Azrael

Yeah, psychedelics can help in that situation. But be careful, use it like precious magical gold. Don't abuse it for just being lazy. There is a difference between laziness and just not being able to get on your feet. Contemplate that.

Sometimes you are in a state in which you realize what is the right thing to do. however you just don't have the inspiration and drive to start doing it. Psychedelics can help with that if you target them to it.

@Ray, did you take Leo's Life Purpose course? If you didn't, take it. It's worth 10x times what it costs. At least. What it'll give you is the information synthesized from like 25 books and the structure that you need. I took it even though I knew what I wanted to do in life. It just gave me so many great tools and clarity. I really promote it because of that. It seems like you need clarity and focus. But I don't know you. Make a plan, cut out shit that you don't like or that you know holds you back and don't be too hard on yourself. If you really have a passion and you lay out the plan and follow it, that can be enough to have a good start. With psychedelics, do the research and decide for yourself. I have responded to probably 20+ messages here on the forum that I don't help people get 5-MeO-DMT. And it's basically because I want them to do the research. Because that's as important as the experience. If you don't do it, you don't know what to expect and how to interpret it. It's the same with everything else. You need the theory and the practice.

I don't know how eating really healthy helps with awakening the body, haven't looked into that. From my experience - and how I model it - awakening of the body is the release of the tensions in your body and through that the integration of body and mind. In the normal egoic non-integrated state of consciousness you are always working against your tensions, emotions and thoughts. You are trying to repress them unconsciously. That's what keeps the non-integrated ego so alive, that's why it's so exhausting in that state and that's why you try to get away from yourself in that state all of the time. Once that stops, it's like you pulled the plug and everything goes with each other. Especially interesting then is the occurrence of bad emotions and situations. Because if you made a mistake or something happened you'll still have negative emotions and think about it. It's just that they can instantly go out and so they don't create more needless tensions and negative emotions inside of you.

Yes, dig into that. There is an ever-present now moment that always were and always is - no matter how you feel or what you do and there is the immersion of ever changing surfaces appearing in that. If you go into that, that's a direct route.

You cannot make the switch consciously, no. But you can put effort into the machine (your unconscious) so that it has enough energy and room to work on making the switch. And it will, be assured. It's just that every person has a different past and needs to work through different shit before this is possible.

Good questions, @Afonso. 1) I developed a different opinion about death throughout the time. Especially after the first 5-MeO-DMT experiences. On a strictly physiological level I'm still scared. If someone attacks me with a knife I'll automatically do the best to defend myself. That'll (hopefully) never go. That's normal, because you are wired that way. On an experiential level I know that I can't die. I've seen it. But it'll take years and years of more practice to really let this sink in. It's one thing to recognize who you are and to let the suit of resistance fall off you, it's another to go through all of the different aspects of reality and really grasp it. That's the journey in the long run. That's why we do this. Because after some time, independent how you label your state of consciousness, you'll develop a deep sense of trust to what is happening. But that simply needs time. I still have beliefs about death though. I still have beliefs about a lot of things. I still hope and dream. I just know what they really are, but my character still falls for certain things and rejects others. 2) Yeah, I actually began to see that very clearly last summer. I can also see that determinism is an illusion and I always like to say that in the same breath, so that people don't get nihilistic about everything. Free Will and Determinism exist in certain perspectives of reality, but none of both is the actual reality of things. 3) As I said in the post it felt like being thrown from my path into a ocean - a whole new world. It takes some time to orient yourself in that. I could at least fathom after thinking about it what this probably is because I'm educated on the matter, but I lived with this probably for a few weeks and didn't notice it. Because the thing that notices and criticises all of the time, left. Be assured that when you work on waking up it'll mostly not be an Eckhart Tolle like enlightenment. Look what Rupert Spira has to say about that. It will be slow and gradual, like a flower opens itself up. You'll probably ask yourself in the process of it where you actually stand and you may not know for some time. But then eventually, it'll be clear. A good exercise is to try to understand how you perceived the world just a year ago and see how you changed.

My normal schedule was 1 hour of strong determination sitting per day, mixed with "Do Nothing" / self-inquiry. I sometimes tried different techniques but I resonated the most with "Do Nothing", just because I'm someone who is really goal-oriented, I do a lot of stuff and this seemed to be the perfect counterpart to this - just sit. Funnily, this technique develops a lot over the time as you do it. If I sit down right now and meditate it's not comparable to just the way it was a year ago. I just "go" now and emerge in the fact that I'm sitting. That's it. Just sitting. That was basically my daily commitment that "I had to do". Sometimes, a little bit less like only 30 minutes or something, but especially in the beginning - the first 1 - 1,5 years - I did a lot of extra sits in the evening, sometimes 90 - 120 minutes to really push it. But I did a lot of informal stuff additionally to that. Like I lived in this enlightenment world. I thought about it all day, meta-analysed everything, looked what is the same in every experience, talked about it to friends, here on the forum, listened to hours and hours of Alan Watts for more than a year every evening while cooking and eating, listened to Rupert Spira, Mooji, I just was immersed in this stuff. It wasn't an on / off thing. I lived it. And I tried a lot of stuff throughout the time. Psychedelics of course, HoloSync (still do and love that), EMDR self-therapy (will talk about that in the future), group meditation, I don't now. I could probably list like 20-30 things. But the main thing was that this wasn't optional for me. It was required from the day I started this. All the rest just came by itself. I didn't meditated or drugged myself into awakening, I just committed to the practice and my unconscious did the rest. It took its time and when it was ready, it did it.

I think we need a lot of more people seriously investigating this until we can really say something about it. But I for example could not see how you take 10-20 breakthrough dosages of 5-MeO-DMT in short distances (1-2 weeks) and not be enlightened. Independent from where you start. This is something I could not stick to because of the immensity of the experience and permanent changes that every trip brings with it.

This is not the place for commands.

@unknownworld, interesting questions! 1) 5-MeO-DMT will remove a lot of the tensions and blockages in your body. (Shrooms especially after MeO as well.) EMDR self-therapy might also help purging locked memories and integrate your brain. HoloSync also helps with that. I will talk about that in the future for sure in a post. 2) Meditation, strong determination sitting with "Do Nothing". Also, I really live and breath the whole Zen/Tao way of living / approaching life. I love that stuff. That's it. I mostly live by principals, not so much by little techniques. I know that I am not consciously directing my journey, I just give the momentum (with my practice) that my unconscious needs to do the rest. Also, of course psychedelics. But I tried - as I said - a lot of stuff. But that are the essentials. 3) Standard European diet. Nothing fancy. I'd like to clean it up over time a little bit, but I'm a diva if it comes to delicious food. I've heard though that the Standard American Diet is how we Europeans eat on birthdays. 4) I've thought about this myself. I don't really know, maybe it has increased because the blockages are gone and I feel good. But if it has, not very much. But I'm 21 years old, don't forget that.

I have had a voice speak through me out loud in one of my experiences. After a 5-MeO-DMT session I can enter a subset of the state in meditation, but not a complete breakthrough.

Haven't tried it in a while, but I will let you guys know when I do it the next time. However, I'm pretty sure the experience is the same one at least when you break through. Because you go past everything remotely normal.

I think he is.

Awakening makes you stop running away from yourself all the time + it let's you in on who you are really are. Everything else, costs extra.

Thanks for your opinion.

3-5 non-breakthrough trips and 2-3 breakthrough trips I guess. I think I started in October 2016 and did the last one in the beginning of 2017. I talked to @Leo Gura about that and I think that I have the advantage of just being 21 years old. From a strictly biological standpoint I'm not completely finished with growing up yet. It'll still need a few years for my character to really sink in. That's probably why it's way easier to make changes in this age compared to just 10 years later. The awakening of the mind was dramatic, but yeah I continued with my life. I have shit to do and yes it was extremely hard to pretend everything is normal to your colleges, friends and family. At that time I didn't really know what was going on, because I was hypnotized be fear so damn much. The awakening of the mind happened on the 17th of July 2016. I still got that date on my whiteboard. The awakening of the body happened in the last 1-2 months. I couldn't really say because I just noticed it a few weeks ago. Source is that what you are, son.

Enlightenment or Awakening is - as I see it - basically an integration of the conscious awareness and the unconscious and through that the release of the illusion that you are a little man in your head. For that to happen both sides have to come together. For me it felt like from this day on both sides began to come together. That's why I was so fucked up for so such a long time. Because when the unconscious opened itself up all of the repressed sensations, emotions and thoughts came to the surface and I had to purge them out. Before that opening they were pressed down and not allowed to release. I think that the meditation I used and still use "Strong Determination Sitting" with "Do Nothing" and sometimes spiced up with a question you contemplate can be very powerful. At least for me it was powerful and as Shinzen Young ones said: "It's the fastest way to liberation [he knows]." I'd say 5-MeO-DMT is faster... but that's another story. The thing is you don't consciously create that crack. It just happens. Maybe it doesn't have to happen for everyone. Maybe there are other ways. There probably are. So I wouldn't be too worried about that. There are an infinite ways to the top of the mountain, you'll get there by just committing to go.

Roughly 2 years. In that time span I did like probably 15-20 LSD trips, 20-30 DMT trips, 5-10 shroom trips, 7-8 5-MeO-DMT trips.

You can be able to recognize source and still have social anxiety. If you have the whole package - an awake mind and body - I think that it'll at least lower a lot. For myself, all of my chronic negative emotions are just gone. I can still experience fear / being angry / ... but it's an experience in that moment and it doesn't hold on. You have to see although that enlightenment doesn't cure all of your mental fuck ups. If you have social anxiety because you don't socialise you will probably lower the negative emotions through enlightenment but you won't be an outgoing, charismatic person just because of that. It's just easier then to do this of course. I actually challenged myself not being blocked by negative emotions any more. I did some far out things things just to see how far I can go with feeling good about it. I summed it up here.

First of all there is a difference between experiencing these symptoms because you have so many repressed thoughts from your past or being really ill and secondly you cannot choose whether you want that or not. When you you want to awaken, you'll have to purge.

I studied heavily the concepts and practices of Leo, Shinzen Young, Alan Watts, Rupert Spira und Mooji. But in real life, no.

I will make a post about it and a lot of more posts in the future on certain aspects of it.

I don't know how fucked up you are on the inside - I was pretty fucked up - so I had to use a lot of energy to be "normal" at work and with my friends and family. In the end you'll have to find it out for yourself. Awakening and purging has certain patterns but it's your very own case that shapes your process.

It also fucks with your organs, which is not cool. Although, it is one of the things that is worth doing 1-2 times in your life to just enjoy the experience. Doing a large dose of Ketamine is not comparable to any of the other drugs I have done so far - just from the qualitative experience. Breathtaking and crazy. But not good for regular practice, for sure.