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@markBITW i think the graphic needs some workover, logos = brahman is not really it. although void = brahman could be right but it could also be if logos= void=shiva so it is more complex than this. if it is not about a comparison but about threshholds the graphic is also not enough as brahman is not brahma and logos is not sign/symbol. alone if you try to set that right, you probably learn to bend the spoon.

yes, of course, i get what you are referring to - it is of course a little far fetched and of course mental illnesses are a standing for themselves but at least you can`t deny that you changed your diet, and started to at least look into it. we are also not talking about episodes, i got that. what i was refering to, is that in some cases diet still plays a roll not only in curing diseases but also in understanding the body holistically. diet can be a step towards green for open minded people, it doesn`t have to. and of course diet is only a part of the story, and of course i`m talking european non standard green. everyone who didn`t go raw vegan for a time didn`t really test the whole field of possibilities in my perception though - every illness needs a specific diet to support the body healing some even need fasting, it`s to easy to just shove a possible success aside. diet oftentimes is just a system support but it`s about seeing it part of the medical system to take it serious.

if you are in a state where you are still balancing your sattva , a person touching you might be a disturbance of your emotional body of feeling untouchable. you then realize you are not, what brings your emotional body in an uproar, the ego feels threatened and tries to transfer that to the energy of the other person for being so unawarely interfering as it is a call for attendance. it might be that it is not even a lower energy of the other person it is just that you realize someone overstepped your boundary of sattva you get discentered while the focus goes towards the emotion of disturbance. you can probably train that by then focusing on the other person as yourself or you try to find your center like you did. it is not a guided energy transference, could be that you are then vibrating negative energy towards the other as a projection, or that you let negative energy arise in yourself letting you swing in an unsattvic vibration. if you are sattvic and able to understand that energy transfer is more complex and not always direct through body contact you might find your center faster. i`ve experienced something like that once while i was sick and discentered, alone a person entering my magnetic field or aura field could make me throw up, was a lasting experience and i thought for a long time it was direct energy transferal. notice, the intention is not always synchronistic with the move, it`s about your own stability and any other energy field interfering with you. even if it is you who was touching.

@Cameron feeling as a female did you ever try living as one? just for a day? i mean do you feel you also want to dress like a woman or is it just that you feel both aspects in you, have no conflict with your outer appearence but a strong feminine vibe and feel more home chatting with women and being loved by men or are you in that sense lesbian? i met some really beautiful transgender women and i don`t think it`s unconscious to feel your female aspect as you say yourself you just have to find a form in which you can live that side of yourself, meaning also to find the right community where you are accepted the way you are without constantly having to think it over or run against walls. maybe a community where you can experiment and play with that aspect of yourself and get supported by, and at one point have a coming out on your femininity. maybe even with a second name. there is only unawareness on who you really are untill you discover who you really are. you can even develope it into an artform or just live it out in a relationship. although if you want to go that path you might have to change some aspects in your life, it`s probably more difficult to live this at some places on the world than at others, but if it is important to you go on a journey to yourself! there are some cultures where femininity in men are more accepted than western culture, usually it´s the spiritual aspect of it aswell - so no, unconscious would be the denial about it.

@Bill W there are more options for protein intake than meat or dairy... i know some people who fought their illnesses aslo cancer with high energy foods very successfully. if it was only about proteins life would be easy. also i wonder why he is more important than his wife.

@MAYA EL well it was more about a spiral dynamic thing, it`s interesting how family dynamics and illnesses correlate. i don`t want to say that in general food has something to do with mental illnesses but there are some hints that we need some fresh power foods to coap with stress, every holistic medical system works with diets as you can`t work with phyto medicine or with any kind of wholistic psychosomatic therapy without even considering food as medicine because if you clog your body with the wrong fats and make it overwork itself with low energy food that also might be pumped up by chemistry and contributes to more stress due to inflammation there won`t be a big success. did you ever try a a strictly plant based diet during a time where your mental health was affected? so how can you say if the diet would have changed it? maybe you would have recovered quicker with some high energy plant based foods giving the body the chance to clean itself. what was more interesting in this family constellation (and it`s really not about gossiping, i hope they will find a way to overcome the situation) was that cancer is an illness where most people start to look into foods more closely as it is about life and death litterally and usually then people start to realize how everything somehow plays together. cancer diet is even more important than any other diet as the body needs to starve out the cancer and fight it at the same time and needs a lot of energy to still coap with what`s weakening it. i just can imagine that a set back in life can make people overthink their whole understanding of life if they are open enough to see that they are barefeet. of course now he has to first treat the addiction before he can treat the stress problem, but of course if people are in denial about the complexicity of the body, (not saying that i am not in denial in some health aspects) they won`t find out about how everything we put inside of us contributes to our overall condition, for better or worse. if we stand at the boarder of a cliff we might try to change it - it`s about chances to see the world with different eyes and realize where we might have not have the better information before. it`s about insights into a more complex world beyond what we where aware of when everything seemed to be going well. every crisis usually changes people for better or worse.

actually i know some really decent girls who went solo over years because there where no halfway decent guys around. it`s a more silent movement. but usually a decent girl who has some need left to find a partner who developed the same decency is still more interested in working herself out of the dilemma than most ostrich guys. that sometimes love hits one with the wrong guy is maybe because there are not enough decent guys, and then you take what`s available...in some sense you have to be market ready to be "chosen" on both sides - for women it might be more easy to be themselfs as we learn to be market ready much eralier than guys are. that`s a harsh reality, but it`s somehow an undertone of truth. so now it`s maybe about undertsanding what decency means, to understand the dilemma also hits girls quite often, it`s difficult to be compassionate or pittying about something we have to coap with through group pressure since maybe kindergarden. and in some sense it`s like guys already shared the power game amongst themselfs - girls just try to at least controll the love game. we have to play to male rules most of the time, why choosing a partner who doesn`t even try to have some self esteem? it would tear us down, it`s difficult to exchange emotional stuff for rational stuff alone, as the currency of love is emotion. and women need selfesteem to make it in the powergame much more than guys do, now you can maybe understand that it`s not different in the love game, although it`s another kind of selfesteem as it`s not about batteling or fighting each other but about surrendering to each other and we usually surrender to people our equal. (what means people who don`t put themselfs down, too much or elevate themselfs above us too much - it`s even more weird if they do both) so developing some selfesteem and working on oneself is crucial, girls do it, too. it`s not different, we just don`t talk about it so much with guys as it is taken as a given. it`s a problem that a lot of guys are not attending that kind of school, because it`s girls school, well: yes, that`s exactly the problem of the whole science.

can you stop running? let the devil come so close that you can even feel it`s breath and then push the dagger in your own heart, let it crush open and bleed? running away is probably not the way of finding out about it.

nothing to transcend if not fully awoken to it resistence is good it shows you that you have to walk another path outgrowing the rational mind and growing into what it means to understand irrational rationality.

@CreamCat do you think the whole family has a chance to move into green? that would be really interesting could be some kind of tipping point.

@CreamCat interesting, do you think there is a relationship with cutting out on plants and not enough phyto energy to coap with overexcessive stress or do you see it more caused by the biochemistry of high meat consumption in sense of hormon production, body inflammation etc.? even though it´s maybe a little off topic but the connections are interesting. although maybe it`s more about the direct pressure of the situation - to heal food might be relevant. also especially cancer patients need a lot of veggies like brokkoli to heal. in situations like that whole worldviews can tumble and change.

@LoveandPurpose you are twenty, so do you think you really need to be in such a hurry? by the way for women sometimes the face is more important than the rest of the body, because the face mirrors their emotions - if a girl finds a guy with a face that`s not commonly seen as "pretty" she might still find his face really pretty as it is the face of the loved one - if you have problems with that maybe you still coap about what others might think of you - if it`s that you should do her the favour of letting her go at some point. but if you really love her, i can`t see why you can`t start to see her face as absolutely unique. if you can not, never tell her or let her know through your actions it would break her heart. there are always more pretty guys and girls around you, even if you find a super pretty one you will find others who seem more pretty. if you break it of because of that don`t mess up her personality! remind yourself that even a pretty face can become ugly if the personality is ugly.

@bejapuskas only if you don`t induce fear - if fear arises you can teach them about letting go of that fear or how to maybe face it in a soft way. if you overdo it you are only inducing fear that might be not there in the first place. there is a lot of fear that will come up during the process of growing up already, i wouldn`t overstretch their learning ability by teaching them fear. there are a lot of other methods to teach them a healthy relationship to their surrounding, explanations about dynamics can help if they ask questions. there are a lot of great children books that have fear as content to solve fear in a creative way. children live in a magical world, they need to coap with reality, their fears are often of purple nature. i would not experiment on it heavily as they could also develop trauma if you do it on an existential level especially if you are a parent better coap with your own fears first, they learn more by you being a good example.

@Vido in some sense you need to look at both to see what really is light, awakening to what you think is reality might be part of the matrix as well so if you choose one side you can`t move in the matrix. it`s far more important to know how a spoon bends than to choose the right pill as you can only discern which is the way out by knowing which one is the way out.

just a question to get closer to the problem. i know that feeling in a less intense form and somehow it disappeared over time, so i`m interested in how it is about seeing yourself in the mirror, what does it feel like? any strange experiences with looking into the mirror? it`s a question about your relationship to yourself. maybe you can start to observe your emotions and voices by looking into the mirror, staring is not the right way to start - maybe on an advanced level...because that might even knock you out. so be careful to not get to emersed in the dialog with yourself, just observe it. how does looking into a mirror usually take place? also notice every positive feeling that arises! (another question is if you smoke weed?)

no red pills? understand the matrix first before you take a pill, if you don`t you might wake up on the wrong side, as you don`t know, the colours might have changed.

@orpheos it`s in a sense sad that he isn`t able to teach you as he introduced you to sexuality and expects you to be experienced obviously more than him as someone who probably has more experience than you have. it almost never works out with the first guy, so take it as a chance to experiment on him what you think would turn you on - if it doesn`t work with him you can give the same compliment back to him and find someone who is a better teacher. maybe you can even teach him to be - but be careful could be that he won`t like that kind of truth. he is maybe the one who is insecure as he expects you to give better feedback to what he is doing.ask him to guide your hands or try to change position first, it`s a good starting point. it`s not only about him, it`s also about what you would like. if you don`t like cucumber you can put that on your face with a smile. you start with what you feel comfortable doing, just get actively exploring.

@Truth Addict if you zoom in there is only a commata which devides, there is no zero. but then you didn`s say in what direction and zero is a point in infinity you have to define first. but it is beyond definition and above it at the same time.

@Templesign that`s exactly the same, it`s also F.R.A.T but with avoidance in the relaxation part. i wonder if discipline could help in that aspect, too...or at least a lot of people then start to work against that feeling by trying to work on their physiognomy, sometimes overexeccively, to get positive feedback first... but in general it`s a tension problem, doesn`t matter how it was inflicted, by others who polished their egos or if it is about self critique and underestimation of the own potential it`s self fulfilling prophesy.

recently i discovered a method in a book that explains a simple method on how to get a lot of things done by a method called D.R.A.T what means discipline, relaxation, attention, transformation. watching the last video i found out why the letting go of fear method doesn`t work for me. as i am in denial/avoidance of blue structures, what means i try to avoid structures that are stiff, normative, rigid, bureaucratic, over regulating and dogmatic. so in a sense i am in denial and avoidance of fear as these structures work or are installed to regulate basic fears. so in a sense i can`t work with the fear method what has some parallels to that method in how it works, let`s call it F.R.A.T fear, relaxation, attention, transformation because i`m in avoidance of blue discipline. somehow i wonder if it is a fear of using fear to solve problems as i`m not in fear of the basic survival stuff, so i`m more in lack of fear than having too much of it. so i was wondering if there are other methods to attain discipline instead of fear to then work with F.R.A.T on discipline. it`s really a little bit upside down. life purpose is not enough to overcome it, creativity is not fast enough to overcome it, fear seems to be a good regulator for discipline. also working with applying fear to what i am in denial about doesn`t really work because the avoidance/fear of discipline is bigger than the avoidance/fear of the survival issue. in that sense what to do if we already have let go of fear, through relaxation about it without being more attentive about it when the A in F.R.A.T becomes avoidance instead of attention? just realized, it`s a R.R.A.T problem or maybe an A.R.A.T problem (attention, relaxation, avoidance, transformation) even C.R.A.T (confrontation, relaxation, attention, transformation) is not enough to get to the root of the problem.

@bmcnicho should be a sign for you, beware of all the projections of toxic relationships in this thread. it’s in a sense interesting of how all the scapegoating works, should show where toxicity in relationships sometimes is completely pushed towards one of both parts. if you have a connection to her and feel attracted to her, maybe it’s a sign that exactly there is an issue you can grow on and work on yourself or you let it play out toxic, denying your denial in the end. i‘d trust in my belly feeling, if you can not handle it you will probably withdraw anyways if you don’t the alarm bells should at least ring afterwards. but to drop it because some guys who walk around with an alarm bell on their heads tell you, would be the fast easy and scapegoating way. will not grow you on your emotions - i‘d figure out what it really is that draws you to her and if it works with you both or not - if it doesn’t fit, of course, why invest energy?

@whoareyou yes, everything is an illusion and it is also not. the question is what you are channeling? you are channeling alone by talking to me, i am an illusion, too. you don’t know if i speak from ego and what entity i am channeling as i only speak to you. maybe i channel a little bit of spiral dynamics, too. what i‘m referring to is that without trying to understand it intellectually you also get lost in the ego game. there is a possibility to channel oneself into madness, and also to channel others into madness, too. so i believe i understand what you are talking about. but i also see how channeling is a technique to understand ones relationship to existence and also to what is seen by many people as madness and irrationality in a more healthy way. channeling is something that exists for a reason. understanding what is speaking in us and others besides our egos and egos shadow demands an understanding of the mechanisms of how channeling works, which is not possible without going into it deeper and exploring it in a sense. a radio sender can play good or shitty music. irrationality is onesided when there is absolutely no experience of rationality to it. rationality about it is onesided if there is no irrationality to it. a sender can only channel what it percived in the first place.

@whoareyou whatever a person is channeling it is an entity aspect of consciousness or the sublime and probably has some ego to it. of course the ego can come in through the backdoor of course entities use ego and sometimes ego uses entities. that’s why every „channeling“ is something that needs preparation and also needs to be worked on afterwards. channeling is not just for amateurs. it’s something shamans did for centuries and the hows are not just learned through a onetime experience.

most of the time i would say morals can be healthy, but what will you do if someone breaks your morals? i would rather work on a code of conduct than on morals although there is not much separation between them - morals have a blue note to them. if you internalize them and understand them though as understanding deeply why they where formulated by others like they are and also are able to see deeply into double standards in morals, you will also grow on a code of conduct, it will sometimes be really tough because it`s like willingly not doing even though an opportunity might show to act outside of your code. of course all of this can be misinterpreted and lead you towards the wrong direction, as there is not really a direction. but there is a psychopathology called the dark triad, even though dark triad sounds cool it`s probably about the unleashed uncontrolled toxic dark triad with no code of moral conduct or one that is extremely twisted, but there is also a triangle called the light triad, and even though it is also only an orientation point, you maybe can find some truth in it. at some point you will transcend your code of conduct with life. just saying as some people might really struggle with dark triad problems...even though most people are somewhere inbetween or somewhere further up. be aware that it might be difficult to konfront a machiavellianist with faith in humanity alone, what`s more important is the humanistic and kantianianistic perspective. there are other posibilities like reading the manual of the warrior of light, of paulo cohello, i always liked his code.

probably it depends also a little on the content, but we already can see the effects in children who where too much confronted with tv`s in early age, it robs children a little bit of their own phantasy, can also lead to adhd and will mess up their future metaphysics if it is not balanced with more pedagogic age relevant analog games and selfexploration of their sourrounding world. even the reaction of somehow changing your mind as it is convenient for the parents and convenient for the people in a train is the same mechanism. maybe you can see how they don`t have to tend to the real needs of the child for solving conflicts and how this builds up a low frustration tolerance, it`s the same as feeding suggar or worse other drugs to them feeding the little ego that at one point will be a grown up ego, fast success but longterm effects. there was a time when children in the age of two where using a binky to calm their nerves. two is to early, i would try to keep it hidden as long as possible, it`s enough if they start at the age of five. if you once started, it`s over - like with chocolate or icecream. i know it`s tougher for the parents on the first impression. but i wouldn`t experiment with the psyche of my child in such a way, with all we already know if we just read a little bit about early child development. and seeing how people here in the forum struggling with gaming addiction, they want to get rid of.