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The forum where people talk about experiencing god and infinity? I think you're safe talking about paranormal activities here. And as long as it happened in your experience, then it's real from your point of view, since all of reality is imagined anyway. Can't wait to hear more. Btw, you don't happen to live on skinwalker ranch, do you? The small town I've come from is pretty conservative, but the majority more on the orange side rather than blue. Been around a lot of blue people nonetheless, it's funny that most of them are very anti-Trump, he leans so much red that they notice his bullshit from a mile away. I find that many farmers I've met who were raised around blue and have been transitioning to orange the past technological decade have that "common sense" that orange and green lacks. But maybe that shouldn't be labeled with spiral stages rather than a psychological trait.

WOW, poor people, feel deeply for them. Everyone should read this. Thank you for sharing.

Been gently easing back into contemplation and more mindful present thinking. Not yet started meditating, but will eventually do so in the mornings after my runs, possibly starting tomorrow. Also been switching the content I've been consuming to more deep videos and podcasts. This week I've enjoyed some of Leo's videos and Aubrey Marcus's podcast. Will be getting into some Matt Kahn soon enough to open up a little bit more to feeling. And then maybe some Rupert Spira for self-inquiry. I like easing into watching content such as this to prime up my mind for the "work" that lies ahead, even though I won't have any definitive structure to it. I like the not trying aspect of meditation, I find I can let go quite well with enough hours on the cushion. I've also yet to read the Osho 1300 page behemoth of a book, which entails 112 forms of meditative practices that I want to try. I just finished reading Nahm's "the path" in which he describes what he went through to get where he is now. It was really inspiring and motivated me a lot to actually get back on the horse. I'm also looking forward to my next psychedelic trip since it's been quite a while. I'm a little nervous even to go back in, but I'm sure it will be amazing. I won't rush into it tho, It may be 1-3 months until I decide to trip next, but one never knows, spontaneous trips occur all the time.

Can imagine how frustrating that game is. ?

5:00 AM Woke up to the blaring wind and pouring rain. Honestly felt like doing anything other than going out for a run at first. But lying there for a little while, feeling well rested, I became more motivated to just head out and go for it. The toughest thing was battling the wind, running against it made breathing correctly extremely hard and the extra leg power used all made for a tough but fun run. Taking these last days off I felt a massive difference in performance today. The join supplement has worked like magic and there are little to no pains in my body as of now. On most runs, I was aching pretty much somewhere, usually in my knee or tendons. But that's all gone now, mostly suspect its the supplement alongside the rest I gave my legs to heal.

I find it awesome to compete against only myself. It feels way different than projecting it outward toward "an other".

@Michael569 It can actually get a bit distracting since I sometimes just want to stand there and look at the stars for an hour. My most productive runs are when its cloudy and the road is the only focus. But it definitely feels like more of a spiritual run with a clear sky.

Dropping the walls of the ego and accepting everything as yourself. As you are your reality, one must love and accept all.

@Michael569 Hehehe yubb, we get auroras here all winter. Pretty spectacular and beautiful, trust me I don't take it for granted. The only thing I hear visitors here talk about is their dream to see the northern lights. Thank you! I feel like I adapted to the 5 am wake up probably 2-3 weeks into it. Quitting caffeine really helped so much. It was not as hard as I had imagined, and I've considered myself a night owl all my life. It's just that first week or two you've got to get over, after that it's smooth sailing. And honestly, it's the running that made it sustainable to wake up so early. I've tried it for years and never succeeded. After I decided I would run as soon as I woke up, it all worked out because It feels so free and liberating running at night.

I love myself! I love myself! I love myself! I love myself! I love myself!

This is your man for eq. It's actually difficult for many to watch him as he's so "out there" with feelings and his love talk. It took me some time to get comfortable watching him, and after seeing most of his material now. I can confidently say he's one of my favorite teachers. The ego really does not like this guy.

@Jodistrict Actually a Harvard research found that salt isn't as bad as previously thought. I put extra pink Himalayan salt on everything and I feel fantastic, but I also drink like 3 liters of water every day. I feel at my best when I'm salted up, as a matter of fact, I'm drinking cacao right now with a shit ton of Himalayan salt. Aubrey Marcus also talks about the importance of sea salt because of all the minerals it holds, like 60 different types if I remember correctly, compared to table salts 3 types of minerals. @Shunyata I'm the same way, I have to quit eating unhealthy cold turkey. But! I don't overdo the health which is a mistake most people make, it's just not sustainable. For example, for breakfast, I usually eat some granola (which has sugar) combined with oats, tastes great, and makes me feel great because of all the fiber. Then at launch some eggs with noodles and protein bread toast. It's just a matter of finding out what works for you and making it taste really good. @vizual You love to feel healthy first and foremost, this is true for everyone whether they disagree or not. So that should overwrite the short term pleasure of unhealthy food when you can get healthy food which tastes really good and makes you feel good. @Arcangelo Solid advice!

You have to catch yourself in the moment of the craving and ask yourself - If I love myself, what would I do?

8:00 AM Woke up late today due to not being able to fall asleep last night. Which ended up in a 2-hour fap session, lol. After I completed my 12 day run some weeks ago, I've been fapping about once every 4-6 days which ain't really a problem. It's not interfering with my life, but I notice how easy it is to feed back into it and the gap between the nofap days shortens. So I really want to get on track with it again. When I'm doing it at about once a week rate, I honestly feel fine and normal. But when I've been on 10-30 day streaks in the past you feel at the top of your game kind of. I really want to get to that point again. I find the first 5-10 days the hardest to bypass. I'm going to read a little on nofap today to gain some of that motivation back to get over the beginner's hump. Did an awesome flow workout yesterday and was absolutely drenched in sweat like never before. So much that I was actually slipping on my mat when I was planking. Did an extra two sets of plank at the end of the workout just because when you're already so far in, you might as well go even further. I listened to Leo's latest video during the workout which was great. Was definitely a wake-up call for spiritual "pursuit" again. I'll listen to "The many facets of awakening" during today's workout with some chill mix under. I've only ran twice during the past 9 days which is really disappointing, but I won't sweat over it because I did train those days, and my knees did feel the need to rest a little. I've noted down on my chalkboard to run every day for the next 5 days before I can rest. I can feel how comfy it has become to skip morning runs, especially when it's really windy or rainy outside. Your mind is really good at tricking you in those moments to go back to bed.

+1 There seems to be a lot of hostility and built up anger recently here. Leo can you make a video about love so everyone can start parroting it, as has happened in the past. There seems to be a seasonal vibe on the forum dependent on what kind of videos he releases.

@Space Wow, that really is suuper ambient.

"Cattle are the most gentle creatures"

Really want to get back into downhilling again, used to do it when I was a kid. Awesome to know you're into it.

What about more chill ambient such as this:

@integral Yeah I'll definitely have it looked at some time down the road.

@integral Thanks, but my mind is as clear as ever so I doubt I'll need it.

Been a while since I last posted in this journal. The reason is I haven't really been working on myself in the awakening/spiritual aspects all that much. Most of my focus lately has been on building disciplines around my life such as noted in the other journal I've been posting in. I've really enjoyed doing those things, but with that discipline, there came a certain comfort zone around spiritual work. I've noticed how much I've fed into the ego by fixing up those things which ain't necessarily bad, but I just notice how less fulfilled and happy I am. Awakings always come with an ego backlash no matter what, I'd classify this as such. Now I feel I'm ready to dive into meditation, self-inquiry, and contemplation again. My reading habits have fallen into the toilet since April when I went to the lambing season on our farm. I've been trying to start it again with no progress complete. I'm pretty sure I know the reason as to why it's not going so well. First off it started with a trip that was so deep that I felt no need to read because I realized the present moment was all there is to realize. Yet there is so much to learn from them that it was a big mistake to be so lopsided into one direction on the matter. Another reason is; I've lost all my patience and stillness. I constantly have to be on the move, watching something of stimulation such as youtube, or clicking away on the internet, this came as a result of quitting meditation. I can barely watch a 10 minute Osho video because it's not stimulating enough. With meditation and contemplation, this issue would be resolved rather quickly. One thing I don't want to do and I've made this mistake in the past, which is jumpstarting the spiritual journey with a psychedelic trip. When I've done that in the past I've noticed how quickly I fall into old ego patterns and habits after it. I really need to build a habit and spiritual discipline before going into a trip, so I've got some foundation to lean on after it, to prevent massive backlash. But once I've built a decent meditation, contemplation, and self-inquiry habits, I will definitely be taking an LSD trip or a Mushroom trip. There's nothing quite like a psychedelic trip, the magic, the mysticism, the truth, the love it brings is the most fascinating this I've come across on this earth. But one can not lean too much on them as with anything. The books I'll be reading today will likely be The teachings of Don Juan, and maybe The book of not knowing. I'm about halfway through Don and about 1/3 through Ralston. I'm also going to be tuning into some Aubrey Marcus, he's one of my favorites because he has a nice balance of how he goes through life with spirituality and purpose. I'm also gonna be watching some of Leo's videos again, starting with "The many facets of awakening", That will be my second time viewing that one. I've seen most of Leo's videos about 1-4 times some even more, but it's like you never run out of things to learn with these long ass videos. Peace.

Damn only just realized how old this post is... Oh well.

@Zigzag Idiot Love you too man!