Avidya

What's your take on Drunvalo Melchizdek, and his talks about living in the heart, and how one is able to directly manipulate reality (eg. gravitational waves) through the realisation that everything is interconnected "all is one", and reality is one conscious, intelligent mind? Additionnally, that one is able to communicate with other beings through the heart. Bearing in mind that information between subatomic particles travels 100.000 faster than the speed of light: https://www.nature.com/news/2008/080813/full/news.2008.1038.html?s=news_rss Im letting my mind run wild: If all of reality is interconnected and all is one, is there really anything that confines the ability to manipulate reality at all levels? Mentally we know it is possible, but what about physically manipulating. Eg. accessing "other dimensions" gaining the ability to pass information to others, as subatomic particles (/ Ourself) are able to do it? The posibilities of future technology post-enligthenment are literally endless. This is the ideal utopia of a more advanced alien-civilisation, who doesnt need to travel, if they are able to acces deeper dimensions (think about the movie "Interstellar") Here he speaks about gravity: What is your stance? IS this/he bs, or is there something to it?

Felt like the world is in chaos. Just a thought. I can feel all the impurities in my mind right now, and sometimes it just overwhelms me. At the same time, life is fucking meaningful to me. Im growing. Really. But sometimes i just doubt myself and wonder if im deluding myself. Whether or not i will ever go anywhere, or maybe im going the wrong path. There is automation in me, which now, follows my intuition and gut feeling, I know when things are right, but wow i feel confused sometimes. Will it pay off? Should i just quit this whole game, and be dumb, get a lot of chicks, booze and party. Excited but also overwhelmed. I worry sometimes that im just a "self-help junkie" or too lofty and im just in my own world dreaming about big picture thinking. Fuck no. Fuck no i am not. Fuck no I am not in it for anyone. Not even myself. Im in it because it's right. It just is. I'll fucking stick through. I'll sleep on the street, sacrifice my self-image, fuck with my ego, snort through a vacuum cleaner do what it takes. So long i'm doing whats right. Fuck everything else. Its somehow a burden to acknowledge your own ignorance and looking up on the hill you're climbing, seeing there's a long way to go. Nobody's with you. Noone understands. You're alone. But shit, fucking worth it. PS. fuck yeah

Which workshop was it?

Hi I'll cut to the case. Story I've played guitar when i was 6 till 9. Then i picked it up when i was 12 playing until i was 14. Then i had a break, for 6 months. Randomly, one day, I came across an instrumental piece (Tommy Emmanuel, Classical gas), which I loved and played very much. I couldn't play the piece exactly, since it'd been a long time, but i could just strike the chords, and hit some strings in tune to the video. I cried. Litterally tears out. It felt.., like if you miss a person, a person you have had your arguments with, but youre able to put it aside, reunite and just love eachother. I've got feelings of doubt, when i consider commiting to music. I'd contemplate a lot. Because I've done personal development for a while, and know that i want to connect with life on a deeper level. I wanted to commit to being more concious, liberating myself from dumb ego attachements (this is my top value [life purpose course red.]). I also wanted to raise other people's awareness, give them beautiful insight in themselves, and i did not regard music as a effective method. But i was thinking to practical. Also because i wanted to devote my time to study psychology and enlightement, but now i see music is my source to awareness. When i write music though, when i improvise, there will be moments where i just hit a spot. A spot, which resonate throughout my whole body. Often I can sing melodies, over a chord(without actual words) and cry because it touches me so deeply. I remember after playing guitar with some beautiful tunes, i looked out the window, up to the sky, and was so grateful. I thought that it was so fucking beautiful. The same feelings i've experienced during meditation, but less frequently. This feeling, brings me closer to presence and truth, and directly heals me inside. I only feel the creative force, in the moment i create it, and struggle finishing my work. The thing i have been struggling with since i created a song which made people cry (i was 15), my young mind searching for recognition, was analyzing thinking too much if people would like the music he wrote. Therefore i lost touch with the essence of my art. Now i try to allign, meditate while creating music. But how do I use my creative force and intuition when making art, to finetune it. I mean is it possible to expand the feeling of presence, and use it to allign the art with the presence. When im finetuning I am thinking, because i want it to be good. When i am improvising i am present, and directly connected. How do i mix these to, especially if i turn it into a career, how do I keep the same kind of presence/spirituality in my music when communicating and getting back to it? Example: The videos Leo makes are maybe 10% of the actual work he does, but may be that which put him in his zone of creative force. Is it merely discipline and vision that motivates the finishing 90%? ***Additionally. Something i cant figure out. When i have performed on stage in the past, and i have performed some really authentic, deep vulnerable music, i dont feel the sense of accomplishment or relief, i rather feel resentment. I cant appreciate compliments, i just sort of brush it off, being to harsh on myself. Making me go inside, home and write on more better songs, because i dont feel as if they are good enough. But that shouldnt be that much of a deal, since i presented what was authentic. Maybe, i realize writing this, i should accept my authentic self. What do you think it is? "I feel raped" - Mike Oldfield after his widely succesful debut concert, performing Tubular Bells. You would think he'd be happy, right?

Thank you very much. I get it, the ego, inflates itself, clinging to the process of the creation, needing control and longing for future events. One thing I'm left to wonder, is the difference between meaning and purpose. If all there is left, is meaningless, and creation, what is the meaning(;)) of life purpose. If all is creation, how can it be that some mediums (zone of genius) excites us or/and can be our source to presence/insight into infinity. Do life purpose still remain when enlightenment occurs, or could a enlightened person potentially get equally involved in any creative work?

I see what you mean. And I know in the moments when I write the best songs, I am present, they "outflow", it's not "me" who creates it. But isn't mastery still needed in order to provide the vehicle for infinite intelligence. By vehicle I mean the skillset to communicate the infinite. Like you have to sing, or play the guitar properly and so forth. This do require discipline, conscious effort. What is it that makes it hard to discipline oneself? Is it, as you indicate, thoughts or ego trying to distract one to go deep, to search for truth, like why it's hard to meditate?

Hi I'll cut to the case. Story I've played guitar when i was 6 till 9. Then i picked it up when i was 12 playing until i was 14. Then i had a break, for 6 months. Randomly, one day, I came across an instrumental piece (Tommy Emmanuel, Classical gas), which I loved and played very much. I couldn't play the piece exactly, since it'd been a long time, but i could just strike the chords, and hit some strings in tune to the video. I cried. Litterally tears out. It felt.., like if you miss a person, a person you have had your arguments with, but youre able to put it aside, reunite and just love eachother. I've got feelings of doubt, when i consider commiting to music. I'd contemplate a lot. Because I've done personal development for a while, and know that i want to connect with life on a deeper level. I wanted to commit to being more concious, liberating myself from dumb ego attachements (this is my top value [life purpose course red.]). I also wanted to raise other people's awareness, give them beautiful insight in themselves, and i did not regard music as a effective method. But i was thinking to practical. Also because i wanted to devote my time to study psychology and enlightement, but now i see music is my source to awareness. When i write music though, when i improvise, there will be moments where i just hit a spot. A spot, which resonate throughout my whole body. Often I can sing melodies, over a chord(without actual words) and cry because it touches me so deeply. I remember after playing guitar with some beautiful tunes, i looked out the window, up to the sky, and was so grateful. I thought that it was so fucking beautiful. The same feelings i've experienced during meditation, but less frequently. This feeling, brings me closer to presence and truth, and directly heals me inside. I only feel the creative force, in the moment i create it, and struggle finishing my work. The thing i have been struggling with since i created a song which made people cry (i was 15), my young mind searching for recognition, was analyzing thinking too much if people would like the music he wrote. Therefore i lost touch with the essence of my art. Now i try to allign, meditate while creating music. But how do I use my creative force and intuition when making art, to finetune it. I mean is it possible to expand the feeling of presence, and use it to allign the art with the presence. When im finetuning I am thinking, because i want it to be good. When i am improvising i am present, and directly connected. How do i mix these to, especially if i turn it into a career, how do I keep the same kind of presence/spirituality in my music when communicating and getting back to it? Example: The videos Leo makes are maybe 10% of the actual work he does, but may be that which put him in his zone of creative force. Is it merely discipline and vision that motivates the finishing 90%? ***Additionally. Something i cant figure out. When i have performed on stage in the past, and i have performed some really authentic, deep vulnerable music, i dont feel the sense of accomplishment or relief, i rather feel resentment. I cant appreciate compliments, i just sort of brush it off, being to harsh on myself. Making me go inside, home and write on more better songs, because i dont feel as if they are good enough. But that shouldnt be that much of a deal, since i presented what was authentic. Maybe, i realize writing this, i should accept my authentic self. What do you think it is? "I feel raped" - Mike Oldfield after his widely succesful debut concert, performing Tubular Bells. You would think he'd be happy, right?