krockerman

I am a 21-year-old man and I have followed actualized.org for a year now. and about a 30 days ago I heard about hell realms. I can't even meditate anymore. before I thought "cool I want to go deeper" when something weird happens with my consciousness when I meditate because I am afraid I that consciousness might enter a hell realm with the pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia but 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times worse. before I took LSD i and I got so many lessons. I talked to a guy who was an ex psychedelic guy. he told me (don't know the drug) told me he had a trip experience the most painful thing on this earth + 1 level (i have read a little about this and i have talked to other on this forum about this issue. Most painfull thing +1 level seems pretty common) after that, I have not even touched a psychedelic. I don't care that my life is a hell realm. There are much worse than my life. And living my life not experience anything "special" like ego death etc is the only way to stay out of the hell realms. When I die I have 0 control. I might miss the good stuff, but I am willing to offer that. yesterday when weird things started to happen the fear of the pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia came up. I thought "should I go into this or not" "I want to but I am too afraid" what do you think @Leo Gura?

It's not about being hurt It's about experience suffering. If i enter a Hell realm While tripping i am not gonna get hurt But i gonna suffer.

It's not worth the risk of entering a Hell realm (meditation only No substances)

I do not need to experience a freaking Hell realm to know What suffering Feels like

I have been gaming for a while now. Starting to get some real result. I know sex will never fulfill me. And yes I have seen Leos pua rant many times. A lot of what he said is valid. Treat women with respect etc and I love women. Some PUAs hate women because of pain and past trauma. I have just never know how to talk to them. It just feels extremely empowering. This is just so much more than that. I am fascinated by the game itself. I went through life purpose course. I hate when Leo says it is manipulation. Yes but everything is manipulation. In fact, Leo is trying to manipulate us to become more conscious etc. I think it has more with the place it is coming from. I can't see myself doing anything else tbh. I am not doing this because I want to impress my guy friends I think that is stupid. So can my life purpose be a pua and teach other men how to do it? and setting the right values?