thesmileyone

Hmm on firefox if you tag someone you cannot insert anything else into that post. Neither before the tag or after it? I wanted to tag leo @Leo Gura and say...you can take Bufo anally: https://www.psycheplants.org/index.php/home-2/bufo-alvarius/

@Leo Gura

Look the important thing is, it doesn't matter if Leo is deluded or isn't deluded. I understand he is a figurehead for people who do drugs, or are on the path, but even so, he is a seperate representation of Consciousness just like you are and everyone is whether they realize it or not. ERGO WHO GIVES A FUCK if he is deluded or not. It should not bother you in the slightest. Let him do his thing, let him express whatever the fuck he wants to express. If just one sentence in his ludicrously long video helps you in anyway, then his job is done!!!! This is what i hate about this forum, its a cluster of people who think they are enlightened, keyword...think, arguing, criticising and mentally masturbating all fucking day long, mixed in with some actual genuine people. Yeah I said it. hate me, the ego needs someone to hate, make it me so you can move on from criticising someone who genuinely wants to help people, thanks

Ok when afraid to do something, find someone you look upto, (if you have realized Self logically or truly, realize your idol and you are the same thing, ergo same "person) and adopt their mindset to life. Would, as an example "Tony Robbins" be afraid of doing that DMT hit? Or Leo Gura? Then enjoy it, reflecting that you have the opportunity to do some lovely 5meo when other people cannot find a good source of it.

Lot's of people on here claim to be, but aren't. They just get good at hiding their...humanity.

How did you know it was Sahaja and not Nirvikalpa or lesser? And I say waking ie in day to day life not in meditation. Thanks p.s, can anyone who had RASA and reached 1000 share their experiences with me? Feel free to PM. It's been quite some time since I stabilised at 1000, but I am not experiencing 1000, so it would be cool to share experiences. It's related to the question above...

Right but in the context of conversation you have to use such language. I mean how stupid would we look if we said "my body experiences anxiety" instead of "I" because there is no "I"? ??

Yeah, but I think the body like, remembers your state. Even at the dentist, my body is in full panic attack mode but my mind is calm. I actually mediate in the dentist, whilst my body does all its sweating and stuff. Cannot explain it.

This is what lead me to the path. I am much happier now. But it made me more unhappy for years whilst doing the work.. Also, how can you say enlightenment = true happiness when you are not enlightened? To me, this is like saying, um, "getting a blowjob from 8 women at once is true happiness" when I haven't had a blowjob from 8 women at once. It's just the same presumption that causes your anxiety "women won't like me" = all false thoughts. You don't even need enlightenment to conquer social anxiety, the moment you understand that thoughts don't mean shit, means your anxiety doesn't mean shit. There will still be body anxiety, ie you will still shake and have bowel movements and sweat and stuff, so it's just a matter of out-habiting the body anxiety because there is no more mind-anxiety to feed it. And you do that by exposure therapy. Putting yourself in hard social situations, when mind-anxiety comes up you say "I am not my thoughts" and you just be in the moment in the social scenario. This might take years to fix or 5 mins. I went from someone who used to go shopping at 3am to avoid people to someone who can easily go shopping at 1pm on a Saturday, or to a club, or whatever. It took a good 5 years to get there. I only get anxiety at the dentist now.

That doesn't answer my question at all. As jkris points out Can be the "normal" way of making a decision for unenlightened people. So Doesn't seem to click does it? See this is the thing you come here, claim to be enlightened, but you swerve any actual questions that would validate or invalidate your experience. Which begs the question, obviously, are you enlightened or do you just claim to be, and if you just claim to be, how fruitful is 159 pages of "advice"?

I don't know it is hard to explain it in words, it is different from sleep, it is different from the kind of unconscious you get when someone knocks you out (had that a few times xD) but it's completely different from normal void meditation. LEO please do something about this silly spam filter it's driving me nuts! : New posts within a short time frame are limited. Please wait 140 seconds before submitting. @Leo Gura

Or maybe I didn't have Kundalini anything. The problem with "masters of one" is that they cannot see, nor can they accept, anything other than their own belief. Also Jan required RASA to take him forward on his path, he was crystalized in the 900's (Rasa scale) and obsessed with the "blue being" he speaks of. Some of the people in the group I was in were visiting Jan for shaktipat (in person) whom were already stable in Self-realization and nonduality; again the things he claims are not present without Kundalini fully awake.

Well, Jan Esmann, the "kundalini master" says that you can't even gain Self Realization without Kundalini generally, except in "rare cases". I wonder if a lot of people have active Kundalini and don't know it though. I have, for years, had all the signs / symptoms of K awakening / activity yet I didn't get the "extreme bliss" that supposedly HAS TO come with it. Which made me think for years there was something wrong with me as I was doing K yoga and other stuff, recieved Jan's "shaktipat in absentia" ($100 necklace) and nada...

Ok but..what does the experience feel like? I have reached Nirvikapla Samadhi but in meditation and it is like falling unconscious. One minute you are there, the next you are gone. And I don't mean the "I" I mean consciousness itself. 4 hours feels like 5 minutes. Given that I am already in the void, "time" is the only attribute that showed me that I achieved Nirvikapla Samadhi in the first place. So I am wondering what it's like in "reality".

That actually seems correct. Like Leo is still experiencing God from the POV of "I am God" rather than "God". Given he has a 30 year headstart, I wouldn't be surprised if he has gone all the way by now.

Can it? Or can simply parts of God not know its whole self? As we are just fragments of God. Like, there are illnesses where the human body attacks itself like it attacks a virus. Does that mean that a human body is not 100% human? Nope.

Not surprising. Hence the question. How convienient...

How do your thoughts work? Say...you need a new car. What's the thought process?

I think you answered your own question.

Could be worse...

That's ok. Plenty of people will try to change your mind, pressure you into thinking you are, but all that matters is that you are happy. You might realize Self (God) in another lifetime, or 100 lifetimes on, or never...as long as you are happy, who cares? If however, you cannot accept you are God, yet there is this intense search for who you are which takes over your entire life, then there is better advice for you. If not, just enjoy life. Sometimes I wish I was blissfully ignorant like i was pre-2012. I was a horrible person in many ways, but I was God then too, and "horrible" is just a concept. But more importantly, I was blissfully ignorant. And I was happy.

But by that statement, you are living from the mind putting power in something external to you to make your decisions for you. There are tools to get round this such as self enquiry, yet I see people spending more time reinforcing their minds belief structure than doing the work...

But the translation of that is really "my mind wants to embody enlightenment and it wants enlightenment to stick with me forever" because YOU, outside but including your mind, is already enlightened. All the path to enlightenment is, (in a way the mind can understand) is a deletion of "not required" to get to true nature. Think about it. You are already Self. You are just living from the mind instead of pure Self. In this image, you are both 9, 3 and 6, but the mind in unawakened people only sees 3, in people like us who understand nonduality but are not enlightened, we only see 3 and 6. But the WHOLE TIME we have been either 3 or 3 and 6, we have been 9. 9 not only represents the entire circle but everything outside of the circle. Now, I KNOW this and I understand it, but I only get glimpses of it experientally. Therefore I am not enlightened. One day, hopefully in this lifetime, 3 and 6 will merge into 9 and that's how life will occur to me. I've done all the work already, just gotta wait. And I have noticed the changes. The path to nothing is not all fun!

In some of my upcycles, I have even felt gratitude just because I can experience life throwing shit in my face.