zeroISinfinity

Actuality much more about feelings. (God damn matt kahn flashbacks ? save yourself note to Self:never turn me into that)

Yeah I guess I have too. Logic what logic? Radical very radical openmindedness for this thing. Logic="humaning" tool of a devil ya know. But who am I to tell that. Sorry for always being so nonsensical. Not fan favorite. But I have my best man that's all what is important to me anyway. You can freely throw away logic into garbage can.

@Amandine Tell him that he needs to prepare for lots of her's "hand flipping". That guy that always forgets stuff is a genious. My hat off to him. ☺️

@Johnny5 @Johnny5 Love real? No man all visions. It's just time to return my "wired" fired up passionate heart of a sagi back and get back to nothing extraordinary finally. Will watch that movie and slap my gf's butt because that's how I am. Always perfect and sick of this talk. Ofcourse flip hand finally found it's purpose. ☺️ Imagine that scene. I am flipping hand and she walks in. Alex what are you doing? Well ya know spiritual enlightenment.

@Johnny5Why so mad. All is well. Really is. Is just wierd to livelife again. It feels like I am faking it. Just that and desire foe new one where I will not know anything. I don't want to abuse enlightenment and be cheater. If ❤️ created me to suffer and struggle through life have to be loyal to that.

This is all you have to know about this thing. No lessons no understanding no flashy talk or teachings etc. Yes. My word is word of God. Since I am God. "Avatar" lol. I really am nonsensical. My games I love them.

Well now I am having full arsenal ?, lsd time to go even more crazy. Had same stuff on shrooms with meditation even ultimate 5 meo stuff with it so is just recreation. Once you go crazy never stop. On the firm road to insanity.

Yeah I do man. Very noticable. This stuff destroyed everything I ever beleived in. It really did. Have to deal with aftermath too not easy stuff. I mean it is but I dunno just should I be happy or not with this.

@kagaria Integration. Lets explain it like this. One part wants to dream, one part wants life third part wants annihilation and new dream or to forget all of this. All 3 parts didn't become unified force rather are at war with each other.

@Leo Gura It just goes so against life and all notions of life you've been holding. Not so simple. You literally lose your life in it's entierty for this. I do beleive you know this very well. Not having egoic backlashes. Dark nights of MIND are much more serious then all that egoic easy stuff.

And you never moved anywhere. What sorcery is that. What a lux. ☺️

@dimitri Ok my awoke brother. I added meeting these fine class chinese actresses. I don't speak chinese and have no intention learning chinese. This stuff broken natural progression of "my life". It's like total erase.

Eternal One. LOVE. We here get it by some miraculous events, lets define them as such. @Leo Gura Question for you, why is it so hard to accept this. When I ever think about this always having difficult times. I really do, don't know how it is for you. I feel betreyed by God I do.

Yes it is but that was my greatest desire as this guy. It really was. When you live from Permanent samadhi state it becomes crystal clear that you actually do not need any of this. You literally die. You are already dead. You feel as God and everything that comes with it. Actually. So as this guy who wanted death more then anything what's left? Mahasamadhi nothing else. That's 100% honesty. I really can't continue this. Wish I can. Very difficult stuff. Yes I do not appreciate "what I've became" one bit. Just don't like it at all and most Likely never will.

Nothing to do with escapism. Just want home. Who cares about life or dreams. Actually don't need both. So yes high death drive. Also don't forget my initial conditions of this life and conditioning and everything else makes my "person" much more into seeking death then chasing life.

Yeah sure Awareness and what it Really is. You end up all alone. You feel so God damn complete you don't need life or to dream. That's the main problem With this. Life is complete delusion, dreaming while knowing all this stuff makes no sense. Why would I be happy with this? I am not. Cant' wait this body bag to vanish. So high death aspiration lol. 100% honest response. Honestly day I'll finally die will. Be happiest day of my entire life.

I do not want to be God how in name of God this can motivate me for life. How the fuck. Guy from Serbia can'be fucking God makes No sense. I am so pissed off. Not happy with this one bit. Have to wait 50 years til. My life ends and be given new chance for it.

Death drive so big that Infinity got unlocked. Can't wait to die and new life. Game over can't stay here anymore. Have to suffer day by day this life. 0 zero happiness because of this.

Yes you experience your own death for awakening/formless. But never forget and I wish you to feel form=formless. So don't harm yourself. Psychedelics, meditation all good for that. If you are dreaming then you know dream. You will dream forever so no need for harming yourself. This=God no difference.

Infinite Love it really sounds to good to be True. How to get to it? I tried everything man I really did. I am tired of seeking. I don't understand a word what these guys are talking about. Conciousness this Conciousness that. Whwt do I have to do. Tired.

Yeah I guess. @Nahmyou know what when we meet in Eugene. I will not order coffee will order tequila and will drink it until I pass out.

@Forestluv Once again, who is wrapper, source, player, wishmaster, magician?

It's not about me at all. Who is the Source? Who wrapped his own gift. All roads lead back to Rome. Who plays that game?

@Nahm You are.... Have no words for you. You are scary ya know. You really are.