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Enlightement, in the normal sense of the word, does not gurantee a high level of personal development. Some of them were even warlords. SD Red. All of the classic religions are sexually repressed. SD Blue. And they can lead to some deep realizations. Basically, you can be an underdeveloped monkey even if you are blissed out 24/7 and have a permanent no self realization.

Another thought - I got around not feeling a sense of obligation because my current main client gives me daily deadlines (copywriting). And also - it is important to make sure that I am not taking an order that is more complicated than my current skill level (eg, - doing a lot of complicated modifications to an existing website is much harder than building a website from scratch). So if you can think of a way to do something like that it would be ideal. Idk if it is helpful in your situation, but maybe another thing to think about.

The main issue I see with that is - are you really sure that weekly homework from religious studies (which probably won't do much for your spiritual life) and cramming for exams regarding memorized Buddhist stuff will be more fulfilling than working on your finances/business/maybe starting a second small business? I get the appeal of having a chill time where you mainly study. Especially if it's somewhat related to spirituality. Just something to consider. I went to University 2 years ago because I thought it would be much more chill than working on my business and now I'm considering quitting. But I definitely learned some useful stuff on the other hand. I'd love to do a year long concentration retreat instead of university, that would be much better. Except that requires being able to not work on business at all etc.

When my concentration is high enough it can be so effing accurate that I can tell what card is going to show up before the reading happens. Daniel Ingram and others have reported the same.

Great point. I have been moving my exercise to earlier times and I can definitely feel the difference.

I would expand on that and say that you could spend 50% of your reading time doing the excercises from the specific book and only read further when you finished the tasks on the current page. You could use the remaining 50% to read another book so you dont feel like you are reading this one too long. If you read for an hour a day you might want to bump it up to 90 minutes, so you spend 45m on each. Treat the book like a course instead of your usual reading time.

Maintaining perfect posture and very little movement (maybe a stretch or a walk every 1.5h) is very important for getting as much out of it as possible. Distinguish between movement from restlesness (and do not move) and only consider moving if you are becoming lethargic. If you become lethargic, 5 minutes of walking meditation could be very beneficial. If you do it this way the periods where wakefulness is becoming very deep with zero lethargy should become longer everyday. Even if you mostly meditate less.

1/6 HHC cookie + 1.5h high quality meditation + listening to Eckhart Tolle as a peripheral object = It feels like I am almost 1:1 to his consciousness. I suspect I am in for a pretty big shift this week. Using a peripheral object and not just the main object is perfect for understanding what mindfulness actually is. One pointedness alone is not enough. Upper jhanas are the whole field of experience. Do not underestimate how much energy you can free up by letting go of the tons of neurotic thought you probably have! Interesting experience: It is often said that weed supresses dreams, but when I did a working to have even more astral projections than normally it worked very well even though weed did reduce my dreams dramatically the week before and I definitely should not have had this much REM. Also I have experienced 4th screen kasina twice in the past two days! While only meditating 1 - 2 hours a day. Weed does make kasina way more effective because it creates micro visuals, increases your concentration and makes it easier to enter jhana. So it might be soon possible to stay in high magick teritorry year round.

The good thing about realizing Tolle's insights is that it is possible to walk around in it close to 24/7. Freedom from most negative states of mind is no small thing. It's possible to lock it in with microdosing very quickly. And it doesn't distract from deeper psychedelic explorations.

It might theoretically be that understanding never disappears, it just won't be fully experienced in a lower state of consciousness. I've been experiencing fractals/slightly psychedelic states during dreams (or you can call it between dreams) and I've never even had a trip with fractals. I can for example take a microdose, question stuff, which will turn the microdose to a small trip and then days and weeks after when I question stuff sober I get to keep some of the experiences from that.

Thanks. I will look it up.

So, I was quite impatient and decided to do my LSA trip yesterday and did not do a proper extraction. I did get good results but yeah, the nausea definitely hindered me from fully maximizing the benefits of the trip. - At one point (when I was waiting to puke in the bathroom) it hit me that this room is a singular thing not inside my concepts. Before then I thought that "yeah, this might be the case blahblahblah" but now when it hit my in this specific state of consciousness it is like "holy shit! What Leo says is completely literal! Nothing metaphorical about it all!" Realizing this can very deeply affect how you physically see what you see (the floating room is deepening understanding the floating room). - Another thing: the perception of other things outside my experience is very deeply lodged inside the mind, so when it hit my I did see that my deep assumptions about reality are not correct! In fact, I think that if I went deeper (read: if the nausea did not hinder me like this) it would have very quickly become too intense! It did have a "not ready for this" aspect to it (wondering what will happen if I get past the "not ready" concept) - My "There is only this" seems like a shallower version of "I am God" (which I have not experienced yet). So no, I did not have a God realization but it was definitely in that direction and if I planned my trip a bit better, I definitely might have realized God. I did also experience something slightly deeper than there being only this room, but that is not something I can articulate yet (or comprehend fully for that matter) - Be careful, if you are very sensitive to weed (like me) then even 5 mg edible can have an uncomfortable body load (yes, I can distinguish between LSA body load and HHC body load). I also fell asleep a lot sooner than I should have (I woke up 6 hours later still tripping). But I know that my next session will be epic. And I will definitely extract it next time. I had to pause watching Leos guided God meditation several times, because it was getting too intense at certain points It also improved my habits (at least for now). Being in a high state of consciousness while puking due to poor planning does that to you During my next trip I will contemplate "how does it work that this thing is me".

That will definitely work as long as you are adding resistance/rep/more difficult timing/more difficult variations.

1/4 HHC / weed cookie: Experiencing and deepening panaromic vision / the bubble of consciousness / stepping outside the sense of sight and other senses. Also got closer to completely letting go which is a great way to intensify the trip! Also I'm starting to ask some epic questions which are putting me to some great states, I might edit this later today once more progress is made. Also it 10x receiving transmissions (even of those who are not deliberately giving transmissions - I can get a look at any video/book/etc and experience things they experienced). But asking good questions is still superior to any transmission. Interesting thing that is happening with my trips lately: asking good questions both while tripping and while sober mean that you will transfer more and more of your higher states into your sober life!

It being received by God for free is understanding how it works. The magician himself doesn't actually decide which spell works. But he can get 1:1 with the thing that actually does the magick. Just deepened this insight.

A good way to observe understanding is to see how questions deepen the trip and how the trip deepens the questions in a nice loop. Like if you read someone else's post you can easily get a micro taste of their understanding-patterns even sober. That's the same thing.

Tbh if you feel great and appear normal to people you know in real life (text-only forum interactions dont count) I would not use antipsychotics. You should read/watch videos about the EPRC (Daniel Ingram, he is a doctor, so you should take his opinion more seriously than my post or posts by other forum members) so you understand how this kind of medicine is overprescribed for people with spiritual experiences. Ultimately the decision is up to you, I am just sharing what I would do in a similiar situation. Anybody who has ever taken a psychadelic that would describe their experience and conclusions to a psychiatrist would be at risk of a psychosis misdiagnosis.

Just use it after reading the book for easier application of what you have learned.

The books of the forum owner are good. He made his money with his IT business and then grew them, describes his successes and failures and how he grew his initial success. While also acknowledging that the book is a source of wealth. Overall it its way less gimmicky than popular advice like Robert K.

They have a very forresty / natural / muddy vibe for me. They are great. Never had shrooms but I would not be suprised if they were similiar.

I am not that familiar with Conjugate but Bulgarian lite is basically: choose an exercise that is does not put too much strain on the lower back (eg. RDL instead of DL) -> do a few warmup sets, one all out set (does not matter if its 1 RM or 10 RM) -> increase weight or reps the next day -> do that until you plateau, which typically takes 1 - 2 weeks -> either do a slightly different variation of the exercise you have done before (like RDLs with bands+weight after normal RDLs) or a different exercise altogether -> repeat. No, you wont overtrain if you are in not calorie deficit and listen to your body. And yes, you can do it year round without risking injury. I have done it for a year straight with zero side effects. And more gains on all my pulls, pushes and leg work that on any other program ever in my life. Size gains were pretty impressive too. But deciding what exercise you are going to do next definitely requires a lot of planning compared to more conventional programs. The key to making it work is a) dont be in a deficit b) listen to your body c) switch up slight variations d) dont forget to target all muscles year round. Changing the exercise every time you get stuck. Typically 1 - 2 weeks for me. During that year I experienced close to zero plateaus despite already being past intermediate.

I went from being mediocre at this stuff (only stuff like chance manipulation and divination etc) to being able to induce straight up group "hallucinations" at the peak of a retreat. I have had some slight abilities since young (which did intensify to an uncomfortable extent after a spontaneous awakening five years ago). But never anything like this.

I recommend you quickly skim through the following free book to get an idea of how training specifically for these abilities looks like: https://firekasina.files.wordpress.com/2017/11/the-fire-kasina.pdf I doubt you have done vizualization-concentration in a high enough dose. This kind of practice got me to experience shared psychic experiences.

Oh, sorry for my misinterpretation. I thought you were calling me delusional. Well, I can't make things float yet but you're right that would make for an easy cult creation. Even something simple like teaching people how to astral project after they haven't had luck on their own somehow causes them to listen to my opinion a bit too much.

Understanding how magick works or doesn't work has nothing to do with creating your own stupid religion. Try it out. Contemplate it.