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@Nickyy because i was not paying proper attention during work like i should i used to be present in office just physcally but my mind was always at his thoughts

@Nickyy i got dropped from the university twice and somhow i completed my studies an got a very good job but due to my mental health i got fired

@LastThursday you are right

@oMarcos i am trying to get over him do pray i live a happy and normal life again

i am in a battle with myself i do not love myself even when i see someone happy or in a happeir relationship i feel hell jealous whenever i see some happy couple weather she is my best freind i get jealous because i was more happeir once somehow my relationship did not worked further i am experincing really bad thoughts after this breakup i always wanted a well selleted family my husband and my kids i know its too bad to get jealous over people but i do not know why am i doing this in begning i was jealous only with my ex and his new girl but now i hate everyone who is in a healthy relation peole has starting noticing me and they keep me away from their personal matters they consider me as a evil eye it is so painful i am not this i want to get happy i just dont want anyone to hate me i want to love everyone who is happy it sounds weird but only i can feel how i Am going through this war with my own

@remember thanks dear

@Lubomir as you wish

@Lubomir well if you dont have any interest in her so dont count her in the list of the girls you have right now its just a peice of advice man treat her gentaly and she will be yours forever

@Lubomir i think you should date that girl whom you met in social events she is already broken who are also may be you both will make a good pair together and this realationship would be work

@Truth Addict healing takes time but it kills too

hello i want to share my problems to u guys that my boyfreind has cheated on me for no reasons after alot of aurguments and fights he finally gave his decision that he cannot live without me and her too she is her childhood freind and her ex too for some reasons he moved to another city and found me as her new girlfreind he never ever told me about his past he always claimed that i am his first love i fall in love deeply with him i am still loyal with him but i cannot share him he says that another girl love him too and he also love her how is it possible a man can love two at the same time he is not convinced into getting me engaged somwhere else he dont allow me to have relation with sombody else i have said him to leave her and be mine and i am yours he denied by saying "baby i cant marry you nor i can leave her" i am totally lost what the hell is happening is he trying to torture me mentally or he realy needs me

he calims that he loves me and that other girl as ways somehow he actually wanna say that stay with me and i wont let my new girl go he says he love her too as he did to me he want both she and i but how could i live with with a shared man i mean i want him to be just mine and e is not convincd into leaving both or any of two

@okulele tell me what should i do to have a normal life

everyone has a lot of problems in the lives so i do also have problems come and go but the scars and wound remain the same i dont know why it heppens whenever i try to overcome any of the problem i loose my temper and i quit i have seen hundreds of motivation videos and help of therepist it worked but not longer these all therepies and motivations and medications work for a short time period i am far away from living a normall life i have lost sleep and ability to wor i always have sucidel thoughts and harming myself i even do harm my self and realise it when i feel pain its so terrifying i want to live as other live why i am even so emotional why thoughts are always killing me i even feel jealous when i see someone in a happeir relation i lock my self in washroom and get out after crying for hours everyone is tired of my frustated behavior

@Anna1 i have blocked him many times but he knows well how to make me soft he text me when he has nothing to do or hr new girl is not avalible and he is feeling horny i know i am just getting used by him whatever his intention is i was and i am loyal with him he knows how to make me fool by kind words he do this everytime i dont know why i belive in him still