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This would be valuable. I've studied Ken's stuff and there is a lot there that Leo doesn't teach

@docs20 He would be written off as crazy if he shared his full insights. Balance

@Shiva99 Do you live with anyone?

This is just ridiculous.

Seems green-yellow to me

There's a division in the community and likely in Leo. Something's off lately

@Free Mind Writing on iPad is great. I can take any drawing I've made and redraw it into OneNote, or even type some notes and draw a visual next to it. Like you said, cloud connectivity is a disadvantage, but enables this seamless switching.

The online version has it's upsides. For example, I can take notes on my laptop at home, or switch to my phone for reference or quick notes on the go. One valuable feature I've used is switching to my iPad and using an apple pencil to draw into OneNote with pencil-like precision. Obvious downside is that you're at the mercy of the cloud.

@The observer You're not answering the question. What are you trying to describe by using the word 'grace'? The bullshit paradigm is useful when applying it to your own mind and perceptions. It does not work to play as a defense mechanism when your arguments face scrutiny. To argue as if you can make a bold claim and pull back on it with no backlash is ignorant. If you bring up some bullshit, be ready to justify it with more bullshit. That's the bullshitting game.

Part of me hears you and thinks she's burdened you with some of her emotional baggage, as I've had a similar experience. She sounds narcissistic, and doesn't seem to consider your feelings (not out of spite but unconsciousness and incapacity). Narcissists are unconsciously adept at projecting or storing their emotions in others. How much of your energy, thoughts, attention, & actions focus on her throughout the day?

Synchronicity builds momentum in one's life when it is given the psychological space to do so. By believing in numerology, you create space for synchronicity. Perhaps this is best left unsaid, but synchronicity is just as effective with or without numerology.

My intuition is telling me you may have dissociated from the part of yourself that is terrified to die

@Chumbimba Glad you followed through and got a real feel rather than leaving the itch unscratched.

Having this 'angel' as you call it in your visions seems to point to a division in your psyche that must be healed. This 'angel' is a part of you that is yet to be integrated. Your conclusion was completely depersonalized, so I'm not seeing a real insight in here from your trip.

I used to play tons of video games. I had my xbox in my room and played probably 2 hours a day on average. Eventually I started meditating, and had the instinct to take my xbox out of my room. A year and a half later, with a year of daily meditation under my belt, I started playing again with friends. What I found was that I was able to process emotions from my childhood that I had stored while playing video games. I was able to untangle complexes from my childhood just by playing with a higher level of consciousness. If your intuition is telling you to get a switch, I say get a switch!

@danilofaria I'd say from an SD perspective that they're reacting against Orange ideology. How did you come to the conclusion that anti-vaxers are dumb? I plan on vaccinating my kids for now if the time comes. If more arguments come out supporting anti-vax I'll evaluate and follow my intuition.

This is my experience. I've had a deep masculine block or wound in the past inherited from my father. Recently I've tried shrooms and this helped me gain awareness of the wound. It's centered in my throat and manifests in closed off chest area, downturned shoulders, and tight neck muscles. I've realized the resistance and tightness is the physical reaction to the underlying emotion, and when I focus in and relax the resistance and energy blocks, the energy flows, and I feel the masculine energy again. I plan on spending more time focusing on and integrating this understanding for myself. Body awareness has been the most valuable tool I've found for this specific block.

What if you had a full glass of water, and drank the whole thing. It's empty right? It's also full of air.

@docs20 Sounds like you're still struggling with fear. It's the same old advice any pick-up artist would give you. Approach, approach, approach. Really, it's more than that. You must recognize your fear, and face it. When you find yourself fearful, follow through anyway. This applies to all walks of life. I think Leo has a dreamkiller episode about this, or perhaps a full video about doing the emotionally challenging thing. If you approach a girl despite the fear, your mind now knows that the fear is only that - fear. The fear is present and active while your emotions are telling you to approach. When you face this fear over and over, you gain deeper and deeper confidence in doing whatever you're doing in the face of fear.

As far as I can tell, this isn't how you deal with the root of the issue. Yes, this is cathartic, and releases the built-up anger, but it doesn't take away the source of the anger, and it builds back up again, requiring another outburst. I would go with the advice about letting go and journaling.