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we are more then dogs, stop crossing our boundaries mfer

Anyone else is also experiencing kind of more Ego presence after goin through a lot of spiritual work, seems like it is easier to see through status games and human bs, so I see through it and don‘t wanna deal with it. i would have expected that I judge less but seems like I am more sensitive and judgemental ?

honestly, I have the feeling that might be true, because they are so selfish that it goes full circle @Leo Gura is becoming also from a external view more selfish and totally ego based. so is being a reckless asshole the new enlightenment? Can we agree on that?

thanks for your input.. I would consider myself also as extremely kind and not bad intended to others at all. I am aware that people tend to realize that in a few seconds and cross my boundaries as they sense that I would not fight back. So I tend to say nothing and act like I am ignoring it until they repeat it several times and then I rage until the point where I would be even fine to attack them physically. Most of them time, after me raging they understand what's up and stop bothering me further. I don't think it's that efficient tho, it takes a lot of energy. It's just I don't wanna go around and be paranoid, that at any second some one could cross my boundaries, it leads to a paranoid life. I wanna enjoy the time spending with others, and spread joy. We have enough suffering in this world.. Thanks for the recommendations of the book. I bought it, turns out I am german, so I can read it Which you all the best and encounters with humans who understand your boundaries and treat you in a gentle manner.

can you ask them if they can come to me and take me away from this insane humans? ;p

Yeah in order to be a proper actor, one needs to be relaxed and confident in himself: which is the same like being actualized or healed. Getting rid of tension and fear.

Damn, I did that too, a lot, also an actor here. It was basically personal growth so that‘s how I got started with spirituality, by studying acting

Are there always emotional sensations tho?

Yeah not that far in my journey to see the one in everything, still lost in seperations. that‘s why I feel suffering caused by „others“ and feel the need to protect myself or act in a certain way maybe it‘s time for 5meo? Haha ?

Right now, when I meditate I switch between listening to outter sounds, being aware of the sensations touching my body and sometimes focusing on my breath. i guess focusing on my breath would be the inner sensory experience?

I don‘t even wanna bother anymore. In the beginning I tried, now I realize it was another ego play to share with everyone all these healing techniques - nobody cares ? and honestly I have still so much work to do on my own.

Can‘t find the one the YT video was about: strengthening the ego meditation. Any idea where to find that?

I did a lot, not with my actual family, someone else pretended to be „the“ famiily member. My own family is so far away from doin therapy it would be impossible to do it with them. If I talk about them just a bit about this kind of topic they will ignore me and just play further their role. however the sessions I did were extremely powerful, so it is a good choice!

This was gold. That‘s exactly what‘s happening. I loose my grounding when I meet with others. I am also pretty empathic, so I would hide my self in order to make the other feel good. I didn‘t get the special meditation instructions, can u share me more of it?

I did a lot of weed, mushrooms, lsd and san pedro. however when I have done full doses, I tend to get very angry, I was born as the youngest child in my family and even tho I got a lot of love, people tend to make fun of me and push my boundaries all the time. I guess you guys are right, it‘s shadow work. I try to face it as it is, i am just too tense and paranoid on human interaction. So even if they make a small joke on my cost I got very angry or I say anything and deep down it breakes my heart. Any advice how to deal with people while my shadow work is so present?

It‘s just being nice to others means I am also more nice to myself, there was a time before „awakening“ were I would approach others with humour and joy, nowadays I have the feeling it makes me vulnerable so I am closed first until I gain trust. That makes life less playful. Tell me why was it created in the first place? I am financially independent and travelling since a few years. I can be anywhere. Why would I bother to spend time with low conscious being where there is a high possibility that they casually hurt me cause they are destructive? How to draw the line between experience growth by facing conflicts versus surrounding myself with positive people? Yeah it is part of the process for 7 years now, people would consider me way nicer and comfortist back then. I am wondering If I keep pushing through it? Will it go full circle and I stop judging and be naturally careless and playful again?

-No one is suffering, bad things that you see are within God and are constructed for you to experience what is within God, but God is so infinitely intelligent that it would never let itself suffer. It only provides balances within this movie, so you will feel immersed. @Leo Gura can you validate the statement above? or anyone else who got some deep insights.

I am doin this lifestyle since 2018 , traveling and working remote. Lately I am going all in on Youtube and I need a camera / video editor , DM me if you would be interested. otherwise: yeah find a remote job

Interesting one, My kambo experiences were also strong and made me always more conscious and able to focus well but this sounds indeed way stronger. When did you do it and for how long are the effects lasting?

I am an IT Guy, and It‘s possible to fine tune chatGPT, I could grab all your videos, all your forum posts and feed him with it. So his responses were pretty similiar to yours. Would be interesting to see how accurate it would be. Should we try to build it?

that‘s all it takes to be the top G ?

I am sure they both have the same view on reality

It is already regulated and not open, microsoft is owning it basically and it‘s biased towards left: great video about it:

I already senses lots of bs from that guy but after watching this following video I have 0 respect for hin. He is proudly describing how he scammed millions of dollars. That this kind of guy is the male rolemodel nowadays tells a lot about our society and that means for more conscious men a hell of work the tricky thing is tho: my videos which are love based are not that attractive to the kidz, you can reach them with bs.. thats the video I was talkina about :

Check retreat.guru