marinaaniram

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  1. I dont undesrtand i notice that everything "i", my mind is trying to do throught the day is to find ways how to pleasure itself, to get satisfaction and enjoyment from anything but why?? pleasure is not survival, right? it s logical that mind urges to do things that are necessary for survival like craving food when there is strong hunger, but why it craves junkfood when there is no hunger, just to get pleasure, for what reason hope someoone can answer thanks
  2. @Vercingetorix Thank u so much! i want the playlist.....
  3. THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  4. so i got heartbroken lol and as a person who is into spirituality, i blame myself for feeling like shit like i m not completely awaken yet, but i understand that it s all a mind game, an illusion and SELFISHNESS (me being selfish) being depressed about it is just my ego constantly showing that it got hurt i really wanna reach the level when i dont care of things like that, but everytime i sit down at meditation i just burst in tears i feel SOOO STUUUPID and i dont wanna go through a regular heartbreak recovey steps when u put yourself out there to the world, meet new people, do as much activities as u can i wanna "do nothing" and reach the state of fulfillment through meditatioin seems hard though please tell me it is possible guys... thanks much love
  5. okay i get it, all we tryna do is literally just maintaining life, survive, i notice it in every move my body makes , every thought i have, everything others do and i know this feeling of becoming rigid and numb when u r on the edge of death but WHY? why do egos wanna live so bad? what s the point? why r we doing this????
  6. from the big picture there is no difference between telling lies and telling truth so why everytime i have to say some bullshit i feel so ashamed the society made it so? with their moral principals that we have been fed since childhood or is telling lies actually WRONG?
  7. @AdroseAkise right now russian elections are very falsified, there are no real opposite candidates allowed, most valuable person that was trying to run for elections against putin is locked u in prison right now but if u wanna vote ,vote for anyone but putin
  8. just wanted to share a great documentary from a great russian journalist , it is about tortures in Russia. please put on english subtitles it is about how ANY citizen whether he is an ordinary guy or trying to get into politics can be forced under tortures to agree on commiting a crime, to become unfairly convicted, unfairly injured, unfairly killed im not fully enlightened yet but i truly believe in that everything is Love and this cringes me ony because i m selfish but when u face such INJUSTICE it is soo hard to stay calm , or be truly happy after for example something like this happend to you here is the link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_2Vy9B8hic&t=9s
  9. @Daniel347 оо класс а ты и какого города? думаю правда мы тут не одни
  10. hey, i ve never tried psychodelics, but i d really like to try DMT. Unfortunately (or not) i live in Russia, so i should be VERY careful about the quality of substances that we have here... so i m wondering is there any way that people can falsify DMT (or how the bad quality DMT looks) and how to recognise it? thank u!>>>>>