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Oh man, I can't do this anymore. All this talking and talking. I try to convey ideas through language and it doesn't work because it is language. I can't express Neo's ideas within the matrix. Words cannot carry meaning outside of language - and it's just so exhausting after all. All this talking but I still can't picture to others what I mean. I give up. I am outside of language. We're all outside of language after all but we don't care. We just keep on blabbering and blabbering. So keep on blabbering. I'm off. Cya.

You don't have to tackle. No one is attacking you. Because they dismantle your arguments. Or do you watch Game of Thrones just because 99% of your peers do? So it is about being and not having? Exactly. Can't life just be the way it is? Without being good or bad? So A. Einstein created a "good" life (for himself/for others)? Do you see any "good" in combining general theory of relativity with quantum mechanics? Or is that maybe just a view of physics that is subject to change in the next 100 years or so? What if I told you ( ) that reality doesn't care whether it makes you happy or fulfilled? One cannot simply walk into Mordor and reshape reality the way they want to. Desire 1000% exists if you watch from within a world-view that is based upon desire. Friend, I am not here to attack you. I appreciate your input. But we're both thinking too much.

You're talking about "neutral". Which of these statements is neutral? 1.) The crow says to the owl: "My life seems to be pointless." 2.) The crow says to the owl: "My life is just what it is." Define for yourself: What is the ability to love life for what it is? Do you have to be judging in order to love life for what it is? Do you have to be indifferent in order to love life for what it is? Do you have to just love life for what it is? Do you have to just live? Do you "have to" do/feel anything at all? Do you just live? Is there any indifference in just living? Could achievement be a judgement? If elevated consciousness is supposed to just show you reality, then why would there be any "feelings" be attached to it? If insights are supposed to show you the nature of the human condition, would they be drenched in fragments of the human condition? You say "you believe ... this or that". How do you know?

Very few folks are actually dictators. Yes. And there's some folks who actually (a word/concept you really seem to like) choose to abandon riches. So what does the conscious creator create? Something like a social system in which many people are forced without knowing to contribute to the welfare of conscious creators? Because then you are able to be conscious of the reality you create yourself. Or you could become aware of consciousness itself in order to realize that there is no desire. Choice is yours.

Would God "feel" like a win or nihilism? Or would it just be, free of human judgements like positive or negative? Considering point 3: Alright. Continue believing and opening up your chakras. Push your energy up your spine and through the seventh chakra (crown, I believe?). You're doing great! Ask yourself: Is "expecting" maybe a judgement? Needlessly? Maybe they exactly show you why you experience them as twisted.

Do we? Then why are there people living asexually and "poor"? You ask: Why not manifest it? I ask: Why manifest it? Is there any reason?

"I want to, I want to, I deeply seek" ... Have you ever seen little children at the super-market check-out where all the sweets are? They want to; want to; deeply seek. You as a parent, do you give in or not?

Then don't have kids and loan sharks at your door. If you do, turn your kids into loan sharks.

Your advice is advisable - if you want to succeed in the rat race. But does it even make any difference? You realize the rat race before you take part in it ... you won't take part in it, because it is the rat race. You realize the rat race after you've taken part in it, you will stop taking part in it, because it is the rat race. Rats don't race when they organize the race. They let other rats race. Let them race.

Maybe the law of attraction is a concept? And where do concepts come from? If you were God (or the Universe for that matter) and able to manifest anything you wanted, would you manifest anything related to human attraction/aversion? Or would you rather manifest attraction/aversion itself? Would there be any "rather" for that matter?

Hi! Love you! Some insights as short as possible: 1.) I took Modafinil for a while (about 1 year) and I decided to get off of it. Explanation: It's a chemical compound that interacts with other bio-chemical reactions in your (my, our) body. Not sure if it is advisable. It's man-made and have you ever seen anything man-made that is not full of shit? From ego-perspective, it gave me depression, fatigue, anxiety and panic (after the positive effects wore off). Not sure whether that is due to elevated consciousness or just due to a bag full of shit. 2.) You say you felt like dying. And before you felt like God-Consciousness entering your state of mind. Maybe you weren't dying. You just told yourself you were dying. Because before you were not really in God-Consciousness, but you were only telling yourself that you were. See? A rat winning the rat-race is still a rat. A rat exiting the rat-matrix is still a rat exiting the rat-matrix. 3.) Do you really believe in an ancient chakra/energy system? Or is that maybe a construction of your mind that it really wants to believe in? 4.) I am not trying to put you down or anything. You're great! But ask yourself: Do you think a mind that has developed itself over the course of 2 decades in order to survive in a dream world of applied language will just abandon everything without resistance? It struggles. It doesn't want to cease. It throws everything it can at you when it notices that it is in danger due to elevated consciousness. So in your case I would advise: Stop psychedelics for now. Stop Modafinil. Do sports and meditation and slowly grow yourself towards consciousness instead of forcing it too soon too much. Much love!

You're inside language, thus you judge a person's statements based upon your own language and world-view. That's totally fine and unavoidable. But even from an ego-perspective: Does it even matter if one procreates or not? When you're dead, it won't matter to you anymore whether you have children or not. Because then you won't be inside language anymore.

;-) Let's go true.

Examine the parallels between mind and ego. Is it any different? Maybe mind and ego are just the same? Contemplate.

Define homeless. You got a whole planet to yourself. Climate zones, cities, forests, deserts, oceans, birds, fruit, nuts, animals, soil, air, fellow human beings, sun, night, wind, sunsets, sunrises, rivers, rocks, grass, sand, thunderstorms, rain, snow, mountains, hills, mushrooms, salt, tide, waves, magnetic poles, temperatures, weather, moon, venus, stars and: Reality itself. You think you gonna die? Or maybe you gonna live in permanent bliss?

If you can, yes. But it is very very hard. I know, everybody knows. You know. But if you can push yourself to dropping it all in any way, please do so. It is difficult to put into language, but if you're meditating long enough, you will see the opportunity to drop it all. If in any way possible, drop it all. It is very difficult, but I am sure you can do it. You are magnificent after all. You can do it! Just do it.

You sure? Maybe Leo is just you telling yourself that you are a genius?

Make it really beautiful and happy? Why do you feel the urge to shape something the way you please? See? That's a judgement. If you want to "progress" in your journey, you "want" to become free of judging your journey. See, the journey is just what it is. You don't have to judge yourself over your own progress. Ask yourself: Do I have to be dependent on girl? Do you have to be dependent on anything at all? Or is this dependency maybe just a story you tell yourself?

Is it? Or have we been free already the whole time?

Listen to Nahm. All you're writing right here is thought. Ask yourself: Is everything you're telling yourself valid? Do you have to be "dependent on girl"? Do you have to be "dependent" at all?

There's nothing holding you back. Why work hard? Because others tell you to do so? Because you yourself tell yourself to do so? Imagine human beings 100.000 years ago: You got your group and females/males together, got enough to eat and an appropriate shelter. Why working hard?

Why bother evaluating behaviours into categories like good or bad? Aren't they just behaviours? As soon as you judge, you're back into devilry.

Emotions are not true after all, so why bother comparing them?

Your doubts stem from a simple reason: When you're on shrooms, your consciousness is extremely elevated. When you're not on shrooms, it's not. So afterwards you'll doubt everything you've seen while cranked up to 11.

I can try, but notice: Words (language) is the reason why you're suffering in the first place. Anyways. In general: Just meditate or do psychedelics long enough in order to access a state of consciousness in which you feel some kind of energy running from your testicles (ovaries) up through your heart into your head. Be clean for that. No nicotine, no alcohol, no ordinary drugs, no caffeine, no sugar, no wheat, no meat, no dairy, no pmo (porn, masturbation, orgasm), no medication. All of these disrupt the flow of consciousness through your "body". I know it's hard. You know it's hard. Why is it hard? Because you want to distract yourself from realizing yourself. When you managed to put yourself into that state of flowing energy, concentrate on your upper head (seventh chakra, if you're into that sort of stuff). What does "concentrate" mean? Put your attention on the "whirl" in your upper head and just observe it. Watch it, note it, feel it. Doing this long enough, it will "open" up your head and release all that stored energy into somewhere (I don't know yet where it goes; to God, I guess, so to me, to you, to us). You will feel like a movie-goer. Sit somewhere in the audience and watch the happening. It happens anyway. In detail: The stream is like a puppet string coming from the center of the earth, grabbing you by the nuts (vag), telling you to immediately stop what you're doing. Remember when your parents told you to stop what you're doing? When they told you to stop masturbating, to stop smoking, to stop watching horror movies, to stop throwing your life away, to stop procrastinating, to stop having sweets, to stop lying, to stop staying up late, to stop playing video games, to stop watching porn, to stop having beer? Not to recite Freud, but: Your parents are a part of your suffering. Because they told you to be a certain way. And you'll NEVER forget that. So, if in any way possible, DON'T listen to your parents. Don't listen to what the stream is telling you. The stream shows you what you are. And you listen blindly. See? It's your memory of what you are supposed to be from your parent's world view. Say no to your parents when you've come this far. Say no. Your parents know nothing. You know everything. Because you are your parents. Look at the stream and put it into perspective. It tells you to be like your parents. Why? Just ask why. There is no parents. Because when you observe the stream, you'll realize that it is some force outside of you pulling your strings. But what now? How can you observe something that is you? Ask yourself: How can I be aware of something that is me? And you will notice: You're a puppet pulling your own strings. And you will notice: There is no parents. I am sorry if this sounds crazy to you, but there is no better way for me right now to address you verbally. Because we are one.