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Good idea. The only problem would be that one dipshit who recognizes that no-one knows if this annual day is actually occuring today.

I don't know. Propably some crazy meta-shit happens and I'm still right here, playing games, only actually not here playing anything for eternity. Maybe we should ask @Leo Gura what he thinks.

Nothing I wrote here contradicts what you said. The point of my post was to remind that one can choose their games.

As of right now, a game of slowly recognizing how much it's about creation and playing imaginary games.

@nuwu You are playing a shit game. No one would consciously choose that. That is the delusion. Not the emotions and connections.

You can ALWAYS stop playing games such as: - Validation - Loneliness - Being right or wrong - Heaven and hell - Reincarnation - 'Soul contracts' - Life being a school or a test - Reptilian overlords - Past and future - Spiral Dynamics - Chakras - Being a human being inhabitating planet Earth - Science - Being a man - Being a woman TRUTH EXISTS BEYOND THE GAMES

Hahaha this is literally so far off from what 'Murica should be about as possible. For fuck's sake, even I learned at school that one of the main 'freedoms' of the US is that of church being separate from government. And I'm not even american.

What if Truth is not some object, a thing outside you can find or attain? I have been struggling with this idea of Truth, not knowing what is true, not knowing if I want it, being afraid of it. But the weirdest thing is that actual Truth seems to be very different. When I accept that I don't know, when I accept that maybe I don't even want it... This is when I feel Truth breathing all around, in every cell of my body. One can not 'seek for' or 'find' or basically be apart of Truth in any way. This is so weird... Always thought that truth is this hidden gem for those who have the bravery, for those 'true seekers'. But it really just seems to be about how much truth one wants, how much one lets it shine. Basically truth is not something one finds, but what one bes.

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This is so stupid that it is turning my mind inside out. Almost like a koan. Good practice.

Josh Mandel: Freedom OF religion, not freedom from religion. Also Josh Mandel:

I'm no enlightened master but I have some exprience. The duality collapses on "both sides", or actually nothing collapses, because "us" is already one. Everyone is already enlightened and One. What you refer to as "other" is just a mask. The mask itself does not act differently, because that would negate the meaning / function of the mask. Beyond the masks, there is an infinite telepathical orgy party happening. Masks may fight, disagree and even kill each other, but deep inside we are all orgasming inside each other at all times.

I'd like to hear what you guys think of Jed McKenna. I've read the first book of the Enlightenment Trilogy, and the Theory of Everything. He is without a doubt one of the most direct awakening teachers out there. There is this certain clarity and 'crispness' in his books that is really nowhere to be seen with most spiritual teachers. He doesn't seem to talk about Love tho. Why do you think this is? Is he not awake to this 'side' of Absolute Truth, or is he consciously hiding it in case someone misunderstands the teaching? Or is this Love stuff just bullshit? ? He only seems to mention Oneness and Consciousness as absolutes. Somewhere he mentions intelligence too.

If there is Truth, it must be appearing in direct experience. Otherwise, it is not Absolute Truth. What would truth be, if not that what is Here Now? So... Love is bullshit. Oneness is bullshit. Infinity is bullshit. There is none of that Here Now. In direct experience, there is a bunch of abstract "sensory experiences" (shapes, colour, sound), a thought, and perhaps a feeling. Truth is not in some experience yesterday or tomorrow, psychedelic or mystical. Truth is not in some realization or state. Truth is here, and that's it. So what the fuck is this oneness/love/infinity about? Please explain me how there is something that is not here now? What the actual fuck are you talking about? Don't give me that "take a psychedelic" or "you must get to higher consciousness" bullshit. Give me truth right here now.

Okay... I get the idea, yet I feel like something is missing here. How could this fish not recognize something so obvious? How can this water be hiding, if it really is all there is? In what direction exactly should this fish go, to see the water? How could the direction be "meditation" or "psychedelic" (this, not that) if water is One and the fish itself? Get what I mean? This whole thing is melting away! No teaching / pointer can make any sense!

@Leo Gura By the way, I know you don't like us denying Love. I'm really just being curious and trying to figure out something I find valuable. I hope you don't block this at least before some clarity is gained.

@allislove @Nahm I'm not really arguing about anything. I'm just pointing at direct experience right now. There is no oneness, love or infinity appearing here now. And how could anything else than Absolute Fucking Truth be appearing? What does Truth even mean anymore when it is 'given a chance' to not be directly here?? Look. You may say that hours of meditation is required to 'get it'. And that the truth is hiding, or veiled behind the mind. You may say this from your experience. Maybe believe you, given a "your experience" even exists. Maybe I meditate every tomorrow morning. But is this "hours of meditation, truth veiled by the mind" not the thought-story? Are you not selling me Maya? I'm sorry if this makes any of you guys uncomfortable, but I'm really just pointing out at what is. Something just does not sit right with this whole awakening thing people are selling me. All this talk about direct experience, and when it is truly looked at, I get recommended more meditation and something that seems to me like dream-stories.

I'm sure there is like a gajillion of beliefs and reasonings that make it seem like now is not really what is now but they ain't now.

There seems to be a greater vision forming. I've come to call this "A Philosophy of Love", which is not actually philosophy, but a destroyer of all philosophy. This is a non-physical suicide, stripping butt-naked in front of freedom, love, not-knowing, and paradox, which is in fact even more radical than physical suicide - this is an alternative for those who struggle with suicidal thoughts. Here are some guidelines I've come up with: - Make a vow in the name of God to never knowingly damage your body in any way. Invest completely and absolutely in your life. Accept everything that comes. Never run away or hide. Stand naked even when it burns. - Take full responsibility of your life. - Be always truthful about yourself to yourself and the other-self, even radically so. - There is no evil. Accept all and give thanks to everything. There is no other existence on which to compare what appears now: this is the best world of all possible worlds. All is Love. - Dare yourself to look at what you fear. Grow eyes that only see with love and unconditionality. Love every Hitler in the world. Be friends with your enemies. - "I Am" is the only thing you can know for sure. All else is a set of baseless beliefs. - Do not believe nor focus on any thought or perspective that does not feel good. One would never consciously choose to feel not good: feeling is automatically valued above all else. This is not a sin of a human being, but a reflection of true nature. - You create all meaning. - Love God and do what you want.

Don't mind me just letting some steam out: I don't actually care if I go to school or have a job. I don't want to study some stupid shit they teach at schools. (Not all of it is stupid, but you know what I mean.) I don't even want to have a job, really. I'm almost 23 yrs old and the system (and my parents) really wants me to do what people are supposed to do: go to school or at least have some kind of a job. But I don't want that, and I myself don't really care. The only reason I'm even having stress about this is because of my parents. They are so eager to see me become a 'normal' adult, and I would feel bad to hurt them. I understand why they want this, and I understand why the system/society needs me to become a normal working guy, but I just can't identify with it on a deeper emotional/value level. To be as honest as I can, all I really want is to chill out in some beautiful place and philosophize myself out of my mind. And maybe have a girlfriend and some friends in general to philosophize with. I don't want money or fame. I just want a beautiful place to hang out. That's really the only material thing I want. Maybe some clothes too, and food. And a place to piss and shit. And internet. I know that if I really wanted that, I could live on welfare at least a few years. Maybe I could even go homeless or something. I don't know. I just want to be free. And I want this freedom to be effortless. All this hardcore spirituality - self development - money making stuff just feels so fucking hollow and hard. There must be an easier way. I can't accept the idea that this world is some kind of a workplace. Jeez.

@Yarco I've had this kind of experience since childhood. I went to school and had hobbies (sports and such) but it never felt like my "true expression". I basically never did homework nor actually deeply enjoyed my hobbies. I played baseball and such mostly because I thought "it just is what it is" and my parents wanted it. Sometimes I may have some motivation, but deep inside I feel like it's really not what I want to do. All motives kind of feel more like a shadow on a wall rather than "real"... I actually have a depression diagnosis, but mostly I think it's simply due to the fact that many of my thoughts / values don't fit the surroundings (my family, the society etc.) so I often feel quite lonely and disconnected from people and life. And that's the weird thing... I am kind of happy not striving! I sense some kind of a truth here. Life must be more simple than that. The only problem seems to be that this trait of mine don't seem to fit the surrounding world.

Hahahahaha... I just realized. Love is literally all Jed is offering. You just gotta read between the lines. The Truth shall set you free.

You're trying to conceptualize / build a thought-story / build a certain "kind" of reality or structure of that which is beyond stories, conceptualization and structure. Reality being an infinite film reel is a pointer, not the actual consciousness in which this pointer takes place. "If reality X, then it must Y" <-- this is rational language conceptualization. Look for that which is aware of and being this thought-story / logical deduction.

This is extremely hard to explain. The amount of information / energy they transfer is so ridiculous that the mind cannot comprehend it in simple rational symbolic thinking. Imagine studying through a hundred books on human development, metaphysics and spirituality in one second. Your mind cannot (and doesn't have to) convert this amount of wisdom into rational symbolic thinking. After the transfer, you just intuitively feel the information, you know it's there and you are intuitively able to 'connect' to this wisdom when needed. After several days, weeks and months of the transfer you just feel your mind expanding beyond your previous limits and comprehension. You just 'get it'. You don't know how, what, and how to put it into words, but you don't need to. It's all there when you need it. And how do I know they do this... It's just so obvious. Your mind merges with theirs, and there is no doubt. Just like there is no reasonable doubt we are having this conversation right now.

@Snuitje There is some weird stuff going on with the aliens I tell ya. I've met these beings in my lucid dreams. Not Ra perhaps, but there seems to be some kind of spiritually advanced race appearing in my dreams. These are blue-coloured beings. They are able to take any form they need. They can transfer energy and massive amounts of information telepathically. Contrary to other lucid-dream characters, they actually recognize they are visiting "my dream". They have been extremely helpful and loving. I miss them often. They share such beautiful moments and energies. Every time I become lucid, they are my number one go-to friends in that realm. They have helped me with my sexuality too. This is super weird shit, so please don't think I'm a alien-fetish weirdo, but I've had sex with them many times. This seems to be their way of opening certain blocks with my sexual energies.