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5:00 AM Went for my longest run so far, about 2 hours. Don't know if I'll even be able to run in the morning, but I'd love to, this has become super fun!

You think Goggins was wired for discipline when he was 300 pounds eating donuts for breakfast? I think it sucks just as bad for him as with others, he just learned to emrace pushing through pain. I believe anyone can get to that level. So in a sense you can wire yourself for it.

5:30 AM Went for a good run, my whole body was super sore from a David Goggins workout I did yesterday, which completely killed my legs and stomach. But It felt great nonetheless. Exercising is a spiritual process if you treat it as such. You tap into your inner warrior when you want to quit but keep pushing. Managed to read 17 pages in Psycho Psybernetics yesterday and will read some more today, finally, I've started! after procrastinating forever. Nofap day 0. Yes, it happened, I relapsed. I've been having insane urges the last 2 days and it just felt like it needed to happen after this morning run. Now I've got a fresh perspective on the after-feeling of a relapse and its safe to say it's not worth it at all. I'll keep on going strong with that thought in mind. The only disciplines I've got left to beat are nofap, reading, and meditation. I've conquered every discipline I set myself the last 2 months and it feels EPIC. I know I can beat this nofap addiction. Although I've never been a serious "addict", no more than 1-3 times a week, but the fact is, if I can't stop for more than 12 days without losing control, then it's safe to say its an addiction. I've found out by doing an overwhelming amount of challenges and disciplines at once has been the best way for me to get back on track. I'm so motivated to keep them all going that there's no room for failure.

I've been taking magnesium powder now for two months, it's absolutely fantastic. I feel it recovers my body and mind just as well as creatine, and it has so many other benefits. It's even boosted my workout performance, and it ables me to workout two times a day. D-3 is also important if you live in a country that doesn't get much sun exposure. I find a high-protein, high-fat diet to work best for me, alongside some complex carbs. I try to make sure I get enough fiber, which can be from oatmeal, veggies and fruits.

Even the most enlightened master could not perfect himself in all aspects of life.

5:00 AM Woke up and went straight out for a run. The plan was to run the same distance as last time which was almost double the distance before it, but I ended up doubling this run as well, so tripling what I was doing before, it took about 1.5 hours and felt so incredible. The "runners-high" is very real, lol. ? It's Nofap Day 10 currently and I awoke to a surprise in the middle of the night. A wet dream! I knew this would come at some point and I'm not gonna lie it felt a little disappointing. But from what I've read and heard It's doesn't count as a relapse at all, while it might set some off for 1-3 days, others don't feel loss of motivation or energy at all. I don't really feel any difference so far so I won't comment on it for now. I've been feeling no urges at all, and feel like I could give this up forever, but I feel there will be tough times when I'm feeling down or tired. Those times will be the most important to stay strong and be ready for war. Day 36 of no caffeine. That habit has far gone and I could stop counting If I'd wish to but I'll keep counting for at least 66 days. The only things I've yet to get into routine are meditation and reading. I've been trying to start my reading for probably 2 months, and have had the same book on my desk all this time. I can not figure out why it's so hard for me to start it again when I was averaging like 100 pages a day 7 months ago. It really is just a matter of picking it up and starting, it's that simple, yet I've somehow procrastinated on it forever. Today will be the day I pick it up and start reading. I REALLY feel that I'm missing meditation after a little break. I need to find a place in the day and make it a habit as well. Maybe after my morning runs would be ideal, since I'm going to bed so early now. I most likely will start with 20 minutes sessions and work my way up to an hour.

Quitting caffeine was one of the best decisions I've ever made. Literally everything is better from sleep, to focus, to motivation, etc.

Nofap gang is out here! Maybe we should create a topic in the journal section where we can talk about our progress and how we overcome urges and such, if anyone's interested.

5:30 am Looked into breathing techniques for running last night and It worked so well I almost doubled my distance. It was really refreshing running in the pouring rain. In the afternoon I did the Mike Chang flow workout which left me drenched in sweat. I'm really enjoying pushing my limits at the moment, it feels so incredibly good afterwards, mentally and physically. Cold showers help me to recover a little faster as well. Day 8 of nofap, no urges so far. I've noticed my workouts are definitely more intense from the testosterone build-up.

@CultivateLove Bara vera slakur og opin, þeir kunna að taka a moti nyju folki. Ekkert til að ottast.

My birthday today. Never really felt that those are any more special than other days. But I guess it's nice that people show a little more care and love on this particular day. I'll be eating healthily all day nonetheless, my desire for unhealthy food has completely vanished. Went for a 5 am run this morning. Hearing the rain made me dread getting up and go outside. But as I mentioned in my last post, it wasn't bad at all once I was outside, matter of fact, it was actually fantastic! The mind tries to play tricks and sway you from doing uncomfortable things with a very logical reason, especially when it's as vulnerable as it is in the morning. Nofap Day 6 today, I can already see a difference in how I communicate with others. It doesn't take many days for the testosterone to build up.

Finally one-month caffeine-free (31 days). The best decision I've made in a while, everything from sleep, mood, focus, motivation, etc keeps improving. It has become easy to fall asleep before 10 pm and wake up at 5 am. Quality of sleep has also been improved vastly. I'll continue to at least 60 days before I may introduce cacao back into my diet, but more controllably, it has so many benefits that It's one of the only exceptions I'd make. Woke up at 5:00 am this morning with a massive stomach ace from how unhealthy I ate yesterday. I've not run as much as I would've liked to last week but its slowly progressing. If I miss a run, I do nonetheless exercise so it's not a massive problem other than missing out on the discipline of doing it beside it sucking big time. The hardest part is really just to get out of the house, after I'm out it's all good. I'm on nofap day 5 and there have definitely been some heavy urges today and yesterday. The last time I did nofap, it became really easy after day 7 so I'll just have to get passed 3-5 more days and from there it's all smooth sailing. I find starting nofap after an LSD trip to be the best way since It kinda pushes your mind so far from pleasure-seeking that it doesn't even occur to me. But I decided to just start it now the hard way, and defeat this "addiction" once and for all. Porn is not healthy in any way, whether addicted or not.

Woke up at 5:30 AM and went back to sleep due to insane body soreness. I could've forced myself to go for a run and push through it but I've done that before and injured myself by starting off too strong (got weak knees). And I'm kinda already on the edge of pushing the limits, yesterday I ran in the morning, then later in the day did a Goggins live workout which was squats, lunges and pushups for an hour straight with 0 rest. So I woke up this morning feeling like I had been in war for months, lol. I've fully committed to nofap at this point and will be giving PMO up for as long as possible. The benefits are too great for me not to be doing it, and its a fun challenge as well. Last time I did PMO for a month I noticed how vast the benefits were, and am very curious what 90+ days feel like. The community over on Reddit, despite being a little extreme sometimes, is actually a great support system so I'll be staying updated there when I need motivation.

@Nahm Golden advice! Compassion and understanding. You don't know what happened to this person which causes them to be negative.

@Javfly33 I wasn't happy the first two weeks, but it got better. ???

Exercise and diet are always Nr.1 in these situations, remember that. If you're doing those things, maybe try waking up early, go for a run, read, etc. Quit caffeine. I'm on day 28 and it's absolutely amazing! Take cold showers every day to get used to being uncomfortable. These are the most actionable practical steps you can take, and remember, life unfolds in chapters and phases.

5:00 AM Run-5 km Awesome clarity of mind in these runs, it's just like meditating, especially when it's so quiet and still outside. Uphill sprints are becoming my favorite thing to do again, your body can really run like a Ferrari if you push it hard enough, beyond mind. I think meditation would be more crucial than ever for me right now. Yesterday I noticed how frustrated I was throughout the day and it was clearly out of desperation for caffeine. It's weird, its like I've got too much energy that needs to be let out, else it turns into frustration and annoyance. I'm in no way an angry person, most would label me the opposite, quiet, introverted, etc, but maybe this is just a phase in the withdrawal effects. It's incredible how noticeably my sleep has changed after quitting caffeine. I thought I slept well before, but now I see. The duration of the sleep has not changed rather than the quality of it. It has become super easy to wake up and fall asleep, and I feel well-rested even after 5-6 hours, although I still prioritize 7.5-8 hours. Been really pushing my workout limits with these David Goggins workouts last week or two. Been sore in my legs since last Friday and barely able to walk, but still pushed through the morning runs and afternoon workouts. When you push your body and mind beyond comfort, you start to feel so amazing it's like you forget how it felt when you're not in a workout routine, so the mind can justify being lazy and comfortable. If your body is not following your spiritual progression by breathwork or exercise, you're missing out big time on more rapid and steady growth.

5:00 AM Woke up and went straight out to run. Ran about 5 km and man was it soul cleansing, did some uphill sprints as well which completely finished me off. The weather was incredible but cold, so a little rough on the lungs. Currently on day 26 without caffeine. Feels incredible, I fall asleep much easier and sleep is overall way better. I don't wake up tired and groggy even though I've been waking up way earlier than I usually do. Energy is steady throughout the day and my focus is at a steady pace. Been taking cold showers every day for about 2 weeks as well. That's probably one of the most important things one can do I've come to find. Forces you out of your comfort zone and it SUCKS but feels incredibly rewarding afterwards. It's been almost a year or two since I was taking daily cold showers and I've been meaning to get back to it for the longest time. When I work out, they become mandatory. Also been thinking about giving nofap another go. The longest streak I've been on is probably no more than 30 days, but it was never done out of desperation, it kinda just happened on its own without me forcing it. I've found that to work best for me. But I'm not sold on doing it, I'll see how well I do without thinking about being on nofap. I really like starting a lot of challenges like these at once. I feel I stick to them better if I've got more to focus on, so one single challenge doesn't become isolated and all my focus goes to not caving in on that one. I don't have time to complain when I've got all of it going at once.

Something happening is the illusion. From the illusion, it appears to be happening, which makes it true from the relative standpoint. When the illusion fades, it appears to have never happened at all.

@Consilience It was very interesting to read over this journal, so thanks for starting it in the first place. I too find it good to let go of all these ideas the mind likes to come up with. Sometimes they work well, sometimes they restrict you, that's life. Hope you find your clear vision back. I feel this video may apply to you.

You realized your own authority...tada! But it doesn't make you "better" than him, just shows you you don't need any external validation to find truth.

6:30 AM Easing back into it. I find it too difficult to wake up all of the sudden at 5, so I'll slowly reduce it by 30 min each night as I did in the beginning.

I know that all too well.

@Zigzag Idiot Happy birthday my friend! Can't think of a better way to spend a birthday than with good ol' Lucy. Also highly recommend trying a cold shower during trips, the after-effects really put you in a relaxed and comfortable state.

7:00 AM Tried waking up at 5, didn't manage to do so and I feel extremely disappointed. We try again another day.