast (8am to 4pm). Also wanna get cracking on my procrastination and time management issues, researching that and implementing Dan Ariely 's techniques (reward substitution and self-control contract). * 8m Pre work-out coffee 87c Capuccino 87 * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 9.30am Breakfast (muesli) 367c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 18g organic dried juicy apricots (231) 41 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 160g organic soy milk (46) 73 * 1pm Lunch (croque monsieur salad) 625c 100 g lettuce (17) 17 + 50g tomato (18) 9 + 25g bell pepper (20) 5 + 25g cucumber (14) 3 + 25g onion (40) 10 + 1g olive oil (900) 9 + 80g gluten-free bread (260) 208 + 15g organic blue cheese (361) 54 + 10g mustard (245) 24 + 10g mayo (661) 66 + 15g Nori algae sheets (300) 45 + 325g organic orange juice (54) 175 Total cals so far today: 87c+367+625=1,079c 521c left for the rest of the day * 3.45pm Snack (latte and chickpea cake) 521c Latte macchiato 80 + [1/8 coconut iced chickpea cake 294 + 1/16 coconut iced chickpea cake 147 = 441c] That last meal will be followed by 16 hours of fasting. Total cals so far today: 87c+367+625+521c=1,600c ? Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals ? Accomplished today: ? * at least 8 hours sleep * no aperitifs, no alcohol * 16:8 Intermittant fast (8am to 4pm) * mindful eating * respected calorie goal * 20' do-nothing meditation * daily self-love affirmations * chapter 7 of "As a Man Thinketh" : Serenity * part 1 "Love is letting go of Fear" : Preparation for personal transformation * working through first 2 chapters of "Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie * internet research on OCD/ADHD/procrastination + adult child of domestic violence + binaural beats + neurotransmitters (serontonin, dopanimine) + limited beliefs * a lot of cleaning and housework Main progress today: actually solved my procrastination issue in one fell swoop. Just decided I was either going to waste time researching on the internet on how to overcome my procrastination problem or I could just go and do the actual frigging thing itself that has to be done on my to-do list. So I just went ahead and did what needed to be done in the first place (instead of spending the same time and effort researching on how to overcome procrastination, lol). There's only so many hours in the day, and my stuff's gotta get done. ?

Thanks Gladius, the devil's in the detail.

Day 14: Today's weight: 60.7 kgs (133.5 lbs) Weight loss so far after 14 days: 1.5kg (3.3 lbs) ? on target Weight loss to go: 5.7kgs (12.5 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2 kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April As well as my 20' meditation, daily affirmations and next chapter of "As a Man Thinketh", today I'm also going to continue reading and working through "Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie * 8m Pre work-out coffee 80c Latte macchiato 80 * 1pm Lunch (croque monsieur & dessert) 923c 100 g lettuce (17) 12 + 12g organic mayo (661) 79 + 2g organic live oil (900) 18 + 80g gluten-free bread (260) 208 + 22g organic cheese (352) 77 + 10g organic chorizo (498) 49 + 15g organic mustard (245) 36 + 388g organic orange juice (54) 210 + capuccino 87 + 1/16 portion coconut iced chickpea cake 147 Total cals so far today: 80c+923=1,003 597c left for the rest of the day * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 3.45pm Snack 588c 1/4 portion coconut chickpea cake 588 * 7.45pm Snack (moment of weakness) 240g sharon fruit 300c Total cals so far today: 80c+923+588+300=1,891c (oops, slightly over today, 300 cals for a frigging fruit!) Indoor bike (20 mins) burned 300 cals ?

Day 13: Today's weight: ?kgs (didn't weigh in ) Weight loss so far after 6 days: 1kg (2.2 lbs) ? Weight loss to go: 6.2kgs (13.6 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April As well as my 20' meditation, daily affirmations and next chapter of "As a Man Thinketh", today I'm also going to be reading and working through "Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie * 8m Pre work-out coffee 87c Cappuccino 87 * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 12.45am Breakfast (muesli) 360c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 15g organic dried juicy apricots (231) 34 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 160g organic soy milk (46) 73 Total cals so far today: 87c+360c=447c * 5.30pm Lunch (croque monsieur) 654c 100 g lettuce (17) 12 + 12g organic mayo (661) 79 + 2g olive oil (900) 18 + 80g wholemeal bread (260) 208 + 22g cheese (352) 77 + 10g organic chorizo (498) 49 + 15g mustard (245) 36 + 325g organic orange juice (54) 175 Total cals so far today: 87c+360c+654c=1,101 499c left for the rest of the day * 6pm Snack 594c 1/8 portion coconut chickpea cake 294 + 240g sharon fruit 300 Total cals so far today: 87c+360c+654c+594c=1,695c Indoor bike (20 mins) burned 300 cals ?

Day 12: Today's weight: ?kgs (didn't weigh in ) Weight loss so far after 6 days: 1kg (2.2 lbs) ? Weight loss to go: 6.2kgs (13.6 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April As well as my 20' meditation, daily affirmations and next chapter of "As a Man Thinketh", today I'm also going to be reading and working through "Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself" by Melody Beattie * 8m Pre work-out coffee 87c Cappuccino 87 * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 10.30am Breakfast (muesli) 360c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 15g organic dried juicy apricots (231) 34 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 160g organic soy milk (46) 73 Total cals so far today: 87c+360c=447c * 2.30pm Lunch (croque monsieur) 787c 100 g lettuce (17) 12 + 10g mayo (661) 66 + 40g tomato (18) 7 + 20g bell pepper (20) 4 + 15g cucumber (14) 2 + 25g onion (40) 10 + 1g olive oil (900) 9 + 80g wholemeal bread (260) 208 + 22g cheese (352) 77 + 10g organic chorizo (498) 49 + 15g mustard (245) 36 + 15g Nori algae sheets (300) 45 + 485g organic orange juice (54) 262 Total cals so far today: 87c+360c+787c=1,234c 366c left for the rest of the day Made new chickpea cake today Recipe: 400g jar cooked chickpeas puréed (119) 476 + 7 (350g) organic eggs (146) 511 + 1 cup (125g) ground almonds (658) 822 + 2 (16g) sachets baking powder (76) 12 + 50g organic coconut oil (900) 450 + 20g organic oatbran (359) 70 + 10g organic vitafiber (202) 20 = 2,361 whole cake/16 parts = 147 cals a 1/16 portion * 4pm Snack (coffee and cake) 374c Latte macchiato 80 + 1/8 portion coconut chickpea cake 294 Total cals so far today: 87c+360c+768c+374c=1,608c ? Indoor bike (20 mins) burned 300 cals ?

Day 11: Today's weight: ?kgs (didn't weigh in ) Weight loss so far after 6 days: 1kg (2.2 lbs) ? Weight loss to go: 6.2kgs (13.6 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April As well as my 20' meditation, daily affirmations and next chapter of "As a Man Thinketh", today I'm also going to be working through "You can Heal your Life" and "Love is letting go of Fear". * 8.20am Pre work-out coffee 87c Cappuccino 87 * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 11.50am Breakfast (muesli) 360c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 15g organic dried juicy apricots (231) 34 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 160g organic soy milk (46) 73 Total cals so far today: 87c+360=447c * 1pm Lunch (croque monsieur) 702c 75g lettuce (17) 12 + 10g mayo (661) 66 + 60g tomato (18) 10 + 30g bell pepper (20) 6 + 20g cucumber (14) 2 + 25g onion (40) 10 + 1g olive oil (900) 9 + 70g wholemeal bread (270) 189 + 22g cheese (352) 77 + 10g organic chorizo (498) 49 + 15g mustard (245) 36 + 15g Nori algae sheets (300) 45 + 10g avocado (160) 16 + 324g organic orange juice (54) 175 Total cals so far today: 87c+360+702=1,149c 451c left for the rest of the day. * 4pm Snack (coffee and cake) 805c Latte macchiato 80 + 200g chickpea cake 400 + glacage for cake 325c (30g organic coconut oil (900) 270 + 10g organic oat bran (359) 35 + 10g organic vitafiber (202) 20 = 325c Total cals so far today: 87c+360+702+805=1,954c (not great) Indoor bike (20 mins) burned 300 cals

I use sucralose in my hot drinks and baking, but would prefer to replace it with something more natural and less harmful for the body (research on rats so far indicate disturbance to the gut bacteria).

It's all good, not gonna shoot the messenger, lol, but you're right, it's best to avoid both the artificial stuff and the insulin spikes from the more "natural" stuff. It's easy to manoeuvre in baking, you can just add fruit (and certain veggies) to sweeten, the difficulty for me will concern my hot drinks that seem impossible right now to imagine drinking unsweetened. I don't see any research on the bad effects of sweetening with wheat dextrin (or corn dextrin) though apart from fiber tolerance issues (but it's so sweet you don't have to use much at all), the fact it contains gluten (a no-no for some) and the fact that it's a "processed" product.

@Average Investor Thanks for the great video and book recommendation. ? That book's just up my street. Boy, do I need to heal the Please Disease!

Day 9: Today's weight: ?kgs (didn't weigh in ) Weight loss so far after 6 days: 1kg (2.2 lbs) ? Weight loss to go: 6.2kgs (13.6 lbs) left to go Starting weight: 62.2kgs (136.8 lbs) Goal weight: 55kgs (121 lbs) Total weight to lose: 7.2kgs (15.8 lbs) Daily limit: 1,600 calories Weight loss rate: 1 lb a week Date goal weight: end April As well as my 20' meditation, daily affirmations and next chapter of "As a Man Thinketh", today I'm also going to be working through "You can Heal your Life" and "Love is letting go of Fear". * 8.20am Pre work-out coffee 87c Cappuccino 87 * Indoor bike (35 mins) burned 300 cals * 11.50am Breakfast (muesli) 360c 10g organic unsalted cashew nuts (623) 62 + 15g organic dried juicy apricots (231) 34 + 10g Bjorg organic sugarfree muesli (367) 36 + 10g organic sugar-reduced granola (437) 43 + 10g organic oatbran (359) 35 + 5g organic chia seeds (449) 22 + 100g organic fresh forest fruits (55) 55 + 160g organic soy milk (46) 73 Total cals so far today: 87c+360c=447c * 1pm Lunch (croque monsieur) 787c 3g olive oil (900) 27 + 150g wholemeal bread (270) 405 + 22g cheese (352) 77 + 10g organic chorizo (498) 49 + 15g blue cheese (361) 54 + 324g organic orange juice (54) 175 Total cals so far today: 87c+360c+787=1,234c 366c left for the rest of the day. * 4pm Snack (coffee and cake) 366c Latte macchiato 80 + 118g chickpea cake 256 * 7.30pm Dinner (lentils & veggies) 200c? est. (had to eat dinner purely for logistic reasons, didn't want to throw food out, I could have fasted and also kept within my 1,600c cap, and gone without dinner, but appreciated the meal even so, just wasn't sure the food would stay fresh till tomorrow, and I hate wasting food) lentils + veggies + olive oil Total cals so far today: 87c+360c+787+200?=1,800c Indoor bike (20 mins) burned 200 cals

"In the end, I really tend to not wanna have children. But this argument (which I admit is a selfish argument).." As you'd put selfish here in juxtaposition with not wanting to have children, I interpreted that to mean that you believe it a selfish act in not having them (which some people also tend to argue).

It would be in your interest to believe them. Amandine - she told me about how I had been feeling recently and referenced a specific significant issue that I had been thinking about over the last two to three months and correctly named the month in which I was thinking about leaving my job. So yes, she did provide me with accurate and specific information but only about my recent past. She actually sounds like she was one of the good ones from what you tell us here. ? I'm actually open-minded to a lot of paranormal phenomena, especially energy healing. I was told by a psychic when I was 20 that I'm very intuitive and have a lot of psychic ability myself that I should develop. It's obviously important though to beware of and steer clear of the scam artists and phoneys who give the real psychics and healers a bad name. Here's a video of Leo's which might answer some of your questions : There is also a girl on here, Sarah Marie, who is a medium, she explains how she receives the messages.

And Trump while you're at it!

Then again there are testimonies from parents of missing children, police, investigative journalists and pet owners from across the Earth that have provided certifiable proof of the authenticity of psychics and mediums. So how do you know beforehand if your psychic is a genuine one or just a charlatan? Ha, that is the question. And how much of the stuff that comes true simply a case of self-fulfilling prophecies? I had a psychic tell me I was going to win the lottery and quit my job. Yesterday I quit my job. I'm half way there.

It's interesting though how all the high-profile international alleged psychics and mediums like Sylvia Browne, John Edward & co either refused to take up Randi's 1 million dollar Paranormal Challenge, or accepted but didn't follow through and bailed out. They obviously knew in advance they were not going to meet it, lol.

Man, you can't just quote stuff like that without back-up. Where's your source? That doesn't seem to be something Leo would have said or encouraged. In fact, I've never heard anyone on the planet consider heroin a wise tool. Ever. Anywhere.

To be honest, you could have got that useful nugget of information for free on here. I've always believed a lot of the future is kinda what you want it to be. However, concerning the past, did she tell you anything about your past that you can say has actually happened? I bet the answer is no.