Geki

Why using caffeine and L-theanine separately if you could just drink matcha? About 2g of matcha contains the amount of caffeine you are looking for. It doesn't spike like coffee because of the L-theanine and is very healthy in general. Once in a while I also use caffeine pills after I noticed how much better RedBull works on my system than coffee. I'm not as nervous as with coffee but have a very high energy boost (perfect for cleaning the whole apartment ). I make my own pills with 80mg caffeine and 1000mg taurin (RedBull formula) because I want to avoid the sugar/sweeteners. It works very well. I just bought L-theanine but to take it for calming down in general.

I didn't want to go to a specific thing like chakras or daemons. I know that it creates conflicts since it's like a religion. As I mentioned in my initial post, I know that nothing of all of it is real from an awakened point of view. But in this duality there might be things that actually exist but are hidden to the normal eye. Beside chakras there are also those stories about Atlantis and some chronicles of whatever. Until now, I've always smiled about it. But maybe I'm wrong. And that's what I want to find out. Either through the direct experience of others telling me what the know or ... I just need to find out by myself and try Ayahuasca again

That's exactly how I feel about it. Mainly because I saw so many people believing in different things without getting anywhere. It's like religions. @theleelajoker That's what I can relate to a bit more. To see it as a symbolic help, like a talisman - a personally created imagination that helps people to overcome fears or lets them feel happier. That's exactly what I mean. You for example use 'the spirit of the dead' as if they were a real thing. Real in what sense? But it made me contemplating about my question and I think I need rephrase it a little bit: Do different states of consciousness exist (like layers), where entities, chakras, nadis, angles and spirits actually exist and are tangible? Because then it could be a pursuable goal to experience them. Like traveling.

A few years ago I had my first contacts with psychedelics after watching Leo's videos for years. Especially the God realization videos caught me and I felt the urge to experience it myself. Watching the God realization video back then I really thought I got it, until I've had 5-MeO-DMT... Luckily I had a full awakening and God realization the first time taking it. Pretty much exactly as Leo describes it. I remember how I watched his videos again and laughed about myself how far I was off before my awakening. After that experience I thought everyone would have the same awakening after taking 5-MeO-DMT but I noticed it was not the case at all. So I couldn't talk to many people about it since. After that I also had a totally different view on all the spiritual helpers, DMT entities, chakras, angles, daemons and so on. For me that's all just a figment of god and I stopped caring about those. But since then I also struggle making sense of - let's say 'the dimension of realities'. Are entities/angles/chakras as (un)real as our world and do they just exist in another dimension? Or is our world the only dimension and those things are just a distraction of the ego to not awaken? Especially when people never had an awakening but have seen a lot of things with Ayahuasca, they are talking about energy and entities as if they were real. I must say I haven't had those experiences, so maybe that's why I can't 'believe' in it. So, the stupid question that's stuck in my mind is: Should I better believe and work with chakras, spiritual helpers, etc. since it's within the dream or reject all of it like a scientist and say that's all hallucination and bullshit? - To name the two extremes...

She already did some work on her past, but in my opinion a very bad and even destructive one. She is very religious and there are groups where they "heal" wounds from the past. After I've heard how they do it and who, I noticed that there are only other very religious people with no psychological background considering themself as "healers". What they do is, they dig very deep in people's past, bring it to the light and then they don't know how to do the actual work to release the pain. They just pray and that's it. She would never go to a normal therapist, since she believes that she can only be healed in the church. Even if I can't see any improvent after she went 4 times to these week long sessions... Whatever. I agree, there is no way to make the situation better from my side. I started personal development years ago and changed a lot. So yes, I can only act as a living example. Thank you both!

Thanks for your reply! I really appreciate your thoughts. That's actually what my siblings do and for them it seems the right option even if they wish to have it differently. My mother wanted to talk about this topic today, I explained what we all feel, when getting those advices or (in our opinion) negative comments. After that talk she said she now understands and seemed to have in insight, but since it wasn't the first discussion I think it's temporary. I guess I have to accept the fact that in her world it's necessary to protect someone else from doing a 'mistake' by telling him/her the 'right' way. So that giving an advice is a completely positive thing for her.

Hi there I would like to discuss a problem I have for a long time, especially since I do self improvement work. Years before I always tolerated when someone behaved negatively and I was the one who apologized or calmed down just to avoid the conflict, even if I couldn't accept this behavior towards me. Now I just had a new situation with my mother. The background is: She had a bad childhood and I guess because of her own problems and very little help from her parents she became a control freak. I have 4 siblings and my dad had to work hard so there was a lot of work for her. She did well though, because we all studied, have good jobs and good relationships/marriages. Now that we all left home no one really calls her anymore. I asked around why is that because the only reason the whole family doesn't want to meet so often is my mother. It turned out that everyone hates that she only gives advises (or in other word how we do it wrong) and she only talks about problems, how hard her past was, what's wrong with today's people, how my sister and brother raise their children in a wrong way (she would do it differently) and so on. When we tell her we don't want to hear all that she feels totally offended and falls into a deep victim behavior and says things (while crying) like "All I do is wrong", "It's always my fault", "Everyone is against me"... My problem is that I have no idea how to deal with people like this in general. After they fell into their victim pattern, they don't listen anymore and they want to put the blame on someone else (mostly the "attacker"). Years ago I just tolerated this bad behavior to get the peace back. But now I don't feel like I have to accept it anymore. I feel more like I'm allowed to say how I don't want to be treated. I really would like to have a more positive relationship with her. Also because it would bring the family closer together. I'm ready to change my own behavior if it will help - I just don't know in which direction. I hope you can help me finding a way.