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I am a male with the sex drive of Bonnie Blue, so yeah I get you :P.

Quick Google search ;-) Can't directly send you the source link.

This is not strictly about manifestation but can be used for that too. But you don't need that big of a brain to realize that meditating on the elements (kasina) leads to powers associated with that element. I'm talking 10 - 20 hours for min. 2 weeks at a time. The old buddhists did year long meditation retreats.

Armodafinil. Suprised no one mentioned it yet.

Thanks for the tip. I'll check it out.

Look on goenka's website, it's all over the world multiple times a year.

I read bits of the Bible trying to find verses that are like Zen koans, but was dissapointed to see that it's mostly "praise the lord!" type stuff.

Yes, but you have to spend 160+ hours doing the fire kasina in 2 weeks. And everyone sees different things doing that.

Daniel Ingram mentioned seeing them at a heavy kasina retreat, he didn't believe in them before hand.

Depends on how many Rolls-Royces the leader gets.

Thanks for the tips.

Hi, I haven't told my psychiatrist (in fear of hospitalization) that I have persistent visual hallucinations. They cause my eyes to roll which renders me unable to work. I told him about my eyes rolling upwards and he concluded that it was caused by pills he prescribed before, so he put me off them and gave me new medication which is supposed to combat the "side effects". The problem is that the eyes rolling upwards is caused by hallucinations, not by pill side effects. I can come clean (if I get fired from my job, in case the probably-wrong-treatment doesn't work). It's probably a hard choice I need to make in case it's curable.

Well, mostly. I have a bit of candy every day and I also eat bread, so it still needs some work. Eating healthier didn't help that much, I feel like I've had hallucinations for so long that my brain got used to it as it's default state. I might try fasting. To restore the gut and autophagy.

Right now I eat everything. I tried keto diet and it may have helped a bit. Any diet reccomendations?

Well, I doubt my meds will work, so I'll just have to live with it. We'll see in a few weeks though. Also, I think engaging with spiritual practice and psychedelics will help me have nicer hallucinations than I currently have.

Thanks for sharing.

Yeah, I hope it works for me. It's the last option that doesn't require hospitalization. Hopefully they won't force me if it doesn't work. My hallucinations are very treatment resistant.

Leo really likes this guy.

That's great. It used to be my favorite substance before the problems.

Update: the new medicine didn't work, so now we will be trying clozapine. The strongest antipsychotic there is. He said that if that doesn't work either there are things like electroshock therapy, which I definitely don't want to try.

If you can take time off work please do, you don't want to spend half off what you have left working. I am probably just stating the obvious.

Ok, so thc-x makes the undesirable hallucinations flare up for me. Not good. I have to find another substance (I have schizophrenia)

Practice.

Being good alone isn't enough. I am literally at Robert Monroe's level at astral projection, yet it's my worst performing business - I literally haven't made a cent from it. I am bad at programming, yet I get clients, weird how that works.

Yeah definitely, haha