King Merk

You remind me so much of a younger me and the pain I put myself through... Bring some awareness to how you’re talking to yourself. You’re trying to “whip yourself into shape” by constantly critiquing yourself. You’re adding unnecessary suffering to your life. My advice? Try judging less and accepting more. Your personal wants ARE more important than serving others. That’s simple survival. Everyone feels this way. It’s the default. Not something to judge. Accept your actions and the way you are. Accept the realities around you instead of denying reality by wishing it was other than what it is. Now that’s not to say you can’t or shouldn’t provide value to others and enhance the lives of those around you. You definitely should, but you must take care of yourself before you can take care of another. It’s like the cliche airplane example of putting your face mask on first so that you’re able to help put on your child’s. Hope that helps friend.

How do you clear yourself of your own bullshit/illusions?

@Leo Gura I realize that reality as well as my sense of self are groundless. I’ve done the self inquiry to understand these “realities” on a conceptual level. However I’m struggling to embody these teachings in my day to day life. Am I doing something wrong or do I just need more self inquiry work?