Santiago Ram

@Hojo Yup

With Prestige, work service AND my family. I just want to lock myself up AND stop seeing my family AND social media for Good. I also want to be useful AND like do shit AND stuff.

How to deal with them for Good?

I am angry with them My mom Is very co dependent AND now that everyone left the house she Is insufrerable. That being said, she has a Good Heart.

Fuck life in society! I used to be strong spiritually as fuck in the NA Clinic. Almost a sage. Now I am nothing. I will return to the NA Clinic for Good as soon as I can. One year at a Time. As God put me there, God shall help me remain there.

Yeah, running a clinc Is the highest job (for me)

Yup

I recommend monasticism or a Clinic. Its like a permanent intense meditation retreat.

The devil Is so fucking powerful that if you dont take extreme measures, you will never reach permanent God realization.

Though Im sober, right now I am spiritually weak af

Monasticism is the best antidote to capitalist neurosis.

When I was in the clinic, this phrase led me to see the Kingdom and God. I worked hard as fuck. Despite being lazy normally, I toiled from 7am to 10pm attending these crazos (like myself) by being loyal to this motto. @Leo Gura has mentioned intense meditation, Kriya yoga, and psychedelics to be the three main tools for spiritual development. Hey has missed Seva, Service. Service is incredibly powerful but very demanding. This phrase is at the core of Service, because every demand or favor is annoying but you must give it with increasing Kindness. Behind every anger there is a need. I realize I must say this at the start of every AA meeting, of every coaching session, of every spiritual meeting. Apply It with my mother, with my Sponsor, sisters, addicts, housemates, neighbors and you fellow Actualizers. I must feel the anger double AND feel the Kindness double.

What Is the Truth about ....?

This is a journal of short, half backed and somewhat lazy insights I might later expand

@Leo Gura Today I realized no amount of religion, self-help, philosophy or spirituality will get me anywhere if I dont value Truth. If I dont commit myself to Truth, I will just be playing words games and spinning my wheels forever. Truth Is found in direct experience. Even the scriptures are only valid if they are verifiable in direct experience.

You can save yourself a lot of wasted Time by valuing Truth.

Because if I dont commit myself to Truth, I will just be playing words games and spinning my wheels forever. No amount of religion, self-help, philosophy or spirituality will get me anywhere if I dont value Truth.

I shall not resist my mother. I shall not resist my sisters. I shall not resist my Sponsor. I shall not resist my fellow Actualizers.

Im on a solipsistic state right now. Mood: Good, peace with mother Mantra: unique, I am unique Coffee AND nature walking

If Authority hypnotizes you, attending Victims wakes you up.

I am convinced by now that the ultimate spiritual stumbling block is Authority. Worldly authority hipnotizes you and makes you blind. The way it operates is by offering you security, prestige, material success, attention, advice, money and other things to trap you into asking for more. The more you ask from a projected authority, the more enslaved you become. The way to free yourself is by stop asking things from authority. You are, as @Leo Gura has said, The Ultimate Authority. The shift in my consciousness is clear.

Blasphemy are Lies that contaminante Consciousness. Over time, your Consciousness can become so rotten that there is not a point of return, but that requieres múltiple offenses and obvious warnings AND opportunities.

According to Peter Ralston From one of Ralston's best videos. The reason you don't tell the truth - Peter Ralston Or as Martin Ball puts it It finally makes sense. As @Leo Gurasays, only humans get offended. But lying corrupts conscioussness. I am no longer afraid. It is not a fundamentalist irrational fear anymore, it is a question of Consciousness and Integrity. It makes sense with mystical and non-dual teachings.

You are God and the day of judgement is today.

Being convinced someone is Evil or Satanic makes it impossible to Forgive them. Examples: How can you Forgive someone by being convinced they are Evil? On the contrary, if you see the God AND the Good in them even when they dont see it in themselves, Forgiveness is much easier.