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haha i look forward to that

Yup, in few weeks i will go to ayahuasca ceremony, there i intend to surronder totally, i expect to die even, and im scared a bit..

Honestly i feel like there is no need to get rid of this arrogance, its okay to be arrogant, if you fight it it only grows stronger, the best thing is to hold it in your hands like little baby ^^

Yup, thats why i made this topic, to put it out there, externalize it. I know this, but me trying to be not special will only enforce my specialness. So i will just observe what is, whateve form that takes.

I have very low dietary requirements

Well im never identified with the content of the mind ^^

Well i do feel for them, but there is this apsect in me which is jelous and wants to be above, im not identified with those feelings, im just observing what happens within me. I am happy that people become more free generally speaking but there is this pach of dirt that is hating. Im mixed, possesing both the good and bad. I think thats true of many of us, maybe some are not aware of their dirtyness and decieve them that they only consist of rainbows and sunshines. I am selfish son of a bitch but also very kind and compasionate.

@Javfly33 Die to the flesh and be reborn of the Spirit

@Meta-Man Yeah, im just observing this ^^

So in few weeks im going to do another ayahuasca ceremony. Last time i felt i didnt go to that place of awesomeness, cause i was afraid i might loose my centre, consciousness, sense of self whatever you call it and will not be able to come back to life, so im wondering if its possible to really die doing ayahuasca?

@WHO IS yes In these altered states i feel i could but choose not to cause im attached to this particular mode of living. Well it possibily is controled by the super conscious me, the little me cant take it, its too scary

Okay, i finally have to say it. In one of my ayahuasca trips it was revelad to me with complete clarity that this life is nothing than amazing dream. I could have any dream I wanted, i could be rich man, a king, famous person all that, yet i choose to be this little Me, pretending to seek something, having all these worries and overcoming silly chalenges, having nothing to his name yet possesing fine physical beauty . It was also reveled that everything i could think is not "That", so basically we are here engage in totally useless activity, yet somehow beautiful expresion percieved by the dreamer. Everything you say here is lie! It is not true! All of the "serious" things we are discussing here are coming straight out of donkey asshole, all made up that have no ground on which they rest, no solid foundation. I wish i could just be done with all this, yet im here most of the time reading all the nonsense and getting hoked by the "high consciousness" stuff. God damn it, its all a dream! I was shown this and my whole body went into trembling and awe, such bliss to know this. Yet i still cant believe this, as im wrting now. But back then it was so clear and much more real than any of this. All i have is memory now..

I have something like that. One sentence written of what i want, maybe will add someting more.

yeah i cant help it..

@Preetom lets just share a moment of silence ^^

@wesyasz end of discussion

Would more consciousness lead you to become vegan?

When i did ayahuasca i had similar realizations to what this "Bashar" is speaking. Parcticulary about me creating realities that are in accordance with my state of consciousness, if i choose to be selfish then i create reality where everyone are selfish, if i want this world to be utopia i need to be selfless and more loving. There is really no way of knowing .. but it makes sense actually, the source from which things manifest are unknown, so its not too hard to imagine that my intention is what affects the ceation of next moment.

@dimitri ^^

I can forgive them, im not all white myself.. I just bought a milk, want to see how i feel drinkin it (since i really like milk), maybe im more aligned not cutting milk products out, maybe i will limit my consumption ..ahh forgive me cows! :<

Well i can only say that cause im not in the slaughter house, not sure if i could see the perfection if my body would go through a shreder. But i guess thats my human self is talking, i want to survive after all.

I can actually see now what you mean by "doing what feels good". Naturally if you are intune, aligned withy ourself you would seek to minimize disharmonious behavior which would create suffering for others, since you would feel bad yourself.

Dude, its way worse, there is alive chicken shreding machine..they put bunch of male chicks on the line and trow them into blades, how fucked up is that!

@Serotoninluv I see. But do you think its okay that there are such cruel animal industry? I feel like this needs to change, we can not keep this insanity going. How do you make people more sensitive to such issues? I also dont want to judge anyone and be the anoying person. Or maybe i just focus on myself and leave the world take care of itself?