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Idk if this is just specific to my body chemistry but when I trip on the same day when I take modafinil it changes how modafinil works next time - it might become trippy pernamently. It is definitely a good combo but do you really want to be in a trippy headspace whenever you take modafinil for work?? Who knows if the effects ever turn back to normal.

Nice, those are astral projections. I can tell you how to have more of them if you want.

Yeah he's a scammer but calling him a sex trafficker when that hasn't been confirmed at all is just wrong. Managing onlyfans has nothing to do with sex trafficking.

Not exactly conscious but if you'd enjoy then why the hell not? If you have more time and money for spirituality and would enjoy having a bit too much sex it might be something for you. Just don't become a drug addict. And don't call it life purpose. Just a fun way to make money.

Replace the cigarette with a joint or a dab pen (if you don't mind blasting off). And plan it so it doesn't interfere with your survival. Just a thought ?.

Noting + HHC = panaromic vision A question that previously gave no results can go surprisingly deep if you were hindered by a lack of consciousness before Smoking it gives better results than edibles.

1) 1/3 of a weed cookie The reason I believe that this moment had a past and will have a future and is in space is because I believe my memories. I believe my memories because I have memories that tell me that my assuptions about what happened is correct. The normal assumptions are a bunch of unconcious nonsense.

Leo's evil conservative twin.

Why couldn't he be a serious mystic? Engaging in devilry doesn't negate mysticism. I heard it took a few tries for him to die

You'll learn things that are more correctly aligned with what actually makes money. So maybe cut back the hours a bit so you don't burn out?

This might make some mods screech (especially if they're not familiar with some of the ways spiritual development can go), but you should do a meditation retreat (minimum 10 days, 10+h a day, preferably longer). It's likely you'd get an Eckhart Tolle style instant alleviation of 90% suffering that would stay there even after you are not on the retreat. If that doesn't happen then yeah, I'd get the antidepressants and continue practicing. But you should be able to assess whether you can handle the fact, that at least some parts of the retreat would be destabilizing. Dark night is a lot more common than people think. A dead giveaway should be if you first started with very positive experiences, maybe completely spontaneous (doesn't matter if it's spontaneous, it would just make it more obvious).

Trolling to this degree is still a mental illness, at least in my view. Just a less severe form. It definitely did not grow his channel, so it was not a business decision. At least not a good one. He can't be completely sane and consider eating shit a good marketing strategy simultaneously

Well, business is harder than going to university and getting a job. So don´t expect to have it easier if you go the business route. But when you do succeed it is much more rewarding, both on the mental level and financially.

Read advanced magick for beginners by Alan Chapman and start practicing right away. I have literally thousands of experiences with witchcraft and I consider this to be one of the best starting points. Another great thing would be to combine it with a fire kasina retreat. And the most accurate movie is "The Craft" (the old version). Yeah, some parts are exaggerated but not by much.

Sounds like you used the trip well.

It sounds like you got a legit spiritual realization. Not "last piece of puzzle" by any means, but still, you seem sincere. Just take some time, do psychedelics, contemplate and meditate, and see how it deepens.

Enlightement, in the normal sense of the word, does not gurantee a high level of personal development. Some of them were even warlords. SD Red. All of the classic religions are sexually repressed. SD Blue. And they can lead to some deep realizations. Basically, you can be an underdeveloped monkey even if you are blissed out 24/7 and have a permanent no self realization.

Another thought - I got around not feeling a sense of obligation because my current main client gives me daily deadlines (copywriting). And also - it is important to make sure that I am not taking an order that is more complicated than my current skill level (eg, - doing a lot of complicated modifications to an existing website is much harder than building a website from scratch). So if you can think of a way to do something like that it would be ideal. Idk if it is helpful in your situation, but maybe another thing to think about.

The main issue I see with that is - are you really sure that weekly homework from religious studies (which probably won't do much for your spiritual life) and cramming for exams regarding memorized Buddhist stuff will be more fulfilling than working on your finances/business/maybe starting a second small business? I get the appeal of having a chill time where you mainly study. Especially if it's somewhat related to spirituality. Just something to consider. I went to University 2 years ago because I thought it would be much more chill than working on my business and now I'm considering quitting. But I definitely learned some useful stuff on the other hand. I'd love to do a year long concentration retreat instead of university, that would be much better. Except that requires being able to not work on business at all etc.

When my concentration is high enough it can be so effing accurate that I can tell what card is going to show up before the reading happens. Daniel Ingram and others have reported the same.

Great point. I have been moving my exercise to earlier times and I can definitely feel the difference.

I would expand on that and say that you could spend 50% of your reading time doing the excercises from the specific book and only read further when you finished the tasks on the current page. You could use the remaining 50% to read another book so you dont feel like you are reading this one too long. If you read for an hour a day you might want to bump it up to 90 minutes, so you spend 45m on each. Treat the book like a course instead of your usual reading time.

Maintaining perfect posture and very little movement (maybe a stretch or a walk every 1.5h) is very important for getting as much out of it as possible. Distinguish between movement from restlesness (and do not move) and only consider moving if you are becoming lethargic. If you become lethargic, 5 minutes of walking meditation could be very beneficial. If you do it this way the periods where wakefulness is becoming very deep with zero lethargy should become longer everyday. Even if you mostly meditate less.

1/6 HHC cookie + 1.5h high quality meditation + listening to Eckhart Tolle as a peripheral object = It feels like I am almost 1:1 to his consciousness. I suspect I am in for a pretty big shift this week. Using a peripheral object and not just the main object is perfect for understanding what mindfulness actually is. One pointedness alone is not enough. Upper jhanas are the whole field of experience. Do not underestimate how much energy you can free up by letting go of the tons of neurotic thought you probably have! Interesting experience: It is often said that weed supresses dreams, but when I did a working to have even more astral projections than normally it worked very well even though weed did reduce my dreams dramatically the week before and I definitely should not have had this much REM. Also I have experienced 4th screen kasina twice in the past two days! While only meditating 1 - 2 hours a day. Weed does make kasina way more effective because it creates micro visuals, increases your concentration and makes it easier to enter jhana. So it might be soon possible to stay in high magick teritorry year round.

The good thing about realizing Tolle's insights is that it is possible to walk around in it close to 24/7. Freedom from most negative states of mind is no small thing. It's possible to lock it in with microdosing very quickly. And it doesn't distract from deeper psychedelic explorations.