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Wanted to dedicate a thread for real examples of serious people doing serious spirituality. I’ll start with mine. I’ll keep it concise. 10/11/25: At-Home Meditation Retreat Started at 8am with meditation for a 2 hour sit. The main techniques used were breath awareness, open awareness, and light self-inquiry. I took a brief break to use the bathroom and adjust myself. I returned and continued for another 2 hours focusing on stillness leading up to self-inquiry. The main questions contemplated were “What am I, What is Consciousness?” I kept my consciousness on the awareness that I am the entire room. Thoughts of media and videogames kept distracting my attention and I kept returning back to breath and self-inquiry. I had the insight just how much influence the media has had over my mind and how much garbage and past relationships my mind is focused on. Took another break for lunch and just stared at my hands while contemplating consciousness. My hands started to look alien. I kept my awareness on the field of consciousness. Whenever my mind wandered, I returned back to the questions of “What is consciousness? How does this hand exist at all?” Additional questions came up such as “Why does consciousness exist at all?” “How did consciousness decide to experience/create my current life?” Took another brief break and spent the next 2 hours in a dark room in my closet and continued my previous meditation techniques. Nothing new happened here but more mind wandering. Took a break for a brief snack and returned to meditation. I sat for another couple hours and after a while my mind got still. I started feeling love and joy going through every cell of my being. I started having a big smile on my face that I couldn’t resist. It felt like I was on mushrooms for a moment. I started to feel satisfied with my own mind in pure existence. I tried to keep this awareness for as long as I could. My legs started to fall asleep so I had to do some walking meditation for a bit which got me out of that state. I spent the rest of the time contemplating existential topics such as death, eternity, the first cause, time, memory, and my purpose. At around 7pm I couldn’t keep focus anymore and so I decided to end it for today. My main takeaways is how much noise and garbage filled my mind. My mind resisted stillness in the form of thoughts about media and entertainment. I also realized how much I do love my mind because I was able to think creative thoughts and have insights. Other insights I had is that I am imagining time, memory, and the past. The past and memory are nothing but a construction of consciousness. I realized deeper that my consciousness is creating everything I see and hear in a similar way it creates thought/imagination. I also realized that I need to practice meditation more often and that I have been mistreating my mind. Thats all for now.

It’s because of its tiny imaginary brain

But consciousness is not something that can be killed since it is what imagines/creates death and the chainsaw in the first place. There is no death nor the chainsaw without consciousness. Of course, consciousness right now is very attached to this particular human body’s survival. It’s amazing that consciousness so focalized to this particular human organism rather than some ape in the jungle. I wonder what is stopping my consciousness from being focalized into Trump? For some reason, consciousness right now wants to play the story of r0ckyreed and not some ape in the jungle. I can only have the first person experience of r0ckyreed in this lifetime. And then maybe I may have the first person experience of an ape in the jungle.

What I learned from taking mushrooms is that the mushroom itself is my own hallucination. Psilocybin is part of my dream. I am still not conscious why God designed reality in such a way where certain figments of consciousness (aka chemicals) open or limit consciousness.

Chemicals themselves are Consciousness. But consciousness is not mediated by chemicals because that assumes materialism is true. To mediate means to bring about.

But the real kicker is that you’re imagining all those higher states of consciousness right now. All those higher states are consciousness are hallucinations in the now. Since time is illusion, you never experienced them only imagining them now. If you aren’t conscious that you’re a God right now then your previous God realizations are only imagination.

@Leo Gura Will you reveal the substance to the people who have been selected? I think it would be good practice to at least let participants know in advance what substances are used so that full consent is actually given. If it were me, I would want to know what substances would be used so I can prepare and research in advance. I don’t just want to show up with no clue what I’ll be taking and not knowing symptoms or side effects.

This is false. Don’t spread fake news around. I had to look this up myself. Bill Maher did not turn to the right at all.

Hustle culture is BS.

What do you guys think? You think Kriya is a better path? I recently came across a Kundalini for Awakening video on a guided experience and it included Kriya pranayama and fire breathing. Check it out and let me know what you think of the method:

I found this really cool resource on pranayama and breath of fire (aka supreme fire). Is this how you guys do it? I practiced it like done in the video and my mind went silent.

I’m just now getting into Kriya Yoga, Kriya Pranayama and Supreme Fire. Supreme Fire seems very similar to Wim Hof Breathing. I wonder if Supreme Fire is more effective than Wim Hof? I usually have done Wim Hof breath work before a meditation sit. Also, is my understanding of Kriya Pranayama correct in that I am breathing up and down my spine while inhaling 8-12 seconds and exhaling 8-12 seconds? Thanks!

It’s not that simple. If I leave more room, then some asswipe is gonna switch into my lane. I’ve seen it happen many times. But when I tailgate, they can’t lane change right in front of me.

Once you take the red pill, there is no going back. Ask yourself why you took the red pill in the first place. Maybe that will help you move forward. We can’t move back and we can’t put the toothpaste back in the tube.

I second this.

I think Infinity Gods is 10% false teachings. All of those Gods are imagined within God. If there are other Gods outside of God’s mind, then God is not God.

But all the Infinite Absolutes are actually One Absolute. There cannot be another absolute. There is only One. If there was another Absolute, then that would mean that the first Absolute is not Absolute enough to contain and be one with the second Absolute. Having 2 absolutes implies duality and relativity. It would be an “other” Absolute which would make it relative and not Absolute. We all know that islands are held together by the sea. The sea represents the Absolute and all the islands are relative since they could all be submerged into the One Ocean. Hope that makes sense. Edit: another Absolute Consciousness is basically imagined within your own Absolute Consciousness. There are no other Absolute Consciousnesses because you imagined Infinite Gods. But that idea of Infinite Gods is a concept and imagination within your direct experience. It’s only real if you imagine it. If you stopped imagining Infinity Gods, you would be left with just the One Absolute Self.

The story says a student asked him: “How are we to treat others?” He replied: “There are no others.” The relative and absolute are one. All the sensory perceptions experienced right now: sights, sound, thoughts, etc. are all that exist. Qualia is absolute truth.

I still don’t understand The Infinity of Gods awakening/episode. I have validated Absolute Solipsism in my direct experience and awakenings. I haven’t validated Infinity of Gods because I am hallucinating all other minds and all other Gods.

I wanted to share some thoughts to improve the forum given the recent number of new users being trolls. Why can’t we make the forum private meaning that people cannot view things we say on this forum without first creating an account and if a user gets banned, they can no longer view the forum. I think this would protect forum users from having banned people from using information against Actualized forum members. In addition, I think it would help make forum users feel safe (for instance, fearing their boss or partner might view their posts). This is just my thoughts on the matter. I wouldn’t feel comfortable with somebody who isn’t an approved forum member to have access to my posts and journals. Think of people in abusive relationships who post in their journals. What is stopping their perpetrator from viewing their post? I think we need to have some safe guards against trolls and mentally insane people. They shouldn’t be able to have the ability and privilege to view our posts without being approved.

You guys are missing my point. I’m not saying that each of our posts is private to each other. I’m saying that in order to view the forum, you would to have a registered approved account just like how you have to have one to make posts. Nothing would be different. The only difference is that we won’t have some bad characters who can causally view the forum and all of our posts without an account. We have thousands of unregistered users who casually view this forum each day. How do you know one of those thousands isn’t your boss or someone who is stalking you?

If you really want to avoid truth and focus on your emotional needs, then why are you here? Why not just turn off your phone and live your life? You don’t need Leo or Buddha to validate something for you. I recommend you turn off your phone and take a break from social media and actualized just to see if anything changes for you. Best of luck.

If you’re not interested in consciousness work, then why do you care? Why not just monkey around like other humans do? You have to genuinely care about truth and stop asking others for answers that you could find out on your own.

What are you doing? You have no evidence to back up your claims. There is no evidence that Daniel Ingram is a 9/11 conspiracy theorist. If you’re gonna make a claim like that about someone, cite the source; otherwise, it is wax in my ears.

@Leo Gura Actualized quote #281 says every mind is a subset of God’s mind. That God imagines all possible realities and all possible minds. But I have never validated any other reality or mind other than my own consciousness. This is starting to sound like panentheism where I am a mind inside of God’s mind but God is also a mind greater than me. I don’t see every mind as a subset of God’s mind. I see every mind as my own dream. Everything that exists is my mind. My bed, my room, the forests, animals, humans, ants, aliens, buildings, cars, etc. are all my mind. I don’t see these objects or subjects as subsets of God’s mind, I see them as God’s mind. I am the Universe imagining this human experience and the entire “world” but that doesn’t make what I imagine to be a subset. The issue with panentheism is that it assumes God is transcendent that somehow God is greater or more than just my consciousness/experience.