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Yesterday I spend my day cleaning my information intake. For the rest of the month, I will continue detoxing my diet. I also decided to have a little solo retreat on Thursday (I am free from work). I rarely spend time alone without any distractions, besides when I am meditating for 30 min. I feel like I am barely even scratching the surface of this work, and it is already having a huge impact on my life. Going into this with the mastery mindset. I am in this for the long run.

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As I mentioned before, I am currently reading "The Book of Not Knowing" By Peter Ralston. I am really taking my time to do the contemplative exercises that he mentions in the book. I will probably redo these contemplations many times more. It's easy to trick and deceive yourself. I have had a few interesting experiences outside of my meditation sessions. I try to practice mindfulness as much as possible when doing my mundane tasks throughout the day. Yesterday I was trying to contemplate where awareness is located. Ofcourse, my mind was ready to come up with many "rational" answers. My reality seems to become a bit wobbly... I have moments where the inner and outer world seem to melt. And I have moments where I am again completely unaware and completely emersed in my stories. One thing I notice is that I have an immense desire to cleanse myself. To detox my body, mind and soul. I started with deleting all social media accounts. And I am going to analyze the information intake that I consume daily. I remember I have attempted to go on this journey many times before. But I always kind of circled around it. Creating very dramatic stories around enlightenment and the loss of ego. But now It seems the most sanest thing I am able to do as a human being. Sorry if this post is a bit all over the place. Baby steps...moving closer and closer to what is here right now.

A really big insight I had yesterday through meditation... Is that you never experience anything outside of yourself. Everything you experience is in you. That was such a weird perspective shift...it opened me up to look at my direct experience in a much more open and curious way. What is this weird and amazing reality that I **thought ** knew so well?

Currently, My keystone habits are: Daily Meditation Daily Journaling Daily Reading ( I started to read "The Book Of Not Knowing" By Peter Ralston. Mindfulness

Alright, So another 30 min of meditation today. I am on a streak of 36 days now. I am starting to understand that all the benefits you get from meditation, will only be there if you do it consistently every single day. I tried meditation before, but I was never consistent. The concepts and stories in my mind seem to have some of their former importance. When I watch them they are more like clouds floating by. I feel less desire to identify with them. This brings me a new sense of contentment within the daily surges of experience that come and go. It's like these thoughts and feelings just come, want to be noticed, and then float away or transform into something else. Through observing that all that my mind produces are just stories. It has me interested in questioning and inquiring about all that I know. More and more am I becoming aware of me not knowing anything. I have no clue who I am, I have no clue what reality is, I have no clue what relationships are...Or even what thought and a feeling is. I am very interested in taking a look.

I have been meditating consistently for 34 days now. I meditate for 20 min every day. I am starting to notice how my thoughts by nature are not truth-telling. They are but concepts. I am also starting to become aware of the deceptional nature of the mind. Not perfectly aware, but more aware nonetheless. Little by little, through meditation, reading books, mindfulness, and contemplation, I am starting to see little glitches in this web of concepts. I realize that I am very very ignorant about who I am and what reality actually is. I am interested in figuring out what the truth is. I realize that the games I am playing right now will have me running in circles like a hamster on a wheel.

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I have been on an off the personal development journey. Lately, I had a lot of time to reflect. It became very clear to me what isn't working in my life. Also, I had time to get clear on what I actually want to do in life. I have been interested in Self-Actualization for years now. But always circled around the topic by consuming a lot of information and not taking action. It can sometimes be overwhelming how much information is out there and it would often be an excuse for me to not do anything at all. After reading the book Mastery - By George Leonard. I felt inspired to finally dedicate myself fully to this journey. (Finally, but better late then never) The first thing that I decided to tackle was setting up a strong foundation of healthy habits. I have been using the application "The Fabulous" for this. I have ADHD so gamification of projects helps immensely with staying on track. So far I have set up a strong morning routine. I drink water right away after I wake up. I exercise, and I have a gratitude practice. Because of my ADHD, I have to continuously monitor myself to not take on any new projects or install many habits at the same time. SO... My foundation has to be set first before I can move on to the next level.

Hey guys, It's been a while. No clue if anyone is reading this. But thats alright. I am currently going through the foundations of self improvement. I feel that I went way to fast by diving head into consciousness work. My foundations are still quite shaky. This year I am working on building a healthy body. I work on eating healthy, drinking enough water, and moving my body more. Baby steps... I am a very impatient person. So baby steps...

I have been on the road of Self-actualization for 5 years now. It is a bumpy road. Fell into tons of traps and had to go steps back many times. Every time I feel like I am becoming more conscious of the many limiting beliefs I hold about myself and the world. Yesterday I came back from a 2-month vacation to Croatia. I learned a lot about myself there, since I spend some time away from work and people. Throughout my life, I have become gradually more insecure and more negative about myself. I am very anxious, fearful, and don't take a lot of risks externally. Instead, my focus went very much to enlightenment. But as I was reading up on non-duality, I realized that I do not even have my normal life in order yet to do those things. I started a new way of eating. It's called a Keto diet. So far it is making me feel really good in my skin and energized. I also had my first appointment at the psychologist today. I told her everything about my past. I never wanted to seek help from others, cause I am quite stubborn. I always want to fix it myself. But when I talked about it, I actually could tell that this could only be useful. Currently, I am reading a book from the booklist of Leo that I bought. I really love his booklist. The book I am reading is called Psycho-Cybernetics. Normally I rush through books and then read another one. To distract me. But I will do it slowly this time and really take time to do the exercises in the books. One thing I am really interested in at the moment is the story behind people that are further along on the self-actualized journey. I am interested in how they think, how they behave and that got them to where they are right now. That's all I'll write for now, XXX

I am really curious about how nutrition and exercising can help you on your path to higher consciousness. Whenever I go to the gym, the intention behind it is more like "ego-lifting" and wanting to look good. After a little realization that made me commit even deeper to the path, going back to the gym felt strange...and not right. I know that moving your body is healthy. Does anyone have tips or resources on how to exercise and eat in a way that it benefits your path to enlightenment and higher conciousness? Thankyou

I started my meditation practice. My first goal is to get "Access Concentration". I also have that my concentration is bad. So I will have to practice a lot. All these years, I feel that I have been gathering information and having little insights into this path. But every time I got on it, I would stop because it scared me. But right now, I want to walk this path so bad... that there is nothing in my life more important. What I do notice right now... is that in regular life I feel very lost. I do know I want to start my own business and that I want to become a life coach, but at the same time, everything I do feels empty and useless. I find it difficult to get excited about success in society.

If the self-image is just a collection of thoughts, beliefs, memories, and feelings... Why do I believe so hopelessly that I am who I am? Who thought me that I am this? My environment? My parents? Why do I Identify with a self-image who is insecure and anxious? Who decided to trust that this is me? Is it the conclusion I got from my past experiences? Does this mean that I am my past? Who am I right now than? In this moment without my past? The past doesn't exist anywhere but in my mind? What is the mind? Is the mind just a thought? Is there anything that isn't a thought? Is everything that I am and know about myself and reality just a thought? What is reality? And what is my place in it? Not knowing scares me. Why does it scare me? Why lie about knowing something? Do I prefer comfort over truth? I would like to find out.