ElvisN

So I took heavy doses of LSD several years ago which triggered heavy psychosis in me and which has persisted since. It's been more than 5 years that I've lived with this type of schizophrenia. Something interesting happened recently though. I've been tripping on weed for the last 2 months for spiritual development. And I was getting good results. After just 2 weeks of regular consumption, my social anxiety almost disappeared. But in the last 2 weeks something profound happened. Every time I smoked, I would experience hallucinations. I would experience schizophrenia. I would imagine having conversations with people. However, this one time I experienced something different. I realized how impossible it is to communicate with someone through time and space, and I experienced a permanent healing of my schizophrenia. I think it went down 80% and has been down since. This is akin to a miracle. I already noticed how it was clearing my hallucinations, but this was a major shift. Any thoughts? Warning: Consuming weed is highly addictive and can trigger schizophrenia. Use with caution. Edit: Now when I trip, I don't experience the hallucinations as much.

@Michal__ This is exactly what's going on.

@Leo Gura Okay, thanks. Are you not surprised that the very thing that can cause schizophrenia can heal it too?

What does it mean if you keep seeing the numbers 42 and 11:11? What is their significance?

True.

I usually take it this way.

You both are correct!

@Yimpa

I've gone through the life purpose course many times, but I'm not able to really do the exercises. For example, the life purpose assessment. I don't know what to write. I don't even know what the questions are talking about. My mind gives a blank. Although this was not always the case, this is the case right now. I find no meaning in life. A little background about myself: I grew up extremely neurotic, like top 1% of neurotic people.

Will do. @Leo Gura Thank you for this.

@tezk Thanks for the insights!

@Leo Gura Okay. How to overcome said arrogance?

@Leo Gura How to create meaning if nothing feels meaningful?

I'm transitioning from stage Conformist to stage Expert in Susanne Cook Greuter's stages of ego development. What are some books, videos and YouTube channels I can follow to do so?

@WonderSeeker Thanks, man!

@Leo Gura I find it hard to get up in the morning. But I guess as @Basman said the problem might be a lack of experience. What I find worthwhile is growing myself. I have started the practice of taking other perspectives.

You are right. Self-help. Thank you, your answer was very helpful.

Thank you @Basman

Dude, thanks!

I live in a third world country.

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Thanks

Congratulations! Amazing.

This was incredible. Thanks for sharing

Leo Gura