June 15th, 2017, I managed to overcome a few literal addictions which had stripped my life of all meaning; I was a zombie, a slave to a lifestyle I never imagined I would find myself in.
October 11th, 2017, my son was born.
It is a gift to start from scratch. I ventured forward in my life optimistically; genuinely excited.
I got some clean time under my belt, and read multiple books, audiobooks, and web sites on self improvement, living in the moment, enlightenment, etc.
[QUESTION]
Nearly every day for the past month I have anxiety that shows up around 2pm, lasting for about 3 hrs.
I meditate and take action, but after recently getting fired and then rejected from a grad school I applied to, I have no idea what my purpose is or where to begin. There is so much wisdom here, and when I feel like my recent past is still gripping me like a spider's web, I watch a video or meditate. Often both. But I am lost.
With all this wonderful wisdom like staying in the present, and methods to chase your dreams, I wonder, when my life has crumbled (which I still see as just a part of my journey) how do I learn from the beginning who I am and what my dream is at 32, watching my young beloved son, and searching for... Something.
