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I can top that ?, shared it with like 10 people, maybe more. Responses have been ignoring, saying they don’t like it, saying they kinda like it, but never following up. So yeah, kinda stopped with it.

This interesting opportunity has presented itself to me. At my university there is about to start a small research on psychedelics, and I have the chance to participate. At first, I was very excited. However, now I have gotten more information about it I am not sure whether it's a good move. Really, what bothers me, is the lack of information. The procedure is quite straightforward. I first undergo some medical and psychological tests (a few hours). On a different day the trip will take place, under controlled circumstances with medical and psychological professional support (few hours in total). A few days afterwards, some short written tests are done determining my well-being. This is all nice and good, and in addition I would get payed 120 euros. However, for the sake of minimalizing the effects of expectations, they do not reveal what specific substance will be used. Also, you don't know the dosage. Here is what they say about the substance: GH001 is a potent, fast-acting and short-lasting psychedelic substance of the tryptamine class producing alterations of consciousness and perception (so called “psychedelic effects”). The active substance in GH001 has been used outside the medical context for decades in recreational or self-exploratory settings. The aim of the present study is to explore the safety, tolerability, and the cognitive and psychedelic effects of different doses of GH001 in healthy subjects. Each subject will receive a single dose of GH001, administered via inhalation after vaporization. Up to 7 dose levels, ranging from doses expected to cause mild psychedelic effects to doses expected to cause strong psychedelic effects, will be tested. Each dose level will be given to a group of 4 participants. The study will start with a group that receives the lowest dose level. A higher dose level will only be given when the prior dose level is considered to be safe. The dosages that will be investigated with GH001 are based on dosages reported for recreational use of the active substance of GH001. However, participants will not be informed about the actual dose level they receive to avoid expectation effects. For the same reason, subjects will not be informed about the actual active substance in GH001. Dose information and information about the actual active substance can be provided to participants after the study has been completed. Related psychedelic substances such as LSD, psilocybin or dimethyltryptamine have been administered in contemporary research settings in healthy and patient populations with a low risk of adverse reactions, however GH001 differs from them in terms of nature, time to onset, intensity and duration of the psychedelic effects, and it may have a different side effect profile. You will be administered a single dose of GH001 via inhalation after vaporization. The present study is the first clinical study to determine the safety, tolerability, the psychedelic and cognitive effects of different doses of GH001 in a controlled environment. That is why the information regarding possible side effects below is based on available data from the prior recreational use of the active substance of GH001. The dosages that will be investigated with GH001 are based on dosages reported for recreational use of the active substance of GH001 and are expected to provide anything from a light psychedelic experience to a full peak experience. The type and intensity of symptoms can vary significantly between different people. GH001 may influence your feelings (euphoria, joy but also fear and panic) and perception. During the experience, GH001 may also cause visual and auditory hallucinations, a distortion of time and space and alter the perception of your own body. A peak experience can consist of spiritual, mystical experiences such as feeling one with the universe and a sense of losing self-control or ego dissolution. The psychedelic effects of the doses used in the current study are expected to startimmediately after inhalation with peak effects within 1 - 15 minutes, overall duration of effects of about 30 minutes and some after effects for about 1 hour. Anxiety and/or nausea are common at the onset of the experience and trembling and dilated pupils may occur. At doses that cause a peak experience short term unresponsiveness or unconsciousness are common. After higher doses, the ability to form memories of the altered state of consciousness may be affected. Some users of the active substance of GH001 from recreational use have reported psychological difficulties, including anxiety, sleep disturbance, and resurfacing of some of the acute effects, which can last for several weeks after the experience. In recreational use of the active substance, nausea, vomiting, tinnitus, blurred vision, high blood pressure, increased heart rate (pulse), coughing, and difficulty breathing have been observed. Further, there are very few reports of fatalities where the active substance of GH001 was administered in unknown doses of unknown quality in combination with other potentiating psychoactive drugs in an uncontrolled environment. That is why this study has a number of precautions taken to minimize the risk for you. These precautions include administration of a qualified study drug, following strict procedures around dosing and providing higher doses only once lower doses have been shown safe, and only in the dose range which has been previously described in the recreational use of the active substance of GH001. Importantly, no additional medication or other psychoactive drugs will be allowed, and GH001 will only be administered in a supervised setting with presence of a medical doctor. At this point, I am leaning towards not participating. Although it's a cool opportunity, and I would like to contribute to the research on psychedelics, the fact that I don't know what substance it is, and what dosage I will get, puts me off. Let me know what you think, and whether you know what substance they are describing!

Hmm I feel what you are saying. I just think that this issue of self is the core from which all other problems and dynamics emerge. For me these different angels definately help to deepen my understanding. However, what gets repetative for me is criticizing things like religion, science, public figures, etc. In my perception these often come by in shallow ways which don’t help that much. If critizing some of these domains, I would rather see an indepth analysis on one topic. Like for example going into depth on science, would love that. When just scim criticizing, I just take over the criticism without the deep understanding Leo has behind them.

Thank you. I decided not to participate.

Oh, to add to that, my experience so far with psychedelics is around 30 trips with psilocybin truffels. All pretty low doses (15 grams max).

@Leo Gura Yeah I get that, just thought you were oversimplifying the situation.

Just tried this technique of just laying down, and deliberately choosing to remember my true nature. In the matter of minutes I was able to reconnect quite deeply, after little spiritual involvement for a good week. You can choose to remember. Truly choose it. No one to do it but you. Cut out the bullshit and question your desire.

@Apparition of Jack yeah!

Hmm, I think its more complicated than that. Maybe that’s the core of the feminist movement. However, I do think there are unhealthy parts to the movement. For example, I talked to a girl that actually clinged so much to her identity of being a woman, and to woman being supressed by man, that she started to project all her own insecurities and problems outwards. I talked about wanting to become an entrepreneur and that I had some struggles with it. She became angry about this comment, because for all men it is simply extremely easy to become an entrepreneur in her mind, only woman could struggle in this. The conversation basicaly ended there, because anything I said afterwards was ignored.

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If it is all about letting go and being in the moment, how come such enormous discipline is required? Why would god make it so hard for itself to know itself?

So wait a minute, do I exist or not? ??????

Why would you care about all this as a regular human being, just trying to libe a nice life? Sure, truth for truths sake sounds nice, but it sounds so complicated, there is all this suffering involved, so alianating and lonely. What is the motivation, what is the vision?

Building on this; whats the connection between limitation and oneness. How come you have a perspective that is limited, even when you awaken?

What happends to the body when you awaken? Supposedly, it feels like you transend it and go outside space-time, but when you come back, what do others observe? Ive had these Samadhi type experiences when others are around, they state that I stopped breathing for a while. Is it not dangerous? Also if there is no “objective reality” out there, how does it keep going if youre not there? how come you dont come totaly omniscient, in the sense of knowing every detail, when you realize you are god? What is the connection between god realisation and still being human, is this a gliding schale where in the end you die physicaly? If all is one, how come if you awaken, I dont? ill be back with more, enough confusion to go around ?

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@tsuki Just sang songs with my girl for an hour, it was amazing ???

Around a year ago I decided to go to a chakra reading an healing session. I didn’t know much about chakra’s, I was just exploring and giving it a shot. As soon as the women touched me to make a connection, she started couching like crazy. Turned out I had a major troath chakra blockage. After I understood this, I did research on it and started to work on it. This resulted in quite a journey with a lot of stuff happening. Me communicating stuff to my mother, a girl I liked in the past but never expressed, crazy dreams, sexual expression. Also, I had major breakthroughs, especially during psychedelic trips, of opening my throath chakra. I think it also plays a major role in the backpain I have had, also for more than a year. The chiropraktor also thought it came from me neck, and gave my excercises for it, which Ive been doing. During sex I have had several times where all of a sudden I get this wierd feeling of frustration and wanting to scream. One time feeling my throath blocked so much I volentarely put my fingers in my throath to throw up, which relieved it a bit. Throwing up has also been a part of this. I used to fear it a lot. I overcame this fear for the most part, throwing up volentarely, and facing it during trips. I also had this period that I wanted to scream. Quite often I would go to my back yard and scream as hard as I could. Or going to a nearby bridge and doing the same. Also, I would swear people around me cough all the time. Especially when I become aware of my throath. Like an empathatic reaction. One time I was sitting in my room having a break-through opening, and my roommate downstairs started coughing very hard at the same time. Overall, I have become much more aware of my throath chakra, feeling when its blocked. Also I’m trying to fix my posture. However, I feel like I have worked on it a lot, but the problem keeps arizing. So often I feel like my throat is closed, almost like being choaked. I have that feeling right now as Im typing this. Anyone have any suggestions for how to fix this?

Simpy think about this question: What do I want to create in my life? see your life as a canvas think about what you want to paint on it and than go do it

@Aakash Hmm yeah, that might be physiological dynamic. But like you say, it feels like its some kind of survival mechanism I picked up from childhood, maybe perceiving that expression was dangerous (and I can see why). Thanks for your replies ??

@Yannik Thanks, watched that video a while back, and literaly just before making the post ?

@Aakash Daym, if thats true, it will take a long ass time lol. Better get my puking bucket and tissues out ? Not turning this into a limiting belief though ?

@Michael569 Ohh yeah, I forgot to me mention that part there was quite a lot of crying involved as well. Not for any particular reason it seemed like, just crying and letting go. Before that I had not cryed for years. The fear of being judget part hits home. Haven’t experienced any anxiety attacks though. Thank you for the breathing technique, I will try it out!

I feel like its connected to deep patterns from my childhood. Than on top of that came the whole actualized and spiritual journey, which I have mostly kept to myself. I feel like if I fully express myself my life would change radically. it already has, but that there are deeper and deeper layers

@Aakash Hmm yeah, I think there is something to that. Especially the breathing. ive been trying to breath more fully, and especially breathing through to my upper chest and neck helps. @tsuki Not really any serious effort no ?. When there is the opportunity I try to express myself through singing, not hold back, but haven’t done it as a regular practice. Would you recommend it?