Nemo28

Hello! I just wanted to share something i notice in myself durring these past months and see how that fits into "spiritual " work. So like 5 months ago i did ayahuasca and gradually since then i feel less and less need for people, socializing, friends or any type of social interaction, its goten to the point where i would be fine spending all my life by myself. I dont have social anxiety (not anymore at least) or anything like that, i just dont see any point or desire to verbally communicate with anyone. It feels like waste of my energy. I could just sit in silence and feel good. I wonder if this behaviour is healthy or should i force myself to engage with people more, what do you think? Currently im not working (due to favorable finacial situation) and engaging full time absorbed in arts, since thats the only thing i feel passionate about.

Why do you need new Watts? I can never get enough of him, he is just infinitly entertaining and everytime i listen to him i hear something new again..its quite amazing actually.

I wonder how one would know if he/her is brainwashed..what are the signs? But i have to say there is in me willingness to accept everything he says as absolute Truth, cause it makes sense to me Could I be brainwashed i wonder hmm

Thank you all 4 replies! 1000 blessings to you all ^^

@Dumuzzi Well the thing is i dont want to force myself if not required by external forces, I better like the surrender path, if people come in my way i engage but i would not seek them in order to fill someting in me which i lack. I dont want to appear fake when talking with people, and obviousy that would show if im doing it as obligation rather than genuine desire. But now that I think i actually avoid interactions, since it requires me to be vonurable, which i cant allow..so maybe this solitude is just protective mechanism hmm but either way i dont mind to suffer through this solitude I even enjoy it lol

@VeganAwake My mind struggles to understand why "This" is said to be unknowable. Is he reffering to the fact that we are inside This thus we can not know It? (cause then we would need to be separate (which we are not..))

@VeganAwake thanks again for posting this video!

@VeganAwake Thanks!

I often wonder what is the reason of my disatifaction with "This".. Its like somehow disappointing ..

Thank You/Me <3

@Fede83 is this love you feel an emotion? How would you describe it?

@XYZ I wonder if this is how death feels like..

This morning I had OBE. It happened around 4am, remeber I couldn't fall asleep that night/morning cause i was a bit depressed. Its first time this happens to me. I literaly felt my Soul! What was percieved was beautiful, crisp light, fast vibrations of my whole being with sounds ( not vocal) and feeling of lightness, freedom and surrender that felt amazing, but for some reason i fell back (and went into dreaming mode where i exited body within dream, which is not the same thing) This was the most amazing experience ever, even if it lasted few seconds.. My experience with psychadelics cant compare to this feeling.. Was thinking maybe some other people experienced something similar and could share

@Mondsee Hmm you said it happened yesterday in the morning around 4 am? Weird thing is I experienced Something similar at that exact time. Remeber it was also 4 pm when i woke up, not long after that I felt pull from my chest that pushed me up, which was accompanied by Light, buzzing sound, Vibrations and I just felt like surrendering and was pushed more and more up untill i collapsed back to my body and started dreaming... I find it fascinating it happened around same time

@Charlotte yeah but that mind always dissatisfied and I'm being pulled into it, and feel confused all the time of who am I.. It's maddening

@erik8lrl ok thanks, thats all i need to hear

sometimes its rather disatisfying ..

@erik8lrlehh maybe someday will understand.. But thanks for loving me ^^

@erik8lrl Is this Love emotion or?

@erik8lrl But do you love me..? I still am unable to really feel that love everyone talks about ..

Again and again I flip between being lost in thoughts and coming back to awareness, just recently thanks to @Nahm by him asking me the right questions I came to clarity of recognizing with certainty the distinction between thoughts and "witnessing" now I remain as awareness (although occasionally drifting in thoughts). Staying as awareness feels so great, indeed everything feels fresh, the experience of life feels renewed (although I still feel I can go much deeper..I'm only scratching the surface as Leo says..) now I wonder how could I ever overlook this present moment, how could I be so lost in thoughts rejecting this very moment, this life, this feeling, this being.. Truly nothing is lacking, it's all perfect, I'm so blessed!

seems the interpretator is fiction

are you not intelligent? Are you not the result of randomness? And evolution theory doesnt really explain anything, it describes the happenings, where it all come no one knows.

Is there an alternative scientific explanation?

Yes, no separation, direct experiencing by the awareness. How many? Just one..