Flatworld Crusades

I assume you are talking about "male ego". So arrogant, overt macho behaviour?

Easy for me, I can just smile and keep quite. I'm no ones teacher or moderator

Ditto. Totally destroyed my life.

Lust for sex lust for life words are just letters on the screen, it's the meaning we attach to those words that bring forth emotion. Your experience with it is interesting me to as I'm almost polar opposite. No neediness just freedom to express myself sexually.

I see an answer here for me over sanity etc, is that it's an individual's interpretation of the situation, and to be flexible around my understanding of the message.

I agree with this. I think stretching the boundaries of our realities, or opening areas of our mind not experienced before, like being high on drugs, still are encompassed as normal or sane. I can identify with being trapped in an insane reality. It's one that the law defines as legally incompetent. So I think a lot of what I have read here are personal interpretations.

i appreciate your position

I'm more of a general spiritualist

@abrakamowse video was great

I'd personally disagree, and the school of thought I'm from also disagrees. I appreciate your comments and wonder does this reflect the teaching of spiral dynamics or other teaching you all prescribe too ?

Hi. Are you wanting to engage in an intellectual conversation or are you having problems?

Well said. I agree shes manipulating you. One day she texting her ex in front of you to make you jealous,. The next day she is playing house with you again . She's screwing with your mind.

I don think lust is negative. It's really just intense desire

Which part of what? The lie, or myself?

Nothing like lying to yourself to explain having lied to yourself.

Super desperate!! im thinking I'm like one of the Universes golden children right now. I'm getting a leg up over a whole bunch of stuff. I reckon I've got some brownie points for having to suffer psychosis. Which, as you know, we are complete victims of. Yep, I'm sitting in the front of class

Hahaha. LMFAO

I've had some too, nothing would get me back to that place so you must have been desperate. i sat on my couch, total shock, then I thought " well no ones, so I won't tell anyone and I'll hide it from the Uinivese" . "Will I loose all my gold stars cause I've been a big fat phoney?"

Same here, I could not believe that I just couldn't see my prejudices. I was so shocked that I was ready to go back to the beginning

Completely agree. I went through this myself until the Universe gave me a kick and told me to sort it out. I think it's one of the hardest belief systems to shake because you desperately want to be special.

I wouldn't beat yourself up over this, you would be surprised how many spiritualist have gone through this wanting to be better, or are still stuck there. There is a lot of superior attitudes on every forum I've ever been on including this one.

Actually that is not what you said in your first post. To treat something badly then expecting it to give you what you want is either irrational or abusive

If you have lived in a somewhat toxic environment most of your life, I'd guess your self esteem is pretty shaky. I think a qualified therapist should be able to discover the origin of your anxiety. Can you get to a general doctor soon to ask for medication and therapy help?

To be clear, you are stating that exhausting and torturing your rational mind is a positive thing to do?

You don't say what the actual pattern is. While you state it's about romantic love experiences you've never even had, you don't say why. Is this about specifically not being good looking enough Personality not good enough communication poor too shy Did someone in your past make you feel worthless Was your parents relationship dysfunctional there will be a reason behind the pattern. What specifically do you mean by "working on yourself ,