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I’ve been thinking about the purpose of relationships and the insight hit me and it seems so obvious now. The purpose of romance and relationships is to entrench you deeper into the illusion. I’ve been contemplating why it is hard for me to build friendships and romantic relationships with others. I figured out that most people do not want to talk about deep things such as philosophy, politics, and spirituality. They just want to dive deeper into their illusions and not question reality. I hardly ever meet friends or let alone romantic interests that actually care about truth. Caring about truth is so rare. I’m starting to realize that the purpose of a relationship is not about truth. It’s about enhancing the dream/illusion. All this pickup, attracting women, and getting horny is a complete waste of time. But hey, do you. If you don’t care about truth, then relationships and sex are for you. But if you are someone like me who can’t stop contemplating reality, then consider that relationships are part of the matrix. There’s no issue with enjoying the matrix. You can’t escape the matrix, but the pursuit itself of sex/relationships will not bring you an understanding of reality. Relationships are about survival, not truth. I’m not saying don’t have fun, to not pursue relationships. I’m just stating that you’re fooling yourself if you make that your sole pursuit in life. If you do those things, just realize that you’re not prioritizing truth at that moment. You’re distracting yourself with human desires. Nothing wrong with that. Just be honest with yourself. I have deconstructed the fantasy of a hot witch truth-seeking girlfriend.

I have recently been conversing with atheists on the existence of God. It’s amazing how closed minded atheists are. It’s even more disgusting than fundamentalists. I came up with my own arguments. But I still think that out of all the arguments, the contingency argument is the best. Here’s my version of the contingency argument: 1. Either reality exists necessarily or it is contingent. 2. If reality is contingent, then there must be something beyond it that explains why reality exists. 3. But “something beyond reality” is incoherent, since reality includes everything that exists. 4. Furthermore, if reality were entirely contingent, then the structures of logic, science, and rationality we rely on would themselves be contingent and arbitrary, undermining any confidence we have in rational thought itself. 5. Therefore, reality cannot be contingent and must exist necessarily. 6. This necessary reality is the uncaused, self-existent ground of all being, which is referred to as God. Response to anticipated objections: What is the cause of God? You’re assuming that there is a cause of God. Since God is necessary existence, its nature is infinite. Which means that if you tried to trace the cause of something that is uncaused you will end up in an infinite regress since that is the nature of infinite being. Why call it God and not just reality or the universe? Because what is meant by universe and reality is viewed as unintelligent and materialistic. The reason it is called God is because the properties of God describe necessary existence as infinite intelligence/mind. What if you’re wrong and reality is contingent? Tell me atheist how you are able to even read these words, argue, and enjoy a painting of Picasso? You really think reality is an accident and random? Thats akin to a painter replicating nature through their art by putting a blindfold on and throwing paint against the wall. If reality is contingent, then what is preventing it from being necessary? Whatever that is, would be necessary!!

I am actually convinced no argument will convince an atheist. I made a TikTok about deconstructing atheism and how atheism isn’t simply the mere lack of belief but is a rejection/dismissal of God. I made the case that if God was as clear as day to them by meditation or psychedelics, they would dismiss the experience/evidence and call it a hallucination in the same way that a flat earther will dismiss any evidence for the earth being round. I don’t think anything will convince an atheist and that isn’t my problem. You can’t force openmindedness on someone. I got a whole bunch of comments saying that atheism isn’t a worldview or belief system but is a suspension of belief. But that doesn’t make sense because there are atheist communities formed and many of them share similar beliefs such as materialism, evidentialism, scientism, etc. They argue that atheism is like being a non-stamp collector. But yet, they make such an identity out of that, which entails atheism being more than just absence of belief. The very fact that atheists argue with me presupposes a belief.

I just got accepted for an apartment at a country club. Rent is going to be about $1000 after utilities. I won’t be able to move in until September. I was wondering if you all had any general advice on apartment living for first time. It seems like a nice apartment complex with a pool, golf course, and gym. The apartment building is 2 stories so I want to know if you all recommend being on the top floor or bottom floor. I’m excited for this part in my personal development because I have lived with my supportive parents at our beautiful home in the woods for my whole life. I’m excited to be fully independent and face adulthood. Thanks.

Thanks guys. I worked on my assertiveness and asked them more questions. They have a 12month lease and a 6 month. I asked the difference and they said the 6 month adds $75 to rent. When I actually move in, I plan on taking a video of the place or pictures just to cover myself. They have a no smoking policy, so if I was to do DMT one day, I will have to plug it and not smoke it.

Thanks guys. I’m excited. It will add 5-10 minutes of commute to work. But not a big deal.

Here’s a powerful secret meditation technique I learned: 1. Settle in and imagine an empty desert. In this quiet empty desert, visualize a pyramid made out of crystal. See it as vividly as you can. Any thought that captures you, return back to the pyramid. 2. Notice the pyramid fading away to nothingness, along with the desert. 3. Sit in the empty stillness for as long as possible. Any thought that’s come up, see them fading away like the pyramid. 4. As you sit in the stillness, just notice consciousness itself. Don’t try to do anything. Just notice what consciousness is doing. Ask the question: “What is consciousness? What am I?” Don’t try to answer it with more thought, just notice. The answer is a shift in consciousness. That is my secret meditation technique. Hope you enjoyed it.

I feel like that is where I’m at. I see the market. I’ve been on Hinge, approached at the bars. But I don’t see anyone worth dating and being vulnerable with again.

Thanks. There’s still value. But going forward, I’m not gonna expect women to care about philosophy and awakening like I used to. The reason why I have difficulty with relationships is because I love talking about philosophy, politics, and other controversial topics. And I know the majority of people don’t wanna have those discussions. I don’t want to lower my thinking to low conscious stuff like sports, gossip, sex, etc. Right now, relationships seem like a waste of time to me. It requires so much work to maintain them with no guarantee that it will work. I don’t want kids and most women do. I don’t think women can handle me existentially. I’m trying to get out of my hometown by age 30. How do you do it Leo? How do you stay motivated despite the annoying games of attraction and breakups? Why pursue a woman if you can pursue God? A woman’s love is conditional. @Leo Gura

I already got an LP and good stuff going for me. I understand why relationships exist. The purpose of relationships is to deepen my dream, not to awaken. Relationships are corrupted by the human survival agenda. The whole concept of courting and dating is already full of corruptions and self-deceptions. Dating isn’t about truth. It’s about what makes you feel good. LP is also part of the matrix as well. I’m not saying the matrix is bad. We need to have money to have food to be able to survive for us to be able to contemplate and awaken. But don’t mistake that money and food are figments of the dream. I believe it’s possible to have a conscious relationship and awaken. But just realize that most of everything in life is designed to keep you asleep (ex: money, work, relationships, sex, religion, politics, etc.), aside from psychedelics. Hell, I’m even contradicting myself right now by making this post. The majority of the posts I make is a self-deception, another matrix that I use to remind myself of the matrix I am in.

Thats not it. I have felt fulfilled. But I also realize that it wasn’t about truth. Never met a single woman who has a passion for breaking the matrix. All that I have met want to go deeper into the dream, to get married, to have kids, start a family. None I have met are interested in deeply deconstructing reality. That woman is rare. But again, why do I want a relationship? Because part of my consciousness is hardwired to go deeper into the illusion. Relationships are attachments. Anything you attach yourself to is inherently untrue if you really think about it. I’m not commenting about my relationships. I’m commenting about the structure of relationships being designed to deepen you into the matrix. Relationships are a self-deception. But yet, we need them to survive.

I would love to have a girlfriend who is highly philosophical and cares deeply about truth for its own sake. But that seems like me striking gold in a porta-potty. Maybe I’m in the wrong environment. I would love a relationship like that. But I am also trying to be realistic too. The rub is that when you enter a relationship, it no longer becomes about truth for its own sake anymore.

I am them. There’s no difference between me imagining a pyramid and me looking at my hand.

To even have a relationship already implies you jumping through hoops and playing games.

Felt like everything I ever interacted with is a form of consciousness. Consciousness takes on the form of thoughts, objects, people, space, emotions, etc.

Not true. Look up Maslows hierarchy of needs.

What do you think? Anybody have any secret meditation techniques they are willing to share? I would like to learn kriya yoga but the teaching is secret.

A post about that was made a few months ago. It’s not a good idea. It doesn’t represent independence of thought. Leo’s views on things always update, so that bot would be a self-deception. It’s a distraction from the work.

Thanks. Any retreats you recommend? Never actually done a formal retreat. Are they even worth it compared to a retreat at my home? I was thinking of just doing a weekend dark room retreat in my home where I just lock myself in my dark closet and just sit. The most I’ve ever meditated was 5 hours. I plan on watching the surfer this weekend.

Thanks. I’m just trying to make sure how I can meditation properly so that it won’t be a waste of time. Not sure how counting my breaths or chanting a mantra will lead me to the moon. I can see how meditation can make me more grounded, but I don’t see how I can get to the moon via meditation alone. Furthest I’ve gotten to the moon was via psilocybin and contemplation. Trying to see what I can do other than contemplation while I wait to get psychedelics again.

@Leo Gura Okay. I think I’m starting to understand. My issue is that if meditation is really more fundamental than contemplation, then why are there hardly any God-Realized mediating monks? Why are people like Martin Ball not God-Realized after taking so much 5-me0? Maybe because they didn’t contemplate, question, and deconstruct self-deception enough? it just seems like that there’s more to the rocket than just meditation, psychedelics or a mystical experience. Because those methods can also lead you to the wrong planet.

@Leo Gura I am trying to follow your helicopter analogy. I was agreeing and resonating with it until you said that the helicopter is analogous to thinking and when you said that meditation is more fundamental to it. This makes sense, but thinking or shall I say questioning is essential for understanding reality. Without questioning, there is no curiosity and no awakening. In a way, I see questioning as the only rocket essential for awakening. You can meditate and do psychedelics, but if you have no desire to understand reality (ex: questioning/contemplation), then you will never reach the moon. The rocket was built out of contemplation/thinking/questioning, not out of sitting still and counting your breaths. The issue is science thinks too limited because that’s what science is. In a way, you contradict yourself because your entire post was you using a helicopter to explain the limits of helicopters. You were using thinking to explain the limits of thinking. But it’s even more nuanced than that because you value the deepest understanding possible, which cannot negate the importance of high quality thinking. There is no totality of understanding if you don’t have high quality thinking down. What am I missing?

If women liked betas and liked lean muscular guys, then why don’t dating apps work for me? One insight I had is that I am geographically in the wrong place. I literally went to DC and Philadelphia and my number of likes and matches 4x. Maybe geography is a confounding variable in these studies? Maybe women have different preferences relative to geography and culture?

Do you think that it could be the case that Trump and Musk want us to think they have broken up as part of an elaborate scheme? Maybe this is just a ruse to keep up distracted.

@Leo Gura Very good blog post on understanding. That was my main motivation since watching your free will and consciousness videos back in 2017. Still engaging in daily contemplation to get better insight than the day before. 🙏