ActualizedDavid

If the ego is the devil(me , my fears...) There's no good or bad(nondual). Ok. In this experience of dualism is there any thing like "demons" that control you behavior?

I'm afraid to open myself to womans. All relationship that i had where shallow, not deep relationship. I want to learn how to let myself be vulnerable .

@inFlow how long did the experience last ? Are you different in day to day life ?

A lot of talent here. Here is a music video that i made for someone.

Audiobooks on my phone. I hate to read on my kindel or paper

Ok . I will do it . I tagged you in a other topic. When you are free can you take a look ?and say something about that.

2 years ago i was in a bad place with my life. I was depressed . Fat ,and running my life without any awareness. I smoked weed to feel good and i one time i somked weed alone and i had this experience: I was seeing thigs from the future and from the past and how they came tougher . And how the world is connected. (It was not a plesent experience) I saw a lot of things , flashing images , flashing all the time , and making connections of them. When the state was gone i sayd to myself "if i whoud be able to know this things in my day to day life I can get anything. Some other experience: Sometimes i when i was depressed i sit in my bad and i kinda fall asleep and i thought that exists more realitys , more dimensions, I was sitting in my bad for 2-3 hours and i was not abble to get up. I wanted to get up. But my body was to heavy and i could not get up. I a way i was traveling to space and time. And time stopped. But all the time i got up frome this experiences i told myself "if i know this stuff on my day to day life it will be amazing" All this experiences were not good experience s, i feld that i was not in control, i feld fear , .... What are this kind of stuff?

Hy Leo ! Thx for the answers . I start to have better understanding for this kinds of stuff.

I did not blame my father or my mouther and i accepted who I'm.

. That i accepted what I m ? Original I'm? What is god? And i did not put any filters over "me"? I'm trying to understand..

@winterknight what do you think was this experience? https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/28337-enlightened-but-not-knowing-the-truth/