Stakres

Why "close"?

@AlphaAbundance Only you can answer those questions for yourself.

How do you know that that is you/your nature?

Seek professional help. Therapy, psychiatrist, hotlines. Please get help. New age, enlightenment, meditation are not the answer. Please get professional, licensed, scientific help.

You are a human primate.

Alternative perspective: Consider burning the whole model. Why do you want to know which "stage" you are on?

"Mathematics is certainly a science in the broad sense of "systematic and formulated knowledge, but most people use "science" to refer only to the natural sciences." Source: http://euclid.trentu.ca/math/sb/misc/mathsci.html

"Free will" is the biology that hasn't been discovered yet. We are being lived and have far less control than most people think.

Get a job and stable income first. Once you have money coming in, you could try building a business on the side. Realistically, most people won't be able to build a business which generates them more income than a stable job in the long run.

Human primates are wired to be socially connected, so it's normal to feel the emotions you describe. Only you can know what is right for you and how to move forward. What do you feel you want?

It's said that you are the average of 5 people you hang out with the most. I'm still studying at university and although I know that I can learn something from everyone, most university students are not the people who I want to surround myself with. How do I build a new friend group? How can I meet successful and driven people? PS: I couldn't find a megathread of people from this forum in different counties. Maybe it would be good to create that so that like minded people from this forum can meet-up...