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Yes the power of now was the first spiritual thing I read in my life back in 2019

My parents are in a difficult financial situation and they’re now working really hard and it pains me so much to see them working while I lie depressed in my room Ive disconnected from all friends I don’t like my personality among many other reasons... tsk.. idk what I’ll do and spirituality is making me have second thoughts about killing myself because now I’m open to the idea of an after death state, and that it won’t be the end, it’ll likely just be a transition maybe to something worse (which adds a loooooot of existential dread on top of everything. Ugh, this weighs on my heart more than anything) I don’t know. But anyways, after death doesn’t matter. What matters is that I’m sick right now. I’m crying so much it feels like my lungs are eating yhemselves up. And when I think of my parents it makes me wanna throw up because of how ungrateful I am and when I think of the future i feel like I can’t handle iT And my sins of procrastination, isolation, arrogance, etc.. I don’t like myself going to bed now. I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow morning, I really do (fucking cheesy thing to say)

Do I have to BS myself into a purpose? Or is there an inherent purpose?

Can you invade others privacy even without their permission and openness to the experience?

Dude I’ve thought many times of moving to Europe but everyone’s so depressed it scares me

Or is it gonna make it worse? Or do I just bite the bullet and accept that it's a shot in the dark?

What are with these replies?

The no BS guide to actual prayer

Like stuff that was happening in my environment when I was in mommy's womb?

To work through the trauma more consciously now that I’m older and wiser lol

My parents have said it was stressful times. But I was wondering if I could re-experience it. I definitely experienced it because I was there, but don’t have the memories anymore

No, but I'm reading a book which has been written specifically for the problem I'm dealing with and I'm doing the assignments, so I guess I'm kinda doing therapy by myself? I don't know if that'll work, but I'm giving it a shot... But sometimes it feels very overwhelming and I feel too alone in this and I start to seriously consider suicide, but I'm also scared of that too, because who knows what that will lead to... Which makes the problem even worse. Maybe I'll try a low low low low dose, see what happens...

I don't know, it says "Psilocybe Cubensis" on it

Lol really

??? me

Since patience is a virtue, you need patience to develop patience

What do u guys think of this machine and what do you think of the guy's statement: '"It's not just some privilege for the very sick. It's a fundamental human right. If you've got the precious gift of life, you should be able to give that gift away at the time of your choosing."

Everything is real.

Cute

Because we sin all the time and pretend like it’s okay?

There will probably be some natural consequences. Like you might regret it so bad that you will have to do a lot of work to forgive yourself. But hey idk. (Btw this wouldn’t be some god punishing you, but just you kinda punishing yourself cuz omg u just killed a work of art prematurely!! Aaaaahhh) Ps: I’m kinda pulling this outta mah ass. But also some intuition is guiding my thinking here

What kind?

Everything wrong with that*

That’s a big one in this forum