Name: Rebecka L Manzuoli
Age: 48
Gender: A woman (but not female. Male and female I consider a construction from hundreds of years back that limits us women far too much)!
Location: Stockholm, Sweden
Occupation: Working with activities, film and telling in a place where elderly (dying) people lives. It creates deep meaning to me to travel backwards in time while listening to their stories! (And I make drama and film with them about their life-stories).
Marital Status: Husband
Kids: Three boyz
Hobbies: thinking, discovering BEING in creative work, feeling alive, reading, watching films, creating visual stories or drawing, meeting open people
Personal challenges I've overcome:
Being bullied and not accepted
I am an insanely sensitive person (also creative) that always feldt labeled as weak. (I guess I might also have Add, maybe also some introvert-thing). I was bullied during most of my childhood (at home and) in school. I did not feel I had a value. People and I myself concidered me weak, weird and helpless. I was not accepted so I created my own fantasyspace in my head where I was something special. I started to dig into myself. Reading and reading psychology. I did not want to become like a certain parent. My only mission was that. If I one day had a kid I wanted to be a better parent, another person than my mother told me I would become. Being bullied created the strenght in me to walk my own way - I dont need the group to survive. (Even if of course I thrive if I feel accepted). In great painful periouds I still have courage to explore my inner deep waters and I have reached deep acceptance. Still mad att certain norms in society that I feel as part of my life purpose to affect in better more loving-parthership-directions.
Being close to death
I have been close to death (but I was cured) and some people around me died. Every painful experience I enter (even if it means my last) makes me curious because I learn something at the same time as the pain I have to work through.
What I'm working on now:
Working on calming down and build my energy up again after a burn-out (right word?) so I find my way back to the beautiful life! So I can continue to feed and developing my (always) hungry and qurious soul. Also not to take care of everyone in need until I lifted myself and my family.
Working on being more present and continue being humble in relating to all living creatures, quriously listen to their life-stories and try to see life from their point of view, understand their needs (without making my own ones less important).
Still struggling with my creativity problem. Working on developing a story for a weird graphic novel I will draw. (Wich I know will lead me to more`dream´activities if I manage to make it real). That is to make my weird special inner world get visible to the world so I can get illustration-jobs that fits me because normally I dont fit into the mainstream world and what`it´wants. But today I enjoy not fitting in and I am proud of my journey.
Thanks Leo for sharing your wisdom and building up this interesting place where we can share! Old lady enjoys. <3
